July 19th.

2 Samuel 3 / Jeremiah 9 / Matthew 20

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Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength
or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this:

that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight.

Kindness is what the Father gives to His own children, who are defined as that by what nature they have chosen to obey; which nature they have declared, by their choices and decisions, they want to be ruler over them. The choice is the nature of the animal or the nature of the son of God who by patient endurance comes from suffering to learn the obedience of turning away from the animal toward the Father, which is always objectionable to the animal and why it's suffering. Turning away from the animal on the outside is one thing, but only a beginning because the the inside, or the heart where only the Father can see, is where He desires the son to be given over to Him.

Haven't you read what David did when he and his companions were hungry? He entered the house of God, and he and his companions ate the consecrated bread—which was not lawful for them to do, but only for the priests. Or haven't you read in the Law that on the Sabbath the priests in the temple desecrate the day and yet are innocent?

Choosing the son's nature over the animal in that secret place of the man's heart bears all significance, even trumping the external e.g., it didn't matter that David ate the showbread that was only intended for priests because he knew he was chosen and already anointed by God, even if the external anointing ceremony, by which the humans would recognize that he was their king, hadn't taken place. God chose David, thereby declaring His intention even while Saul was still in the position of king according to the humans. Saul had the people's recognition as king, while David had God's declaration, and a few hundred men given to him by God as a comfort.

I tell you that one greater than the temple is here. If you had known what these words mean, 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice,' you would not have condemned the innocent. For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.

Those who know they are sons of God know that it didn't matter that the Son did work on the Sabbath and allowed his disciples to gather food (wheat), forbidden in the written law of the body, of the external—for the physically circumcised humans.

"What do you think, Simon?" he asked. "From whom do the kings of the earth collect duty and taxes—from their own sons or from others?"

"From others," Peter answered.

"Then the sons are exempt," Jesus said to him.

Exempt to satisfy their animal cravings and appease their animal fears? Exempt to do the work of the Father and be bound by His commandments, which transcend the external. Again, not to by hypocrites or act like the privileged sons of the wealthy who think they're above what the common people are bound to because of their privileged position amongst the humans, who give them that privilege because they worship money and those who have it. The sons are free from the external commandments because they have chosen to be bound by that which transcends everything natural. They have chosen to be bound to the Father and His reality so that they can be conformed to it, and not to that which binds the humans to theirs, which is everything now and nothing later.

Don't I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous? So the last will be first, and the first will be last.

The Father's commandments transcend the humans because the Father doesn't conform to the humans, and neither do His own sons. That's why they are put in situations where choosing Him over what the humans expect, need or want from them makes them look like lawbreakers, like irresponsibles who don't deserve the respect that the humans dole out for one another. The Father doesn't want them to get those kinds of kudos; He wants the opposite for them which is a statement the Son makes over and over about the last being first and the first being last. Another way of putting that is "The way of the Father is opposite to the way of the humans." The Son says it a lot because it's an important thing to be able to truly comprehend, because it is the very nature of the snake living in the humans to instinctually drive them to seek out what has been established by the humans as valuable and good, and therefore what they should be engaged in running after all their lives, to secure for themselves.

The pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

The Father's commandments aren't a license to do whatever we want, but rather to do what we naturally are repelled by, what is impossible to do in our natural animal state. That is first of all to be able to recognize His purpose, which is to have His family of His own sons with Him. Then it is to recognize those sons and begin developing a love for them and the Father, and the Son who is the head of the family of all God's chosen sons. That is, to disregard the human systems of familial recognition (DNA sharers) and instead to recognize the Father's system, which is secret and hidden from the humans because it exists in a dimension that is unavailable to the humans, what the Father consists of, spiritual matter that transcends so it's not limited by the natural space and time constraints by which the humans are bound. The life of the Father goes where the humans can't go and sees what the humans can't see—into the son's heart, which is the place where he is most truly defined as what he is according to the Father.

"The days are coming," declares the LORD, "When I will punish all who are circumcised only in the flesh. Egypt, Judah, Edom, Ammon, Moab and all who live in the desert in distant places—all these nations are physically uncircumcised, but even the whole house of Israel is uncircumcised in heart."

Having one's foreskin cut off is being permanently marked for life. It is something that can be verified by looking at the male sex organs with the eyes to see if it's been done to the person or not. Similarly, a girl being or not being a virgin can be verified by a physical examination of her female sex organs. Uncircumcised in heart is a totally abstract term to the humans, something they cannot measure or know about, be able to verify or put their seal of approval on. It is something that can only be determined by the Father and the Son, and whomever is allowed to see.

I desire mercy, not sacrifice.

I am not writing you a new command but one we have had from the beginning. I ask that we love one another. And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.

That's a good reason judging our brother is not done by the sons, because we are usually not mature enough to be able to not be led by the animal nature in doing it, which cannot love. What looks like some kind of sin on the outside could very well be a testing from the Father and that's not always obvious, even to the one being tested and especially not to the one observing. The brother who knows this, who actually may be more capable of having the wherewithal to be able to judge—because he is led by God's nature more than the animal—will be less likely to judge his brother because love doesn't condemn (judge) but extends forgiveness because it's in him to be able to even do it.

The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. Whoever has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.

That is the good gift that comes down from the Father (the ability to love instead of hate, which is actually freedom from the animal dictates to self-preserve, kill him before he kills me, etc.). It's what the Son tells his true brothers they should ask and seek for above everything else, because it is the hidden treasure—to be able to actually love as God loves, and forgive from our heart because we know and believe. That is being set free from that animal need to constantly survive, which makes love impossible except as dictated to the individual by the nature that rules him. That is being a son of God instead of being a son of the serpent.

Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment!

It's what enables us to see that the things we naturally crave to hold on to in our heart are animal instincts and urges, and are there as survival mechanisms. The kicker for us is that we don't need them any longer because the Father is actually able to take care of us, in real terms, and we believe that in our heart because he's broken in to our world and shown us so it's not just a matter of thinking, hoping it might be true but actually knowing. And as we believe we are given more ability to believe, so that it begins to miraculously overtake the disbelief of the animal and crowd it out, so it's kind of a snowballing effect.

Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.

Love grows in the son of God as he grows up before Him, into His nature and away from the animal's. The reaction of extending forgiveness happens because the one doing it actually believes that the Lord is real and capable enough to judge whether the man's heart is circumcised or not. If that one doesn't believe that God is real, then he will naturally act like any animal led by that nature, and out of fear will attempt to control the situation by whatever means he feels he has at his disposal—whatever power is available to him to do what he feels needs to be done, and done by him. There's no other way to act because he understands that nobody is gonna do it for him.

It's like a chemical reaction, and perfectly normal behavior. Because there are inherent instincts built right in to the animals, when they sense they're all of a sudden in a threatening situation the fear thing turns on so they can protect themselves without even having to think about it. They're reaction to certain threatening situations, on a level below reasoning, makes it click in automatically.

Belief in God has everything to do with that animal nature that is automatically and categorically on all the humans when they pass over from child to adult. The sons must go backward, so that belief in God and Jesus isn't just some generic idea, like we believe He exists or is real or something which doesn't actually make any sense—there would be no practical benefit to God in that. A child's ability to believe isn't forced or theoretical, but real—despised by the humans and loved by God. Children don't have to force themselves into believing something that the adults can't believe because they sense by their dead animal acumen that it's not there. The child just accepts it, which is what the Father loves and the adult human animals detest.

The way God benefits is through finding a son with whom He can actually share His love, a son who actually depends on Him for everything so that without Him the son knows he is lost and nothing. That's a far cry from the nature that's made him believe, via years of observation, that he must survive by his own hand and that he is inherently important enough to do it above everything and everyone else. The ultimate statement of this truth is when the Father had to leave Jesus alone on the cross because He couldn't be with him when He heaped up the animal onto him so it could be killed when his human body was destroyed. We have a vulnerable, candid picture of Jesus' surprised reaction to that happening, which seems to indicate that it's the first time it did happen. Jesus may not have even known it had to happen, or was going to, as noted by his surprise, which doesn't make sense any other way than that: "Father, why did you go away from me—why did you leave me alone here?"

From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

The abandonment the Lord felt right in that moment shows how close he was with the Father, how clearly he knew the love that only comes from the Father to the Son. He was like the most dependent little child, who knew His love on the level that is not where thinking happens—in his heart, the most real place according to the Father. He was filled with the love that is pure, the gift of the knowledge of this love which also happens in the place that surpasses knowledge. We can also observe how much the Father separated and protected Jesus from being touched by the animal nature which always wanted to snatch that condition away so that it could rule him. The word that is planted gets snatched away by the schemes of the animal always wanting to automatically protect itself with its inherent instincts. Because of it the animals are deprived and devoid of the love of God and it means nothing to them.

It can only ever be some sterile concept in them because one thing totally dominates them (animal nature) and the other thing is totally missing from them (the knowledge of the love of God which only comes from being rule by the Father's nature, which defines that on as a true son of God). What the animals are reading are the words of a small group of humans who were transformed into the condition of son of God, as Jesus was as their model and example before them (only more perfectly so because it never ruled him, because he had to be the perfect, unblemished Lamb). So when they wrote about "Knowing the peace that passes understanding" and, "The love of God that is in Christ Jesus," these were states they were in, whereby they were miraculously changed from the animal who is devoid of love, to the son who experiences it.

They didn't just write these things as concepts that they may have hoped for; they experienced these things by the miraculous power of the spirit (actual life of God living in their bodies), and that is what made it rule them, as the life was true in Jesus. They didn't have to prove it to anyone out of fear that they had something to lose or that they had gained it by being able to convince another that they were more right. They were sons of God and they knew it because God proved to them that they were chosen and sealed up as such. The love of God was in them thoroughly and actually. Whatever happened to them in this life didn't matter because they were not actually subject to the humans who could only end their natural existence and had no say about anything else.

I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him. Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

The sons go backward, so that they become like little children, who are dependent on their parents to utterly take care of them. In fact, little children don't even know any better, and can just take it for granted. They are able to depend on the parents because they know something about them, which is that day after day when they wake up the parents are there taking care of them, feeding and dressing them; and night after night they are still there, putting them to bed. So the little child knows the parents' love, not because they tell them with words they love them, but by the fact that they see it, day after day and night after night, month after month and year after year, so they know it for certain because that knowledge is a part of their consciousness. There's nothing more true than that action of real love, and words are cheap.

That's why since the Son and the Father came to us, they haven't gone away. To the contrary, their presence in our lives has grown stronger and even though we're still young we can see that they haven't gone away. It wasn't something we made up, or a warm fuzzy feeling, or some mental disorder or misguided, out of whack emotions. It isn't about feeling this or that way. It is all about the word of God, which is His intention that we become sons. Once that declaration was made at a specific time in our lives, the work of transformation began and hasn't stopped. It doesn't matter how we feel, what matters is that we understand what has happened.

As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it
without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

It is something we *believed,* even from the beginning because when we saw what was real we recognized it as such, and the contrast between what we saw and what everyone else told us was truth was startling in a very naturally subtle way—even through the adversity we faced for the crime of believing that what we knew was true, even though we were the only ones who knew it, and to everyone around us it looked false, wrong, evil, bad, and against everything they held up high as sacred. We didn't shrink back but kept going forward, believing the word that had been planted in us, and even now it is becoming stronger and growing thicker, wider, taller and more lush.

Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.

Being rewarded for being chosen doesn't make sense, any more than it makes sense that Jesus would be rewarded for doing something that would be easy for some god to do. We are rewarded for doing the work of believing, which is work because it goes against what is naturally in us, what we're constantly pulled to do and be because of our animal nature. When we say by our actions that we want to be sons led by the Son's nature, not animals led by the serpent's nature, we effectively say we believe louder than words and concepts and the ability to follow human rules which just leads to being accepted by them, so not much of a sacrifice. Then we're given even more ability to believe, more of the gift that only comes from our true Father. His love, the spirit, the comforter, the counselor all keep telling us that He isn't going away, that He stays because God is the perfect parent who never has to go away from us.

Therefore this is what the LORD Almighty says:
"See, I will refine and test them, for what else can I do because of the sin of my people?"

The only times it seems like He does is for our good, because we need to learn to trust Him instead of our self, and believe so that we continue to be turned into sons and not animals. We didn't ask for our condition to be put on us, but it is on us because that's the way it is. We suffer now because the animal nature keeps us from knowing our Father's love, from coming near to Him so we can be in His presence. It is there for that purpose, so when we have been chosen to become His son, that condition *has to* be stripped away from us so that the better thing—the nature of the son—can be put in us, so we actually become a being the Father can and does love, the object of His love.

What man is wise enough to understand this? Who has been instructed by the LORD and can explain it? Why has the land been ruined and laid waste like a desert that no one can cross?

Being disciplined as a son, as per Hebrews 12, is just that—learning to be led not by that animal nature any more, but by the voice of the good Shepherd who speaks inside us to lead us to Him. Naturally, it is not there, and so we must learn the new way. Learning it consists of much suffering in saying no to those urges and instincts that are so easy to be led by because they're all we know and have before it's our time to be chosen, when the Father comes to us. Learning the new way is hard because it's something we do not want to do, like a horse being broken so it is of use to the owner. Being disciplined is only the beginning though, because the more important reason we have the nature of the Son instead of the serpent is so that we can recognize our true Father, the Son who is setting us free from the prison of self-love, and our brothers who loved the Father more than their own lives, which is why we will increasingly love them more than our own.

We are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.


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