July 17th.

2 Samuel 1 / Jeremiah 7 / Matthew 18

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I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me.
Your love for me was wonderful, more wonderful than that of women.

We have a craving and need to figure everything out for ourselves, how the new things fit into our temporary life, making things make sense. That is the animal's need to be in control of our destiny, to hold on to what happens because we think we can do it best—that we must because we don't trust the Father to actually take care of us, because He is unseen spirit and we are natural, because He is hidden and we like everything seen and observable so we can calculate and find an agreement within ourselves about whether it's worth it or not to trust the Father. That is just one example of the evil that still lives inside us, even long after we know we've been chosen and we've already made some progress away from the animal.

The poor will see and be glad—you who seek God, may your hearts live!
The LORD hears the needy and does not despise his captive people.

We are not immediately restored to a place of never ending peace with God, but caught in the middle of a struggle that is real and intense, but only after the Father's truth (that He and no other is our true Father) has been revealed in us. There is no generic gods, whether savior, father or spirit that can speak to us the way the Father does, secretly yet clearly in a different kind of clarity—one that cannot be boxed up or purchased like we purchase every other thing we want to own and be able to control. It is one that goes away but comes back, not necessarily by our own beckoning unless it is His pleasure to do it. There is nothing human about the Father and the way He wants to train us up. Actually the way He works is mostly opposite to the human way and what we expect/need/crave/want because of the instinct (evil) that is still living in us.

The journey is cloudy and we cannot see very clearly until we start to obey the word whose intention it is for us to come away from the old way, what is plugged into us like stripes on a zebra, our very nature we incorporated into our selves when we passed over and became mature, dead animals. Sometimes it does get clear (so we don't fall away) and we are able to see and rejoice within our selves. In those times we often think of no tomorrow, but that the feeling we are experiencing in that time of clarity will last forever. But it doesn't, not because the Father is mean, but because He doesn't want to give us the chance to apply the evil in us to what is good. Otherwise we would without a doubt try to box up the good so we could hang on to it, so we could own it like a pet in a cage we think we can keep and show off like we were so special. What we want to do is be able to control it so it's always there, so it won't ever go away from us, and so we can decide what we want it to be.

Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.

The Father, for our benefit, keeps us from being able to do that because He knows the power of the animal in us, that we're not responsible to have the good thing yet so He has to regulate it and keep it at arm's length from us. Though the Father may be willing, the animal is still too powerful, and we are weak. We are liable to say how great everything is and how much we believe, then turn around and grab and hold on for dear life because all of a sudden we can't believe. It's not something to beat ourselves up over, and certainly not something to judge our brother about (his inability to be perfect) because we are ourselves so liable to it taking us over and ruling us in a second, even when we're thinking how good we are.

Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment!

One thing we do because we are unbelieving animals is make the mistake of thinking that knowing is more important than believing, or that they are the same thing (leftovers from our exposure to the lies of religious myths). Just saying we believe isn't anything, because that translates into thinking certain facts. Actually doing the work of believing isn't an action we can take, but a response to something that has already been initiated inside us. Believing that the Father will take care of us is not just something we think theoretically, perhaps because we read some words in a book or an "expert" told us we could get something (go to heaven) if we do such and such (learn, think and adhere to certain facts about what they say the words say). So we think that forcing ourselves to say that we do, even when we know in our hearts we don't, is somehow pleasing to God because a group of humans said it was so, even though in our heart we understand that's just stupid.

We know that we weren't even able to start believing until the Father was revealed in us, at the certain appointed time when it truly started happening. That old, leftover thinking comes from our animal nature and our experience with the religious animals in our former life who reinforced the idea that we were right with God because of something we believed—that that was what belief meant. What we didn't know then is that believing as Jesus meant it isn't about thinking certain things, but believing God is real enough to take care of us. That is the first thing we learned that we needed as soon as the life came to us, because it put us at odds with the humans we were inclined to trust as the experts they claimed to be about how to get to the Father.

It was a tumultuous time because we had to trust what we weren't familiar with, and felt many times like we were in a state of abandonment, having just been punched in the stomach by the experts we were before trusting, all because we wanted to trust what was happening inside us that we knew was true, what we'd been waiting for a long time for, and had arrived in us. But it immediately put us at odds with the humans we were trusting, whom we thought knew the way. What we weren't aware of then is how completely baffled they all were/are as per that secret way, precisely because it is secret and hidden from the humans (they are and remain humans without the secret knowledge of the way to the Father).

Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

The animal that completely and utterly inhabits the humans can only trust and believe in what it can see, touch, observe, comprehend, manipulate and own for the purpose of being able to control it. Since the Father won't allow us to destroy ourselves, He keeps us safe from being able to do that. The animal tells us that the Father may be real but he's not that real—not enough to actually take care of us in a real way. That's the animal perspective about God, who the humans may want to believe in, but because of their condition as unbelieving animals can only think of Him as far away (which He is, for them, for a good reason—because He wants it that way).

It's hard to believe. It's so much work to do that because it goes against what's naturally in us, what's reinforced by the world in us to keep us with its perspective that the only thing which exists is the world we can see, touch, and hold onto. We may think so many times it's futile because progress is hard to see since it's a secret journey far removed from the animal's powers of observation and agreement finding (the old way). The reason that it is a positive thing for the sons though is because every little bit if the work of believing is a hit against the animal that is so thoroughly inhabiting our body, mind, heart and consciousness.

We are bound, because we are primarily animals with that nature, to constantly try to gauge, justify and hold onto the good thing (life of the Father and Son living in us) by trying to explain to ourselves the new way and life of God via what we know as animals (the old way). It's natural to do this because the old way (of the animal) is still stronger than the new way (of the Father). We don't learn to not do it by something we have read or think we've figured out. It has to come to us via the secret (because it's supernatural, not like we know things to be) teaching that the teacher gives us. This may include the manipulation of natural things, events or people, but the learning is done and known on a level that is deep within us, what is called the heart, in the spirit part of us where he lives. Because the humans cannot see what's happening, they won't be able to give us what we deeply crave—the validation that enhances our egotistical needs—an important thing for the animals to always be getting for itself. But again, that is the old way that must start to fall off.

You should not be surprised at my saying, `You must be born from above (of the Father's DNA instead of a human's).'

The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the spirit.

He doesn't live, inhabit or abide here in any natural sense, bound by any of the limitations that earthly beings are bound by. The Father and Son's life dwelling in His family of sons is such an unfathomable, unnatural phenomenon that we can't understand it with these dull animal minds. The life dwelling in our hearts is just the closest thing to it so we can even get near toward understanding it. We have to remember our minds are earthly, of the animal, and so are limited by its limitations, and the spirit is not. That might help keep us from being carried away so quickly by our own biases, prejudices and presuppositions, but we won't be able to help that for a good long while because of our condition.

What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost.

Another thing we cannot fathom is how important we are to the Father. Without us, His family would be incomplete and imperfect. Without us He would be getting cheated. He has already shown us repeatedly that we have been chosen specifically and individually over others who don't know what we have (because they can't see it, because it's not a natural phenomenon). They can't observe it, so they think it can't be happening, but we know it is because He has proven it to us over and over. It's difficult for us to believe because it's a spiritual reality, completely unknown in the natural. Comprehending how the Father actually works (that He favors and chooses some over others) goes against the myths (that He loves every human animal the same and wants them all to be with Him) we have heard all our life (even though the words clearly say that He has favored some over others, and does choose some over others)—so it's a continuing struggle, and why it's called work to believe. The lies are completely reinforced in the natural, which can only reinforce its way in us as we're exposed to it (and the human animals it lives in to infect), which degrades our ability to comprehend the spiritual reality, what we are just barely beginning to comprehend.

What we're doing day after day after day is not doing the work of the preacher, or the self-proclaimed teacher of his gods' people who has so much humanly derived wisdom for them. That is a joke, an evil craving of their own animal nature, which might be evident should they become able to consider how little they are actually able to believe and how little they actually know about the spiritual reality. But they have to put on the act that they have some special knowledge about the way to the Father because there's a lot riding on being able to do that. If the people who trust them to show them the way actually knew that they had no more of a clue than they did, why would they continue coming to their building, giving them money and more importantly the valuable animal currency of the egotistical validation they give to their leaders when they sit and quietly listen to them perform their public speaking routines.

This is what the LORD Almighty, the God of Israel, says: Reform your ways and your actions, and I will let you live in this place.

Do not trust in deceptive words and say, "This is the temple of the LORD, the temple of the LORD, the temple of the LORD!"

If you change your ways and your actions and deal with each other justly, if you do not oppress the alien, the fatherless or the widow and do not shed innocent blood in this place, and if you do not follow other gods to your own harm, then I will let you live in this place, in the land I gave your forefathers for ever and ever.

But look, you are trusting in deceptive words that are worthless.

Will you steal and murder, commit adultery and perjury, burn incense to Baal and follow other gods you have not known, and then come and stand before me in this house, which bears my Name, and say, "We are safe"--safe to do all these detestable things?

Has this house, which bears my Name, become a den of robbers to you?

But I have been watching! declares the LORD.

It is the animal nature that rules the humans, and it's that nature that makes them inherently evil and unclean, not good as they assume themselves to be. How they adapt to it and learn to get for themselves by manipulating circumstances, opportunities and the fear that inhabits the humans by pretending to be able to appease that animal fear is something they've always done since the beginning. Our day in and day out existence is learning almost by a form of slow spiritual osmosis, sort of soaking in the new way of thinking, living and believing that our Father is alive and able to take care of us, which when we see that He in fact can and does, reinforces our belief that He will do the greatest thing and save us from the fate that all the animals face, but which few are able to come to terms with in order to be able to choose the way of the Father over what they want within their rotting, aging, decomposing even while they're still breathing bodies. Their gods can only promise them one eternal thing—rotting in the ground forever as organic matter, becoming plant food, forever becoming one with the natural creation those gods rule.

I gave them this command: Obey me, and I will be your God and you will be my people. Walk in all the ways I command you, that it may go well with you. But they did not listen or pay attention; instead, they followed the stubborn inclinations of their evil hearts. They went backward and not forward. From the time your forefathers left Egypt until now, day after day, again and again I sent you my servants the prophets. But they did not listen to me or pay attention. They were stiff-necked and did more evil than their forefathers.

When you tell them all this, they will not listen to you; when you call to them, they will not answer. Therefore say to them, "This is the nation that has not obeyed the LORD its God or responded to correction. Truth has perished; it has vanished from their lips. Cut off your hair and throw it away; take up a lament on the barren heights, for the LORD has rejected and abandoned this generation that is under his wrath."


At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?"

He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.

Woe to the world because of the things that cause people to sin! Such things must come, but woe to the man through whom they come! If your hand or your foot causes you to sin cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire. And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell.

See that you do not look down on one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven."

This is how much our Father loves us and cares about us, but it's so not in us to believe that, which leads us to the evil of judging our brother and holding him as a target of our anger even when we are pleading with the Lord to do the opposite for us, and even when he has. That's because we're afraid and we don't want to believe He has the power to control the situation for the best, because we always think that we know what's best—just another instance of the evil that lives in us to make us what we assume we're not. The animal is so forgetful, hypocritical and self-centered that only what benefits it is something it feels is important, like reveling in the anger against what we feel our brother has personally done against us, and the idea of vengeance. To the animal that is a sweet thing to cherish and hold on to, but to the sons of God it is verboten. Thankfully, we get to learn that slowly, because if we were held to the same standard we would want our brothers held to, we'd have been wiped out long ago.

Do not go about spreading slander among your people.
Do not do anything that endangers your neighbor's life. I am the LORD.
Do not hate your brother in your heart.
Rebuke your neighbor frankly so you will not share in his guilt.
Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD.

We can't be objective and fair as animals, because it's not in the animal's nature to be that. Subjectivity toward constantly self-preserving is what we are in prison to—the total inability to love, or see how God sees. The only way the animal sees is with the filter of the self on the eyes of its host, because of that animal nature. When we're ruled by the animal we are thus prevented from seeing who our true brothers are, and therefore being able to love them as the Father requires, what the Son commands. The generic love of all humans (because they're so inherently valuable) is the lie that the religions peddle, only because that's the best they can come up with considering their condition of being one which must obey that. There is no possibility to see from God's perspective unless His very life is put into us which allows us to do that. Otherwise there is only the animal, who can always, only work for and love its self. That's the spiritual reality of the earthly creation and its inhabitants the humans.

Whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is concealed is meant to be brought out into the open. If anyone has ears to hear, let him hear.

Our vision is being killed and replaced with the vision and understanding of who we are being made into. A little child who has no rights, who cannot stand on its own, who is totally dependent and can only reach up and choose its Father, yet who has the ability to believe in a pure and honest way. That is very different than a conniving, self-preserving animal who knows how to manipulate the system to survive, who can only theoretically say it believes it is like a child but isn't actually able to believe it. The way the animals survive is to manipulate its environment and trick others so that they become its prey one way or another. Survival of the self isn't just a process or ability but the process and ability is spawned from the impulse and urge to survive, which is built right in to the animal.

The word of the LORD came to me: "Son of man, you are living among a rebellious people. They have eyes to see but do not see and ears to hear but do not hear, for they are a rebellious people."

The only way to properly understand who we are is by this comprehension of our old animal way actually being a hindrance to what we want, and not the other way around. The desire that our self-propelling nature could be killed doesn't come naturally to us. We always want to keep it alive no matter what, which is programmed in us and why it's so effective—yet also why it's impossible to deny, because it's that deep and that much a part of our very constitution.

The presence of the Lord's voice, the living word inside us, is for the purpose of changing the old dog set in his ways of understanding how to survive at any cost, into the little child with the new nature; that is the nature of being like a little child who can trust and believe, which is what pleases the Father—to become His and for His purpose, not the humans in the world, and not even our own (a detestable thought to the animal).

Set apart from the world is the detachment of our self from our own slavery to the animal nature, which the humans help reinforce when we're around them. That isn't done except by a marathon race of learning how to run, then day after day running, never arriving but always staying on the straight path. The old nature is just that—a citizen of the old world where all the humans live and from which they derive their identity. It's the world that we can see, touch, taste, hear and understand with our natural facilities. The little child that is born by God is a citizen of His kingdom, which is not found in this world that is tangible to our natural facilities. It is a new world, which all the sons of God are waiting for.

All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.


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