July 13th.

1 Samuel 26-27 / Jeremiah 3 / Matthew 14

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"How gladly would I treat you like sons and give you a desirable land,
the most beautiful inheritance of any nation.'
I thought you would call me `Father' and not turn away from following me.

But like a woman unfaithful to her husband,
so you have been unfaithful to me, O house of Israel," declares the LORD.

A cry is heard on the barren heights, the weeping and pleading of the people of Israel,
because they have perverted their ways and have forgotten the LORD their God.

Return, faithless people; I will cure you of backsliding.

Yes, we will come to you, for you are the LORD our God.
Surely the idolatrous commotion on the hills and mountains is a deception;
surely in the LORD our God is the salvation of Israel.

From our youth shameful gods have consumed
the fruits of our fathers' labor—their flocks and herds, their sons and daughters.

Let us lie down in our shame, and let our disgrace cover us.
We have sinned against the LORD our God, both we and our fathers;
from our youth till this day we have not obeyed the LORD our God.

The nature that lives inside us the humans does its work perfectly by giving its host that special feeling about itself, the feeling that beyond any doubt and without any question it is the most important thing that exists. That is a feeling that is underneath everything else that exists in us, what drives and produces everything we are and do. Even talking about it objectively requires a great deal of transformation because of the catch-22 nature of how it works to ensure its survival in each one of the animals and especially the humans because they are more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made.

It's interesting that in the third chapter of the record the serpent played such a significant role, but then it seems to almost be forgotten after that. Where did it go? It went into the humans, and they became the crafty animals, more so than all the others—able to rule over and exploit them, and use them to their advantage but also being forced to become one with them and the rest of the dying creation via the nature they are forced to share. That nature is what lives in the humans so that each one is driven by a force they cannot control to love themselves perfectly and incessantly. No one knows how to take care of us like we do, and we do a magnificent job of it. To be able to see this nature in one's self properly, one has to step outside of it, which is impossible because its persistence is what keeps it alive, so remaining undetected is a vital foundation of its ability to be and remain effective.

A first step in the son's development is the ability to see it in other people, which no doubt often happens even before he's called, though the ability to define it and see its origins isn't available until he has begun being given the "eyes to see" what it is. When he starts to see that ubiquitous nature as the sinful nature, persisting in each one, and see how it came to be, there is the beginning of objectivity of it. However, the beginning is the beginning, meaning the presence of that nature in him is ironically the thing that also continues to persuade himself that he is still special, so the detection of that nature in others begins to be easier as his comprehension of the concept grows.

We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

Yet what he needs to see still eludes him because being able to see it in others is only the tip of the huge monster that is humanity and himself as the key player (since we're talking about him and his own animal humanity). That nature is personified a lot of the time in the words because it does seem to have an persistently adversarial personality toward those who consider themselves sons of God. The form it ultimately purely exists as (the origins and nature of the devil—the deceiver and adversary of God's sons), though we heartily disagree with the christian fallen angel myth (the evil god who opposes the good gods, as per its Roman and Greek mythological origins) is not as important to comprehend as how it actually works. The former satisfies more of an egotistical craving to control, which ironically is one of the hallmarks of that nature, so the loop closes in on itself by pursuing that end. The latter—how it actually works—is what leads to being able to do with it what we have to do in order to become free from its control over us, which can lead us toward actually being transformed from the serpent who entered the humans when they were separated from God, into one of His own sons, a lamb who has the opposite nature than what he was born into.

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

One of the most frustrating and impossible to explain things about being called to enter into the new covenant with God and become His son is that it can never be explained by or figured into this natural life that we are and have been living for so long that it's all we know. There was a time, when we were quite young, when we were not fully one of the wild animals—before the time that nature fully set itself and hardened up in us (when we became mature adult humans, fully dead to God with the nature of the serpent completely developed inside us, which defined us as what we were). That was a time when we could believe the unbelievable, when our imagination was fresh and active, when we could fully give ourselves over to things which, according to the adult human animals (who had already become dead to God) weren't there because they didn't and couldn't exist. That was merely a foolish concoction of our pitiable, immature minds.

I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

What the sons of God—those who are chosen and called to become transformed back to that state of being able to believe what is totally unbelievable to the adult human animals—learn to their amazement is that it's actually all backwards, and that the whole world of the adult human animals' consciousness is actually the farce, the thing which isn't actually there according to the Father's reality. That's because of its nature as one huge conglomeration of overlapping cycles of death, creating the illusion of something permanent and lasting.

The disdain that the humans have toward children and their ability to imagine what to the dead animals are so sure isn't there is the same internal disdain and/or pity they feel toward the sons who seem to be imagining like a child imagines what to the adults cannot exist. Even those who say they believe in their gods don't actually believe in them as a child believes, who can be totally given over to that belief as though it were no a forced thing at all, but actually real to them. This is probably the heart of the transformation, and gets to the definition of belief as it applies to the sons versus those who claim to "believe" in their gods but cannot simply because they have passed over from being able to believe (when they were a child) to not at all being able to believe because they indeed in every way have the heart and mind of an animal that is dead to being able to believe like a child can believe—which is actually, truthfully, not needing to try to force it because it's real to them. They have not yet crossed over that line of it not being able to exist.

Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

This should read "whoever humbles himself like this child is," should be letting go of that which the animal strives so hard to hang onto—the reality of the adult human which is lifted up in the community of the humans as the thing to strive and work for to gain for one's self, and everything that goes along with that. In that reality there is no room for the imaginings of a child because that will just hamper the intentions and aspirations to get and possess. A child's humility doesn't jive with the reality of the adult human animals because it is inferior and lacks the perspective that the humans strive to get and retain more of all their lives until they finally get put into the ground so that they can become one with the natural once their cycle has been fulfilled and they have done their part.

And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.

The son's pursuit is never validated in or by the natural creation of the humans who populate and rule it, the most crafty of all the wild animals the LORD God had made because they inherently despise what the sons are after. That is, denying everything that the humans lift up to declare valuable and worship, to attain to and get more of so that they can go further into what the humans find utterly disdainful—the imaginings of a child that they are naturally repelled by to the very core of the nature of the serpent that rules them with an iron hand. The journey can't even be explain by words that the humans understand, which always turn it into something it's not because words can't express the spiritual reality or communicate how the voice of the Father speaks and calls His own sons, and what the life of the Father does to them, things unnatural and unexplainable. It's not a generic call or a hapless pursuit; the purpose of the Father is secret in the world of the humans, but it is insistent and clearly able to accomplish its goal, the same way the devil is perfectly able to do its work in the humans.

It's easy to talk about how we should have faith and to exhort others to do it. It's hard to do it because it's impossible to see that faith and belief as Jesus talked about it is having the ability to believe like that child. However because that is inherently absent from the adult animal's nature, it's impossible to do. What faith and belief almost always gets reduced to is believing the correct facts, and hoping you'll get something from your gods by so doing—learning those facts and then forcing yourself to say you "believe" them (when the ability to actually be able to do that doesn't even exist there). What it gets reduced to is a joke, because it cannot address what's actually inside the person who is being asked to "believe." The animal nature that lives in the humans to direct and guide them fights directly against having the faith of a child (able to be genuine) to believe what we've been told inside us, that which hasn't been revealed to others, so it will not be reinforced or even validated a little by the humans.

And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."

Why after having been around him for so long and after having already seen him do miracles, were they surprised by who he was—why was it so hard for them to believe? Without the miracles Jesus did and the authority he had, he wouldn't have been able to convince the disciples about what was true because they were adults, and the nature that lived inside them prohibited them from being able to see what lie in the realm of having a child's imagination required.

Judas fell away because the animal nature in him was stronger than his desire to believe in the impossible, and what God wanted instead of the animal within him that ruled and led him. Judas needed what he could touch, taste and feel—the reality of the human adult animal—which was to see Jesus made king as per the expectations of a lot of the Jews at the time. Judas wanted to do what the animal nature drove him to get for himself. He wanted greatness now, in this life ruled by the adult human animals, for himself. His desire to serve God wasn't about serving God out of an actual desire that He would have what He desired, but getting for himself—actualizing his desires and aspiring to his dreams for himself and the community, to become great as a prominent member of a great and powerful society. That was something that was held up as honorable and good by the same humans then as it is today and every other time in their history.

Don't destroy him! Who can lay a hand on the LORD's anointed and be guiltless?

It's hard to wait for God to validate what we know we have been given, which is what we have to do as His sons who cannot treat this journey the way they treat everything else in their lives—working, getting, buying, possessing, controlling & retaining. We find a decreasing ability to take pleasure in the animal things, what little hopes come in all the time so as to feel as though our lives are worthwhile and meaningful. "This will make us happy," but it doesn't. Then, "That will," but it doesn't either. Getting a new job, girlfriend, house, car, boat, raise, clothes, food, TV show, identity enhancement, pet—whatever. This existence which used to be our reality becomes like an endless parade of those little hopes that we churn up to keep us going, what keep us interested in continuing to live but never can because they begin to become exposed for what they are. Enhancing our career and identity as respectable animals, another way of satisfying the egotistical cravings and feeling like we are worthwhile in the society of humans (the world), doesn't work for us anymore. Neither does elevating ourselves to positions of respectability and renown to satisfy our cravings. We can't go out and get our own family by our own hand because we are learning that God's family is the only thing that matters now, and being diverted by satisfying our own selves is robbing God of what we have to give—our lives poured out for Him as a living sacrifice.

The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, "Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!

Since you call on a Father who judges each man's work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.

A sacrifice to the humans seems like a waste of something valuable, like a drink that could be enjoyed but is poured out onto the ground, or meat that could be eaten but is instead burned up over a fire until there is nothing left of it. So is the life that is taken by God for His purpose. It is separated from the world of humans by its non-participation in the things the humans love and celebrate. The life of the son of God loses its value in the world of humans because it becomes nothing, and looks like the wine that's poured out onto the ground, or the meat that's completely burned up over the fire and turned into smoke. The humans can't see that God enjoys the smoke, that it was s a soothing savor to Him because it kept reminding Him that at the appointed time His own Son, who would give Him what none of the humans ever could, was coming. The words that tell us that are important to realize, because knowing what pleases God is important. Knowing that God took pleasure in the smoke produced by the burning of an animal as per His specifications points to the better sacrifice, what that Son would be to given the Father what He wanted and purposed from the beginning—all of the Son's brothers, the Father's sons, safe and secure with Him.

What Jesus could have been in the world of the adult human animals as one of them is what the humans (typified by Judas) expected him to become, what the animal nature in him tempted him to grab and take for himself in the temptation account. What he became for them, in the natural, was nothing. His value and importance was only realized in the other world of the spirit, which could only ever have been able to be comprehended with the child's ability to believe, and they were way past that. That is the world where God lives and moves and has His being, what the humans cannot see or understand because they're long since dead to being able to. They can only try to conform what they are able to read about it to what they can understand, which is another reality completely. What they try to do with what is actually for the sons whom God has specifically chosen, is conform it to their reality, which can't be done because it's alive and they along with everything in their reality are dead, existing in their own little bubble of their natural cycle along with everything else. The title of son of God is a position the humans continually assume they can just reach out their hands and grab for themselves, but they can't comprehend the words of the third chapter of the record, that the tree of life is only for the sons of God and it is being guarded by an angel with a flaming sword, so they can't just get at it because they want to. The very thing that that presents itself as within their reality is the nature that completely rules and guides them to be what they are defined as—human adult animals that are dead to God, unable to even be seen by Him because they aren't alive, but follow the rules of the natural creation because they're one with it.

He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.

The record indicates that Jesus was established and authenticated by God—first to himself then to others—as the One who was to come, the One whom the prophets kept mentioning and reminding everyone else was coming because that was the intention of the Father who put that word in the prophets' mind, hearts and mouths. There was a momentum building as more and more of the humans embraced him as that One. Then his life fizzled out and became like the smoke rising off the meat. What nobody could see that was happening—even those who wanted to see and believe—was the greatest and most profound in the permanent world where God is. The flip-floppy principle, a theme of God in His dealing with the humans according to His irony, was at work once the non-Jews started asking to hear Jesus' words.

Now there were some Greeks among those who went up to worship at the Feast. They came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, with a request. "Sir," they said, "we would like to see Jesus." Philip went to tell Andrew; Andrew and Philip in turn told Jesus.

Jesus replied, "The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me."

To the humans the short balance of the rest of his life looked like yet another false prophet being executed, a shameful failure in Israel and a total let-down to those who put their trust in him. Those whom he spoke out and pronounced woes against were allowed to have that ultimate natural power over him of crushing him until the life went away from the body prematurely. At the same time, though, he was actually accomplishing in the unseen world, for God, what would make him the most valuable and worthwhile being there ever was or will be—the One God kept saying would come and do this great work for Him. He was doing the biggest and greatest thing for God as he took the animal nature with him up onto the cross and killed its power over those whom were chosen by God to be in His family, which is the will of God in the earth, to gather those sons up by transforming them from dead animal to son of God. Jesus made it possible for that to happen as he did this work, when he said, "It is finished."

We can't convince anyone about the truth that's inside us for a good reason. Not because it's not there, but because by it we would only want to do that to satisfy the animal craving in us, to be validated in the world by those who we can touch and feel, whose opinion counts to us, who could vindicate us by their comprehension of what's inside us. However, we weren't convinced by anyone about it—it came and happened to us, not because we had done something, but because we were chosen to have it happen to us in the same way John and Jesus were chosen to have it in them, and the prophets and righteous men before them. In Israel there were only 2 who had the life living in them. They were raised up by the voice of the Father living in them, not validated by the humans, so much so that they were unceremoniously and ignobly decapitated and crucified.

As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

Jesus told Nicodemus, "The old way is done, and the new way is here. God does what He wants to do and you cannot delineate what He will require to attain righteousness. You cannot predict how He will work or what He will do any more than you can control the wind and force it to blow one way or the other." In saying this he was hearkening Nicodemus back to the words of Solomon which he would have known well. Their actual interpretation and what they pointed to, was the work that the Son was doing for the Father.

As surely as the LORD lives," David said, "the LORD himself will strike him; either his time will come and he will die, or he will go into battle and perish. But the LORD forbid that I should lay a hand on the LORD's anointed."

David is faced once again with the choice of instantly ending his troubles. God had told him before that he would be king, but now it looked like he might die. He could have assured himself the victory over Saul by his own hand, but he believed that God was able to do the thing He promised. David believed in whom he couldn't see, in a real life situation, when his faith was actually being tested and was worth more than just words. Taking control of the situation by our own hand versus believing God and saying by our actions that we know He can do for us what He promised and we need. We do not take for ourselves but will wait for Him to deliver us, and He makes certain that we aren't able to.


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