December 8th.

Job 10 / Micah 6 / James 2

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With what shall I come before the LORD and bow down before the exalted God?
Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old?

Will the LORD be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of oil?
Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

When Christ came into the world, he said: "Sacrifice and offering you did not desire, but a body you prepared for me; with burnt offerings and sin offerings you were not pleased. Then I said, `Here I am--it is written about me in the scroll—I have come to do your will, O God.' "

I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure.

Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that confess his name. And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.

Being an animal, loving what animals love and acting like animals while we have no possible way of being pleasing to God, is not our fault. We are born into the consciousness, and that is the point of it being a curse on all mankind—there is no one who is not born into it, who isn't led by the animal instincts. There isn't a human that is not a slave to its domination over them, and it is such a part of the fabric of what man is that it isn't even detectable as an actual component which can be thought of as good or bad, because the way it works is to make each one consider itself inherently good, therefore true criticism is impossible, as just a matter of the way it works. There is no way of seeing it as it truly is, which is why nobody ever does.

Although we can see the propensities in people as well as the side-effects and problems it creates for them. The animal nature is why there is injustice, oppression and wars between the humans, who feel that it is their right to oppress if they have the opportunity, and their right to bend justice so that it serves them. Wars are the natural outcome of the human dilemma, each one in a bubble of servitude to itself, each side thinking it is right and the other wrong, needing to be proven wrong. "There will be wars and rumors of wars" means that the humans will rule the earth and subject others to their righteous (in their mind) ways, and that's just what they do when they have the power to do so. It means that there won't be any swords beaten into plowshares, or lions laying down with lambs, or infants playing near wasp nests, because the natural creation will still be intact and the humans will still be bent on subjecting others to their way.

People think it's just a flaw of the particular people in question, when someone is overly affected by the negative aspects of how that nature works (too bent on selfishness, egoism, power mongering or tyranny of many sorts). However, everyone is totally dominated by its will, which is to make themselves serve themselves, by that predominant idea that each one is good no matter what they are. It's fine for the animals who are driven to survive, because that incentive provides for the motivation to do it. That is the blanket, the super thick, impenetrable membrane that is set between God and the humans so they remain unclean, unable to just come to Him at their whim because that's the way He set it up and wants it to be.

The christians teach that anyone can come to God because He just loves everyone the same and it's no big deal because everyone's invited and it's free and cheap to come to Him. Each one individually serving the animal which is them, the opposite of what God requires, the new commandment to love each other as Jesus loved the disciples, which is impossible for humans to do because their nature prohibits it. Love is not being nice to each other on Sunday or tolerating other animals because the threat level is low in church. There is no possibility of fulfilling the commandment of the Lord as long as the animal nature rules us as it does all the humans, according to God's desire that they do not come out from there and be healed.

Love according to God the Father of particular sons is something totally different than that. Love is between particular brothers who know something about themselves and that particular brother at whom their love is commanded to be aimed. It does not go according to the animal nature, which dictates that love is only possible in certain scenarios. For instance, in the infatuation period between animals a specific and powerful version of love is available for a limited amount of time, for the purpose of the coming together, the mating and the production of offspring. This is when defense walls are lowered and vulnerabilities are available because of an instinctual chemistry of attraction that happens. Love songs are written and vows are made under this influence, which are oftentimes broken once that chemical romance is over.

Another very powerful version of love is possible when the object of this other "falling in love" has been produced. That is, the paternal instinctual compulsion to love what came from one's body, the creature that contains a very real portion of one's own DNA. In that sense it is a very selfish love, which follows the animal compulsion to love oneself, because that which contains one's own DNA is in a very real sense one's own self. The pride of parenthood, of considering one's own children special and better than the others is the same thing that one feels about its self—that it is special and better than the rest of the humans.

That is a necessary component of survival for animals living in a hostile world, but it's also the thing that makes them unable to go the opposite way—that is, develop an actual, true love outside of the boundaries of what the nature that rules them allows for, according to its compulsion to love itself and that which shares a fundamental component of its invisible fabric (the same DNA). Therefore, this idea of love between merely conceptual "brothers," that is, those who aren't of the same molecular fabric, is quite impossible and can be little more than an attempt to do what can't be done. One cannot change by the power of will what they are in their most fundamental selves, which is what they are according to the instincts that rule and compel them to be what they are.

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.

This command was delineated by Jesus to a specific group of men to whom a certain ability to not act like all the rest of the animals must act—because they are compelled by instinct to act and be a certain way—would soon be given. That ability in fact would be given to them precisely for that specific purpose—that they indeed could begin to act differently than they had been able to act before, than the humans are naturally able to act because of the nature that compels them to love themselves because they need to survive. The new command to love in a way that was unfamiliar to them was not given to the general public. On the contrary, Jesus specifically said things to the general public that he knew would drive them away from him, not toward him.

"I am the bread of life. Your forefathers ate the manna in the desert, yet they died. But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which a man may eat and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, "How can this man give us his flesh to eat?"

Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in him. Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your forefathers ate manna and died, but he who feeds on this bread will live forever." He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum.

On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"

The things he was saying to the general public were against everything that was in the Jews to be able to accept, and it seemed to be against the law of Moses. However, the law had been changed by the lying pen of the scribes to make it what God hadn't intended it to be.

How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!

It is like precious oil poured on the head, running down on the beard,
running down on Aaron's beard, down upon the collar of his robes.

It is as if the dew of Hermon were falling on Mount Zion.
For there the LORD bestows his blessing, even life forevermore.

The intention of God was like this, rather than what the Jewish leaders turned it into, which was something for themselves, what would sit well with them and would help them maintain their status quo as leaders without being shepherds. The blind leaders leading the blind followers isn't a thing that pleases God, which is seen over andover in Jesus' responses to their confrontations. The general public were not his aim, as was that of the leaders who thrived on bigger numbers, which was an enhanced ability to be able to oppress for their own gain. He was sent to the poor and oppressed, to heal the sick and give sight to the blind (the metaphor of God's mercy versus the humans' incessant to exploit for their own gain because of the nature of self-love and the many justifications that accompany it—"I'm doing this for God.") However, he didn't aim at everyone because the message that was more important than any other he had, could only be heard by a certain group of people, those who heard a specific thing inside them about him and who he was, those who weren't like all the others.

From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

The reason this specific group of humans were different from all the others whom Jesus wasn't specifically speaking to was because they were chosen by the Father to be able to have those particular ears to hear His voice telling them who Jesus was, while everyone else saw him and didn't see what they saw or hear what they heard. These specific people were chosen for Jesus' sake, to be able to give him at least a little comfort while he did the work of believing what *no one* else heard. They were able to see and hear just enough to be willing to be loyal to him, even though they didn't understand what was happening.

Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."


To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

What does the truth set us free from? That old animal, our nature which prohibits us from being able to love because we can only be its slave, we can only love our selves no matter how we dress it up or pretend we're loving, or even able to love that which isn't our own flesh and blood. When some of the humans read the new command and feel like they should at least pretend to love, that isn't love although they say it is. The animal nature is the thing that keeps us captive within the natural creation and its cycles of death, one in identity and purpose with all things in creation that exist only to die, without any other hope than that. But if we don't believe it's there, then how can we be set free from it?

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

The words of Jesus don't apply to us unless we're willing to accept what they mean, and we can't know what they mean unless we're given the ability to see, hear, understand, then turn and be healed (of the animal curse and dilemma). There is no accepting the word unless the word has been given to us, put into us. Unless that happens we don't even have the choice. We just remain animals, only able to be pretending to love and fulfill the commandment.

Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the holy spirit to those who ask him!

Jesus said knock and the door will be opened. That means that the door is shut, and has to be opened for one in order for that one to find the gift that Jesus is talking about. And what is that gift? The life of the unseen Father living inside the son, which is a guarantee that he will be remembered by his Father. So why is the spirit something they should have wanted and asked for from God? It's the thing Jesus said they should ask for. Not just arbitrarily though, according to our skewed understanding of its nature and purpose—what we might think the purpose was for the NT believers. This is the only group by which we can begin to evaluate it, and we do have written evidence about what its effect was on that small group of people. How did it affect them? It allowed them to find the way back to God that had been lost by Adam, hidden since the garden incident which is linked directly to the getting of the animal nature.

Both things happened at the same time. Driving them out of the garden was kicking them out into the world, making them one with the animals, symbolized by the skins He put on them. At the same time, the way to life was made unavailable, impossible to get to by this new creature that had been created. No longer was he a son who got to live in God's presence, who had access to the way to life. Now he became a stranger to God, an enemy because of his new consciousness.

The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them. And the LORD God said, "The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever." So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.

Without the spirit living in a man, he has no idea what its purpose was for those NT brothers, and no way to attain to what they had because the animal is unclean that way, and can't know God because it can't come near Him. It is why the Israelites couldn't touch the mountain when God came down and filled it, or He would have to break out against them. The way to God is hidden, covered by a huge mountain so that no one can get to it or find the way on their own. That is symbolized in God filling the entire mountain so that if man or animal even touched the mountain it would be destroyed. Man and animal were subject to the same requirement because they are the same in purpose and consciousness. While God filled the mountain only one man and his brother, whom God chose, could come up to Him, could find their way to life. The tree of life was guarded by a flaming sword when the animal consciousness had been put into man, when he received his new "skin."

The LORD replied, "Go down and bring Aaron up with you. But the priests and the people must not force their way through to come up to the LORD, or he will break out against them."

With the spirit of truth, we can know the truth and understand that it was in them to break down the animal stronghold which before they were slaves to—to reverse the consciousness of Adam, the state that makes it impossible to actually love our brother. It is what Jesus had because the spirit, or the life of God living in his body, was in him from birth. It is what the disciples eventually had, which allowed them to be changed from beings with natures that had no idea about God and no capacity to love, to beings who possessed the opposite nature—the evidence we can read in the writings of Paul, for instance. By the degradation of the animal's domination over them they were able to shed the animal skin (the symbol of the curse), participate in the Father's love and find their way to the tree of life, pick that fruit and eat it. They were able to actually abide with God, in His presence, as Adam did before he got kicked out. That is highest thing a human can attain to in this life. It's also a situation that the animal cannot stand, which isn't an accident—the purposes of the two collide; they are always opposed to one another.

The assumption of men is that they're okay as they are, they're just a little imperfect, but apparently, according to their observations, that's just something they're going to have to live with, as it doesn't seem to be going away or getting much better. They have little band-aids for their curse, like talking about their problems, but they can't shake free from what they are—individualistic, independent, self serving and loving at their core—and so cannot ever love as Jesus loved, the Father or the specific brothers chosen for him to love.

There is this other assumption, created by the humans, that the sinful nature is something far removed from them, and if they are acting like the "good people," then they are immune to it, or not affected by it, not under its control. If they aren't acting like the "bad people," then there's this assumption that they are right before God, even if they're actually unable to fulfill the command of Jesus. They conveniently also assume that being nice to each other on Sunday is loving their brother because it fits the nature; but is that what Jesus said means to love our brother? That comes straight from the whore, embodied in the whole notion of "christmas spirit," where people become nicer to each other at a certain time of the year because of some arbitrary holiday that the whore created which celebrates the birth of their made up jesus.

So what does it mean then to love our brother? There must be a power that is strong enough to diminish the animal's control over us so that we can do something besides loving our selves, which is our consummate act of evil. That is what it will take in order for us to love our brother. Nothing less will do, as is readily observable in the world of actual human behavior. There is no denying it or getting away from it, no loophole to jump through.

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

So why a shameful death without dignity or respect. Why a death likened to a common, shameful, lowly criminal—someone who had been cursed by God? Because it is *exactly* opposite to what the animal would choose. A large component of the animal nature is the need for respect and admiration from other animals. It is a component of the ego aspect of the animal nature (the other two are appetite and wealth). It is a way to preserve one's self; being held in high esteem, being respected, or merely accepted is just another avenue of survival (emotional).

We have the recorded events that show how Peter was willing to die for Jesus as long as he thought their struggle was noble. He had seen Jesus do miracles and was convinced that he was the long awaited Messiah, so he wasn't afraid to fight for the kingdom of God to come back to Israel, because he was sure that God would be on their side. He had faith that Jesus came from God, but Peter thought Jesus was misdirected. Peter had no idea of what was actually going to take place, he just took the faith that he was able to have from his observations, mixed it with his natural animal aspirations, and ran with it. He ran like an animal because he was natural, and was ignorant of what God was actually doing in the spiritual world.

Peter declared, "Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you." And all the other disciples said the same.

This was Peter's feeling toward Jesus because he saw and believed the Lord. He responded to Jesus' authenticity, yet still held on to his own desire to hang on to his life, to keep the animal intact. What Peter couldn't handle was the test he later received, when Jesus and the cause didn't seem so noble. That is the point when identifying with Jesus would mean shame and possible arrest as an accomplice.

The men who were guarding Jesus began mocking and beating him. They blindfolded him and demanded, "Prophesy! Who hit you?" And they said many other insulting things to him.

The Lord did not prophesy, nor did he use any force to stop what was happening to him, and in turn to their cause. As Jesus shamefully submitted to the will of the animals for the sake of God, he (Peter) was asked (by God, according to the events which unfolded) to identify with his master who before Peter declared that he would never disown. Three times he disowned him, even going so far as to swear it to be the truth.

Then he began to call down curses on himself and he swore to them, "I don't know the man!"

Peter went outside and wept bitterly.

Peter's denial of Jesus wasn't the end of him as he may have thought in the moment. We can see that he was genuinely affected by it, saddened by what he had done to the Lord. It is a nice contrast to the decision that Judas made, in the same vein, yet much worse. Judas' denial of Jesus' authority over him was a total sell out—there was no redemption for him because he was in total service to his animal nature without any respect for the way of God, which was different than his and Peter's way. For Peter it was hard in the moment, but eventually a good thing for him when he was able to submit to God's way instead of the animal's.

It was teaching directly from God, engineered by Him for Peter's sake, the beginning of him being able to see that he was totally dominated by the animal, and that its purpose was the opposite of God's purpose. Seeing how totally dominated we are by the animal curse should bring glory to God, because He made it that way, and it's perfectly efficient in every way. He made it to protect Himself and His sons, so the only way one could come near Him was by His specific intention to transform that individual.

Jesus' definition of loving his brothers, the 12 men God had given him, was to give up his life for their sakes, and he plainly told them that the same would be required of them. Not in the way they determined it, but in the way God did, the way He provided by offering up His precious Lamb to be slaughtered for their sakes. Now that is great love on the part of God and Jesus, and He expects the same from all the sons who desire to truly follow. The illegitimate sons follow the rules made up by men, who are nothing to God. God allowed His precious Son to die a shameful death at the hands of the animals who hated Him, yet said they loved and served Him. Indeed, they assumed they were doing God a favor by having Jesus eliminated.

For if there had been nothing wrong with that first covenant, no place would have been sought for another. But God found fault with the people and said: "The time is coming, declares the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and with the house of Judah."

So what makes everyone think that the same thing won't happen again? After a long period of darkness in the land, God completely changed the way of salvation and what it looked like, and nobody could predict it, nor did they. There has been an even longer period of darkness on the earth since the abomination which caused the present darkness and desolation over the earth. The humans who assumed they controlled the way God must work also called Jesus a blasphemer, as they will us, because we follow the living God, who will live inside us and whom no human controls, not the gods who were made up by the humans (father, son, holy spirit, and devil).

What is precious to us—respect from other men as someone who always does the right thing, who never acts shamefully according to the way of the animal? A desire to be held in high esteem by the others, to be a good person, a good man? Is our career precious to us—our ability to provide for our family, to find an identity in the world so that we feel like we are someone who has purpose and is able to do the noble thing? Is it our right to survive by providing for ourselves, to spend the majority of our time working for the man so we can buy another house, or a bigger bank account, or anything else that might make us feel safer? Is it being special, talented, smart, or extraordinary? The same thing is precious and guarded by all animals who are driven by that universal force to survive at all cost and promote their selves, their program, their life. Humans define the need for survival in many ways, but all in all it's still just their pukey little individual, temporary, earthly life that they are guarding so relentlessly, as any animal naturally would, driven by instinct to do it.

I loathe my very life; therefore I will give free rein to my complaint and speak out in the bitterness of my soul. Are not my few days almost over? Turn away from me so I can have a moment's joy before I go to the place of no return, to the land of gloom and deep shadow, to the land of deepest night, of deep shadow and disorder, where even the light is like darkness.


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