October 20th.

2 Chronicles 12-13 / Ezekiel 46 / John 13-14

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Jesus replied, "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.

All this I have spoken while still with you. But the Counselor, the holy spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. "

It is good to ask real questions which produce contemplation in us—a motivation to understand and accept what is true instead of pretend some things are true when they are not true. The serpent that guides us will always want to hide behind self-justification and agreement to find and maintain a self-righteousness that it can convince itself and others by. Hiding is the first thing the humans did after they became dead, when they immediately inherited what God had promised beforehand.

And the LORD God commanded the man, "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die."

For the humans, dying meant not instantaneous physical death, but the death of the possibility of a relationship with God who wanted to be their Father, and they His family. They were immediately stricken with a new nature that was fearful, which caused them to hide from God instead of be near Him. They were transformed from creatures who were tame and could come near to God, into those who were like wild animals, who ran away from God and hid behind and tree because they were afraid of Him. This all happened because the seed of death that was living inside the fruit, which looked harmless, even good on the outside, came into them when they ate it.

The concept of pretending on the outside something is true, while in the heart there is a different reality existing, is what all human animals do because of their tendency to hide, inherited from these ancestors cursed with death. It's a very common thing for a man to be one way on the outside, the place where the other humans can observe him and by which be able to evaluate him, while he can also live another life and identity altogether in the deeper places where they cannot see—of his heart, where none of the other humans can access unless he gives it away. This is the place where we keep our very valuable treasure of who we ** are in our most honest places. Around that life and identity are the walls we construct to protect our valuable treasure.

If all psychological evaluation began with this premise which is ubiquitous to the humans, it would make things a lot easier; and it could actually be, because everyone does the same thing as per that original curse. However, the humans don't want to imagine it to be that simple. They like to pretend that because they're so complex and intricate, it could be so many different things that cause all kinds of neurosis and mental and emotional grief. It's all about wanting to survive, being driven to protect that very valuable thing deep inside us, therefore each of the humans builds up their fantastically complex walls so that their treasure can be defended. Sure the walls may look different, but they're all built for the same purpose, and to the same end, while the same process is employed for the same reasons.

With our defense walls we can hornswoggle men if we're good enough actors. We may even be able to make ourselves believe it by certain strategies of rationalizations and justifications that our human mind engages in for the purpose of survival. It also helps when there is an entire group of like minded people doing it, so that the natural reality is constantly reinforced instead of the spiritual reality, which is unseen and unknown by the humans.

That phenomenon exists to reveal to the sons of God who have ears to hear the truth, that there's no way to get to God from the outside, by being this or that among men. The only way is to be pure even in those deep places where no human can see. We'll find out that that's pretty much impossible if we try to be honest about it. Yet it is required if we are to come near to the Father. Double-mindedness is not an option for those who are being called to become pure in their heart, which is not lying and hiding anymore because of inherent fear, which is the animal definition. If I am honest I actually admit to the nature I have, and am plagued with—am in a prison to. The idea of the human being inherently good, which is the trend because the hiding goes throughout the culture of man, doesn't fit into the son's consciousness. That would thwart the impetus for the journey based on being inherently evil and searching to become good, according to the Father. Here are some questions I am asking about myself:

Why do I always, constantly, desire to look after my own needs instead of others'?
Why would I be able to do that more easily if I had my own children?
Is this state of self-absorbed existence something that I should just accept and conclude that I cannot change?
Why is it so hard to actually love, which is Jesus' command to the sons he was sent to teach?
What does love look like—how is it actually displayed in a real situation?
What has God always wanted from His people?
What is the end, the ultimate purpose of God?
Why did Paul suffer?
How could Paul be so happy while he was suffering so much?
Why did Paul's life, goals and aspirations so drastically change?

I understand that there is something that pulls on me like a force of nature, that it is so natural for me to always think of me all the time—what I need, how I can be satisfied, etc. I am driven to be that way because of the instinct that drives me and all the other human animals to protect my very valuable treasure, which is the one life I have to live here and everything that defines, protects and enhances that life. It's even hard to write this because of the pull to want to not disclose any real information about me, but hide behind words or concepts or even pretend I have accomplished something that I haven't. However, that wasn't even an issue until after I was being called to this journey to go to the Father by way of becoming honest in my secret places. The sons of God have to be able to know things that the others cannot, because their purpose in life is different than all the rest—even because that is the Father's desire. It starts with the understanding of this total duplicity that exists in the humans—the secret treasure and the walls built to protect it—about which they otherwise must remain ignorant.

There is a force that exists in the world, a kind of law, which is that thing I'm talking about that I seem to be in a prison to. That force is the animal nature, which are the instincts that are naturally in me, the condition that was put onto the first humans a long time ago, what they were cursed with because they believed and trusted the animal (snake) rather than God. It makes sense when we consider the wild animals, not the tame kitties and puppies (how the sons must become like to God); but the deer, raccoon, skunks, rats, etc—the animals living in the wild. When we do a quick survey in our minds on what they do, we can conclude that they pretty much survive—eating, sleeping, making babies, driven by instinct to remain alive by not getting killed.

Some have higher purposes like community, but it stops there as everything they do is for the survival of that particular community to which they belong. Also, it's not a higher purpose, but instinctual survivalism, i.e. they don't actually take care of the others in the community out of love but instinctual compulsion. For instance, if I had my own children, they would have my own actual, physical (although unseen) DNA inside them, which would connect us, and I would be driven to love them (take care of them, feed them, work my ass off to make sure they had enough of everything), just like a mama bear is driven to take care of her own cubs, driven by an extraordinary compulsion to do that. However, it would actually be an extension of me loving myself, since it's an extension of me that I'm loving and I would be okay with that—which is generally good for animals, so that the young ones are taken care of and can survive.

So it's not actually love, but it is a picture of love, of working hard to take care of the community and its interests, giving one's life for that protection if it's threatened. I'm thinking of bees, which are a pretty miraculous picture of perfect community in what they're instinctually driven to always do. The continuity between them all is because they all come from one mother, the queen of that particular hive. The humans are the same way, driven by instinct to only be able to have a community like that with their own flesh and blood, with the others who share their own DNA that is being passed down amongst those who come from their bodies. Human families have the ability to exist along the same lines, fighting for the survival of the family and the particular members of it. If I'm an animal who is destined to remain that, then I won't ever even see it, so it is what I must remain. My destiny in that case is to do what everyone else does and live out my life, passing on that DNA to another "life," which is the natural version of living forever.

If I am being called to become a son and I know it, then an understanding of that nature will be revealed to me, which is the very beginning of learning about the fundamentals of the transformation from the one condition (what everyone else is and doesn't even know it) to the other (what I must become to even begin to draw near to the secret Father who is hidden from the humans at large, who is only revealed to His own sons—the chosen and called). The only reason that the sons will live forever is because they have been made one with the life of the Father who must live in them. That is their guarantee, the deposit that tells them the Father intends to redeem them from the ground which would otherwise have just swallowed them up forever.

Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love.

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another. .

The reason Jesus' entire message is so extraordinarily unique and revolutionary is that he spoke directly against those instinctual drives about the human family, and he advocated not regarding the human family in the way that the humans are naturally inclined, instinctually driven even, to act. He said that the human family was not worth anything to the sons of God, because their human fathers were not their fathers at all if they were chosen to be God's sons, just as Joseph wasn't Jesus' actual father.

Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn 'a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—a man's enemies will be the members of his own household.'

The sons of God are to learn about spiritual things, because their Father is the spiritual being; while they learn that the natural things are not important because they just go away, so they learn to let go of all the things by which they were able to guard that secret treasure within them. Basically, the life that Jesus said the sons must let go of is the collective set of things that go into the wall that is around the son, which is guarding that very valuable treasure inside his secret places. Although you wouldn't know it by the way the humans act, there's no actual permanence to the things they seem to think will last forever. Everything exists for a short time and then it dies, going back into the ground.

Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

"Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?" Pointing to his disciples, Jesus said, "Here are my mother and my brothers. For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother."

One of their most important revelations (and perhaps the hardest to accept) will be that the spiritual family they are chosen to be loyal and faithful to isn't the same as the natural family they come from. The latter is just another part of the creation, which continually dies and is just as surely continually replaced by other members who exist, then die and are replaced by the next ones. The former is the secret purpose of the secret Father even from the beginning, to have His own true family of the sons whom He kept secret from all the other humans at large, just as He is secret.

I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd.

If I can admit how I am I can draw conclusions such as that my nature is very much the same as the animals'. There is a constant pull and force in me that always wants to survive in many different ways, and I'm literally driven by the instincts that are naturally within me to be and do according to them. They're very complex and were developed and perfected within me over a long period of time, when I grew up and away from my original state, that being totally dependent on another human for my survival, toward being independent and able—expected—to take care of myself.

Physically, emotionally, mentally, philosophically—the idea is that this thing controls me and makes my first response to take care of myself, to self-promote and leave everyone else in the dust (except my own flesh and blood if I had any). This might not be even a little bit significant for the humans, because that's the way they have learned are the correct and right way to be. However, for God's sons, there is a different family, and it's not the same as the natural family, so shouldn't be expected to be so.

Here are some tendencies of the animal that I am: I want to be special, different, better, noticed for my attributes. I want to build up things around me so I can feel protected from some unknown thing that might happen. I want to indulge in things that make me feel like I want to feel in the moment (even if they produce in the long term undesirable consequences for me). These needs, cravings, tendencies, etc. all come from within me, to drive me to do them or be whatever I think I need to be to survive better, be happier, attain whatever. It's important to understand that they're there, and they do come up within me to make me think, act and be, because the first tendency is to pretend they're not, which is the hiding I am driven to do because of the same nature.

Don't you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, `Show us the Father'? Don't you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me?

Jesus' consciousness wasn't arrived at by adhering to a set of doctrines, but by seeing the secret message within the law given to Moses and the writings of his true brothers the prophets. The same drive to find and know the Father was in him too, driving him toward the same singular thing. He understood the spiritual reality as it was taught him by the Father who lived in him, as close as the deepest parts of his heart so that he could learn at that deepest level, where he was most defined as what he actually was. Learning, knowing, then obeying and being faithful to the spiritual reality was why the Father loved him. It is the same Father who spoke to his natural father David, whom God loved because he had a heart (his definition of being in the secret places within himself) that longed to find the secret God.

The words I say to you are not just my own. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the miracles themselves.

He didn't learn about the spiritual reality from the scriptures he heard being read alone. The life of the Father was alive in him to teach him the secret things contained within them, just as it was the same life in him which allowed him to do the miracles he did. They weren't from any power Jesus possessed within himself, but only from the power of the life of the Father who lived in his body. The miracles proved that the Father lived in him, and were not as intrinsically important for him or God as they being One.

I will remain in the world no longer, but they are still in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, protect them by the power of your name—the name you gave me—so that they may be one as we are one.

My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

The Son knowing the spiritual reality is the only way he was able to know the Father, because the Father is the spiritual reality—everything that is comes from Him. The miracles were for the humans who had been chosen to become sons, for their benefit so that they could believe and accept what would have otherwise been impossible, because Jesus' message for them was just too far outside of what they were willing or able to accept.

This, the first of his miraculous signs, Jesus performed at Cana in Galilee. He thus revealed his glory, and his disciples put their faith in him.

The flip side of this is the reality of the things he said to purposely drive the humans away from him, because he knew what would do that.

On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"

"Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit (the truth about the spiritual reality) and they are life."

It is of value to note that the 6th chapter of John is about him weeding out those who couldn't be true and faithful to follow him wherever he would be going.

From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

There is a tremendous declaration of vulnerability here in this question, as he saw the many who had been flocked around him turn away and leave because of his words. He must have felt scared by the abandonment that happened, even though he purposely said the words the Father put in his heart/mind/mouth. However, he did not want to push away those whom he knew had been chosen to become his own true brothers by the Father, the flesh and blood humans he would save by doing his work, just as he would be saving the brothers he heard about from the reading of the OT scripture, those humans whom the Father loved, but couldn't be near because of their cursed unclean animal nature.

My children, I will be with you only a little longer. You will look for me, and just as I told the Jews, so I tell you now: Where I am going, you cannot come.

The most central message of Jesus, his words and his life and purpose—his work, job and mission—was not for any human purpose, but according to the spiritual reality about which he was fully aware. That is pretty much the opposite of the natural reality of the humans, what they wanted him to do and be for their sake. Who he came for and what he was is not what they wanted or expected of the Messiah they mistakenly thought they had been waiting for. What he said and did demonstrated that he understood the spiritual reality, and although it was opposite to the natural reality and what it wanted him to be and do—the animal that was trying to get him to be an animal like it (as the serpent successfully tricked the first humans)—he was faithful to that instead of the animal pull of the natural reality. It was not an easy deal for him to face his fears and continue to listen and obey the voice of the Father, so we cannot expect it to be easy for us either, because we will find that those fears are real, not theoretical like we can keep them when we're not having to face them and go further in to where the Son went, where the Father expects all of His own true sons to go as they follow the firstborn Son.

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.

The Son's love for the Father is the thing that set him apart from all other men—his drive to fulfill the Father's desire instead of his own. That love for the Father could only have been real if Jesus knew the Father, and in knowing Him, grew to love Him because the spiritual reality grew while the natural reality faded or remained dim. That's not to say he wasn't tempted to take hold of the natural reality and fulfill himself with the power he had to do so; that's what the temptation account is all about.

The christians don't know how powerful that is, nor the purpose of it being recorded, because they think 2 things regarding it, which nullify his purpose and significance—they think he was a god, and that the devil was some external entity, another being with a personality; and not what it was, which is what it is for all the sons of God. This is why we believe there is a blanket ignorance about the way to the living God (the way the real Jesus went, the way all the sons must go) right now, because the truth that Jesus gave and what the apostles had went away and is not available, as predicted by God's prophets. Everyone who says they follow the jesus god doesn't know who he is, nor what the sinful nature is, because they don't know about the spiritual reality—they only know about the natural reality, which is not the same as the spiritual.

The opposite of the spiritual reality is the natural reality, what's highly accessible to the humans because they're an integral part of it. The animal need, craving, impulse, and pull to self-preserve, to take care of our own interests instead of the Father's is built right in to the humans. It is the tempter of Jesus, in Matthew 4:1-11, and so elemental to the message and life of Jesus, the truth about the spiritual reality, that it's the most important thing one has to know about Jesus in order to know what's true and significant about him, and why the Father loves him—and what's required of all God's sons, to say no to the animal because they have the choice to do that, whereas the common animals (humans) do not.

That truth was known to the first century christians, but it went away as per Daniel's prophesy about the abomination, when the unclean animals would set themselves up in the true temple so as to defile it, and then the earth would be made desolate of that condition of God living in the hearts of men. Everything that happened in the christian world from then on was all made up by men, based upon their mythological musings about the gods they created after the likeness of Roman and Greek gods. The world has been in darkness, devoid of that condition written about by the NT authors, since. They turned the truth into a lie, all according to God's purpose.

The condition of the humans being under the curse of the animal nature isn't a fluke, but is because God intended it to be that way. It's such a powerful thing that the humans who are under it can't even recognize that, because God engineered it to be that way, so they wouldn't. The animal is driven to take care of itself, so the thought of denying itself is nasty and absurd to it. One could only understand this if they believed that the devil was not some outside entity, some fallen angel. It is in fact the force that stands between God and His sons. It is their very nature, what defines them as unclean animals so they cannot be brought near to God to minister to Him, to be useful to Him, to be enjoyable to Him; or for His purpose in any way because it makes them just the same, to Him, as a leaf on a tree, or a rat, tree or bug—just another part of the natural creation, existing only to die and become part of it again in an unconscious form.

What is the conclusion we have to draw about the Lord's ultimate work—to die on the cross? More precisely what are the ramifications of the work to kill that animal nature with its pull and control over all men, which stands in the way of the son and his Father, so that the chosen sons can become freed from its control over them? All men? No, only God's sons, the ones He chooses, loves and wants to be in His family. It bruised his heel, but he crushed its head. To kill the animal hold on the sons he was ironically made into an animal, the serpent on the pole, untouched by the uncleanness of the animal yet made one with it, so he could kill it.

From that time on Jesus began to preach, "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near."

This is a message he is trying to tell those listening to him: "That animal pull on you that makes you trust and believe the natural reality and prohibits you from seeing the spiritual reality, which makes you think you need this and that, and trust in money to make you feel safe, the need to feel better and different and special—it's all a trick and a lie of the animal in you, if you have been chosen to be able to see the spiritual reality and who your Father is. If you knew what I knew, you would know that you don't have to seek or actually worry about anything in the natural, as the animals are all driven to do and live by because they can't help it, it's in their nature to be and do that.

Once you begin to be able to see and understand the spiritual reality, you will have to learn that nothing is important except what's important to God, and to find and know His love. Although it's a foreign reality to you now, you will learn that everything you need will be given to you for your survival in this world, and if not, then you don't need to exist any longer and then you can go be with your Father who loves you. You are only a stranger here, a foreigner in this land of the animals, so don't love what all the other men love because all this stuff that men think is so important is going to be nothing—it all goes away and doesn't last. Nothing matters except finding God and His love, so seek it and let everything else go, and you will find it. But if you only say you are seeking, but actually love the things that men love and think are so important, how are you different than any of the humans who don't know God? The animal will tell you that you can fool God, but you can't fool God."

This only seems idealistic because we are so bamboozled by that animal in us that we cannot possibly consider the words of Jesus anything more than concept. We're still so fully animal in nature that we see with eyes that say to us the world is such and such a way, and there is no possibility of those words being actual. So we keep them in the conceptual and just pretend they are actual. That's why Jesus said that with God all things are possible, which are impossible with man.

In the writings of Paul we have the record of the testimony of a man who was at one time, like all humans, controlled by the animal. Then at a certain time, according to a specific choice, he was set free from its grip on him, so that he was able to abandon that nature of self-preservation (the animal) and adopt the new nature of the son who was consumed by God's love so that he in reality—not theoretically—looked after God's interests rather than his own.

Jesus told the 11 that the Father lived in him, and he lived in the Father. Now how could this be? Well, by the unseen force of God, called the spirit of God in the preserved words. This is His power and life as it exists in regard to the natural, or men's lives. Because it's not made up of actual atomic material, it cannot be seen or comprehended by man. It exists as a different reality and in a different dimension than anything man is able to comprehend because of its makeup—spiritual, not natural. Jesus also promised it to the 11 men, as he told them that he would live in them and they in him, not conceptually but actually, via this unseen spirit. The spirit was him, in the new form of his body once he went to the Father to become One with Him.

Because it is unseen, the humans will conclude that it does not exist, because they can only believe what they can see and comprehend with his natural faculties. Because of the lies made up by humans, many will assume they have it living in them when they don't, because they want to believe it so they make themselves believe it. It's only for the sons, though, who are chosen to have it, to accomplish God's purpose for them, which is for Him, so that He can have a home and a family.

"Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." By this he meant the spirit, whom those who believed in him were later to receive. Up to that time the spirit had not been given, since Jesus had not yet been glorified.

This spirit, the life of Jesus, the living word, is what inhabited Paul's body and is the answer to the question of what drove him to abandon everything he loved before, so that he could pursue this other reality. It is the only way the sons of God can actually know their Father, if it also lives in them, because God is spirit, and they must know the truth about the spiritual reality in order to know God. None of the humans who claim to have the "holy spirit" can lead the sons to the Father, or show them how to get it, because the humans only have the lie, which has been given power to deceive whoever wants to believe it.

I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

It is the way that it is possible for Jesus and the Father to dwell in us and we in him, so that we can know Him and eventually know His love. It is what can free the son from this thing we've been talking about, which has a complete stranglehold over him. The spirit wasn't actually able to be given until the Lord did his work, until he actually crushed the serpent's head by becoming the Lamb, by becoming the sacrifice that God offered in exchange for the freedom of His sons. Most importantly, until he went to the Father and became One with Him.

To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever—the spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you.

I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.


Then the prophet Shemaiah came to Rehoboam and to the leaders of Judah who had assembled in Jerusalem for fear of Shishak, and he said to them, "This is what the LORD says, `You have abandoned me; therefore, I now abandon you to Shishak.' "

They (the Israelites) will become subject to him, so that they may learn the difference between serving me and serving the kings of other lands.

He (Rehoboam) did evil because he had not set his heart on seeking the LORD.

The men of Judah were victorious because they relied on the LORD, the God of their fathers.


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