May 30th.

Joshua 16 / Isaiah 22 / Hebrews 1-2

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Beware, the LORD is about to take firm hold of you and hurl you away, O you mighty man. He will roll you up tightly like a ball and throw you into a large country. There you will die and there your splendid chariots will remain—you disgrace to your master's house! I will depose you from your office, and you will be ousted from your position.

Those who ascend to the position of leader by their own natural will, power or the will of other humans will be brought down while those who have been oppressed and poor, outcasts and aliens, scorned and unaccepted will be lifted up by the One who makes what isn't into what is, and what is into what isn't anymore. This is to the delight of the Father, who keeps His treasure, the apple of His eye, His very own sons, hidden and secret in the world of the humans where they are not known. The animals assume by the instinct in them that they are first and everything that seems to be will continue to just go on that way because of the illusion of what only seems to be, but isn't. Eternal is not actual for natural creatures who live in an infinite collection of tiny overlapping occurrences—theirs being merely one of those—which gives the appearance of a never ending, seemingly eternal reality where they are always first because the only perspective is their own.

The last will be first, and the first will be last.

The Son showed his disciples how to be approved and acceptable, first according to the Father, by being last among the humans even though they had been specially chosen by the Father to have His reality revealed in them. That they could see Jesus as the Son of David and God meant that they were chosen and told as much by the invisible life that spoke to them in a totally different way than the humans know.

Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven.

However, the process through which they would have to be taken to continue along the path to the Father after His reality was revealed to them was not what they expected and the opposite of what they wanted, according to what was naturally in them to want, need and crave to be first, never last, even though they were quite common and not ever treated very specially by those in their society. Nevertheless, that drive to consider themselves first was still very much alive and present within them because it's the thing that's in all the humans, which keeps them separated from God.

A dispute arose among them as to which of them was considered to be greatest.

If this drive existed in the hearts and minds of the lowly crust of society, imagine what lived in the hearts and minds of those who were honored for being special by those whom they ruled over. The drive in them to be first was not only a hope but a reality, and the idea of throwing out what they had to become a servant would have been anathema to them.

I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.

What keeps all of the animals in their state of separation from God is what's in them that they can't even recognize because they're blind. The humans are blind about their actual condition because that's the way God wants it to be, the same way as He didn't want the humans to recognize the Messiah, who actually was good. However, because they're always driven by instinct to only be able to consider themselves good, they aren't able to recognize what's really good, because the Father always keeps it hidden, which is like a formula about those He has chosen. Theirs is not a condition of inherent goodness, as they ascribe to themselves individually and collectively because of their actual inherent condition (separated from God because they're *not* good), but of a transformed goodness which happens over a long period of learning how to conform to what they naturally hate. They want to be first because they consider themselves inherently good, which is how God keeps them away from Him. So how does one become good, if one is inherently not good—adhering to some facts that a bunch of other animals adhere to? Asking the jesus god into your heart as your own personal savior?

In bringing many sons to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the author of their salvation perfect through suffering.

If one is following the jesus god, then the gulf between them and him is so wide that he cannot ever be a model to the son who is also trying to get to the Father, who has made finding Him and even the way to Him difficult on purpose—so not many actually do find Him. But if He does desire that one or some do find Him, then how hard should we expect that path to be, to be able to walk on it being animals who aren't good? How much suffering do we think will come with the total relearning of how and what to be, especially when what it is we're intended to conform to is something we loathe because it never reinforces the lie that we learned to love when we became fully animal—that we are special and good in and of our own selfish and ultimately meaningless existence?

Both the one who makes men holy and those who are made holy are of the same family. So Jesus is not ashamed to call them brothers.

If of the same family then of the same process, because the Son was not some pre-existing god who was turned into a human, but a human just like us who must be taken to the Father along the same path, in the same way he went. His life and the way he went is the only way to get to the Father.

Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might destroy him who holds the power of death—that is, the devil—and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death.

For this reason he had to be made like his brothers in every way, in order that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in service to God, and that he might make atonement for the sins of the people. Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.

The need to dissuade away from adherence to the jesus god isn't important compared to the sons' understanding that their journey to the Father will not be easy or nice, according to how they define easy and nice along the same lines that all the humans do it. It's as hard for the sons to accept that we must go the way we don't want to go as it is for the liars to accept the real Jesus, because the way the real Jesus went is what we hate because it seems so foreign and totally unacceptable to us and what we learned to love, down in the place where we really live, below all the fluff and bullshit we throw up to hide ourselves from the truth of what the Father commands. There's a lot at stake however:

He says, "I will declare your name to my brothers; in the presence of the congregation I will sing your praises." And again, "I will put my trust in him."
And again he says, "Here am I, and the children God has given me."

The sons are specially chosen, but with that calling comes a different kind of disciplining that they aren't used to, and especially aren't welcoming to from the standpoint of what's native to their disposition. It's where they really want to live, apart from the intentions they express with their mouth babble which means nothing except how they intend to be able to hide from the process that they must go through of having their lovers stripped from them so they're made bare of their hiding places.

The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them.

This knowledge of the secrets cuts both ways, because they're a blessing to the son who has been chosen to know them, but they're a curse to the ways of the animal inside of him that he wants to preserve and hold onto, what he really loves deep in his heart because it's what he's most familiar with. It's not like what we learned to love, what we learned to bring into ourselves over such a long period of time that was reinforced and pounded into our hearts hundreds of times every day we were conscious are all of a sudden just going to instantly fall away and be forever gone from us having to deal with them anymore. The way that it works so perfectly and seamlessly in the humans to achieve their purpose for God is also what makes it so insidiously effective in the sons, who must learn to observe how it works in them as a deceiver and adversary, to keep them away from the Father as it's design accomplishes in the humans, the stock from which they must come.

From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.

There is no way for them to become subjective about it (to be able to see as God sees), because it is God's desire to keep them in that loop of self-deception that they can't get out of, because it keeps them away from Him, so that only those whom He wants to be brought near Him actually can be. Concerning the sons who can see the Father and comprehend His way it is a deceiver and the reason it's called the devil, satan, etc. by those who understood its power.

Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given.

Those who find the God who is hidden and secret do so because He has revealed Himself to them. They do not find Him because they were successful at having looked for Him or pleased Him by their ability within them to be clever or obey rules. The real God wants to find those who have the balls to say, "This isn't it, and I'm not going to accept what these liars are claiming for themselves and those who only want to find the sedated agreement of conform to the will of man who doesn't know." It takes courage to find the true Father because He can't be found by the animal agreement to conspire to uphold a particular lie they made up. If it's in one to find the God who isn't found by humans, then the desire to find Him must be somewhere in his heart, stronger than the desire to accept what he knows isn't all there is. There must be more than what the liars are claiming, and there is, but it doesn't come easy.

Seeking the heart of God and to be found in Him means one knows something that the others don't know, like a dormant seed that was planted in that one's heart, enough to be able to truly say with confidence that what the humans are offering just isn't it. No one expects God to hide from the humans, who say that would describe a cruel God. Their gods are not surprisingly always good to them. The sons begin to see the delight in how their Father hides by making everything topsy-turvy, inside-out, no means yes, ironic and mysterious so that by what is naturally inside them they have no actual capacity to just reach out their hand and get what they think they deserve from their gods. That's what they do with everything else in their life that they find valuable enough to desire to get, then acquire by purchase or other means; then they own, possess and control that thing so they can use it for their own advantage. That is the right of every animal, to do that in whatever way it can, by whatever means is at its disposal.

"In that day," declares the LORD Almighty, "the peg driven into the firm place will give way; it will be sheared off and will fall, and the load hanging on it will be cut down." The LORD has spoken.

What seems to be firm and sure won't forever be that way. That's one of the many mysteries of the ages, the power of the life of the living God inhabiting humans, the OT being copies of the better things, how the Father kept the Son from being led, driven and contaminated by that which rules all of the humans, the nature of the curse put onto them, the one, driving, ultimate purpose of the Father and reason that this creation exists, and many more. To be able to accept the Father's reality, one has to be able to reject this reality which means one has to see it for what it is, meaning one has to be given new eyes that can see what the others can't.

Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.

These new eyes are not the product of what the humans would make for themselves (instantly opened and automatically comprehending), but follows the course outlined in the copy, which is the natural creation and the way animals are born and grow. First there are no eyes, then there is a body, then eyes but the eyes aren't even open yet. Then they slowly open and see, but things are blurry and there is no comprehension about what those things are that the eyes are able to see. As that which has the eyes slowly grows up into them, it can just as slowly comprehend the world into which it has been born.

There's no quick or automatic way, there is only the slow enlightening of the new eyes, ears and mind. That being said, it is not random or up to the individual to decide he's going to be born then get born by his own will or the will of any humans who claim to know what they cannot know. The process of being born to God is totally and completely in His hands, according to His purpose and desire—specific to the individual, never generic or generally as a rule opened up to the humans then up to them to be good enough to find Him. He is not found unless He wants to become found, not ever generically or not according to His specific determination about the individual. This means that the humans cannot do with the real God what they do with everything else—that is, buy it, own it and control it.

The sons must begin to know who they are and what they are being pulled out of—the path that all the animals must take—before they can be taken off it and put on the path that leads to their Father. The sons must begin to realize the grip and power that the animal nature has over them so they know what's happening and can respond to what the Lord is saying to them; because that is the path, the life that is secretly growing in their heart. It is the thing that makes them holy and free from the animal disease, able to be in God's presence because they are clean.

You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you (that the Father intended to make them into His very own sons, that He intended to remember them and raise them up from the ground so they could be in the family, which is His purpose—not to raise everyone up that ever lived an animal existence, but to have a family of specifically chosen sons which He draws from the natural creation).

The animal nature in the humans is what keeps them separated from God, so it makes sense that that is the thing that has to be taken out of the sons in order to be unseparated from Him. It is consistently, on a machine code level, afraid of death in all its varied forms according to its inevitability. Consider any wild animal, which has the same nature as the humans, just a more simplistic version of the same kind of creature. You can't walk up and touch it or even be near it because its fear of death overrides every other sense it might have. Its fight or flight response drives it like an autopilot. It is something that everyone just knows, like a law of nature in a sense that you can't just walk up to any wild animal without it running away or fighting for its life. It also constantly looks for and sometimes stores up food for itself in its ongoing effort to keep itself alive. That is the main activity for animals—finding food and eating so that they will not die.

Having babies is another way because it knows it will die, and this is the way an animal can come closest to living on after its body dies. Human babies look like their parents, and parents teach their offspring to act just like them too. It's not necessarily a conscious thing—they just mimic how their parents are because it's the only thing they know. It's built into their DNA to be able to just do that, like any animal knows how to do what it does—fly south at the proper time, bury its poop in the sand, etc. The babies become them and their parents are able to physically live on through them. In a very real way they are them, because they have a piece of them living inside of them, the parents' DNA (that's another copy in the natural of the spiritually complex world of God and the process of Him having sons with His unseen spirit DNA in them so they look like Him instead of the humans). The humans can alleviate the fear of death a little in this way too (along with the constant activity of gathering food and things around them—providing stuff for themselves so they feel a little insulated from death). Humans are so much like animals because they are animals—they are just much more artful about covering up the way they do things so they look like they're not animals because that's the lie, that they're so much different.

The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them.

Adam was bonded to the nature of the animal when he trusted it instead of God. He became one with the animal and tied to the earth, one with what is temporary, the natural creation. Compare being tied to the earth which is heavy and pulls you into it, with being tied to the spirit which is thin and light, so much it's unseen and unable to be held onto. God made Adam clothes out of animal skins because it showed who Adam was. He wore an animal suit—the animal's skin covered him to show everyone who he became—not in God's image, not bonded to the nature of life by God's DNA, but now bound to the earthly, heavy, obtuse nature. Since he now had the DNA of the animal, God symbolized that nature change with the skins of the animals.

Man is able to pretend that he is not an animal, but in convincing ways he lives just like them. Working so hard to store up food and other things around himself, "Working for the food that perishes," most humans work all their lives to store up more for themselves, just like nuts to a squirrel but more magnificent than nuts. They are encouraged to get a better job and further their career above just about everything else except maybe their own natural offspring. Then their family becomes the reason they are slaves to their career, not only provisionally but also morally. What deadbeat would leave his family or not provide them safety and security? (the Son of God) It is such a disgrace and produces such shame that it is hard not to be the slave that the snake wants us to be. The culture of man produces the food that makes men feed on it and makes them slaves to that culture. Only the depraved and disgraceful man would ever leave his family, right?

"I tell you the truth," Jesus replied, "no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age (homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—and with them, persecutions) and in the age to come, eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last first."

It was even more of a disgrace in the culture of Israel to leave your family; it produced the worst kind of shame. Yet the Lord not only advocates it, but he demands it. In contrast to the spiritual family, the natural family means nothing. If we have been called to be sons of God then God is our Father, not any natural man.

Do not call anyone on earth 'father,' for you have one Father, and he is in heaven.

The religious people read and read the words of their made up jesus and are able to make him into something that is easy to digest and assimilate even though it contradicts the Son of God's words—the words they say they live by, but not in the exact form they've been preserved as. What the Son of God advocated for those who were chosen to be able to hear him was the hardest, most shameful thing to do, and the people who responded to him in his time got the straight answer, not the sugar pill people like to swallow that has the name of their powerless, non-existent jesus written on it.

God turned away and gave them over to the worship of the heavenly bodies.

Just as God gave the people over to worship what the foreign peoples worshipped, concurrent with them, so also the people living in the centuries following the first were given over to the lies of whatever the world of humans wanted to worship. The christian jesus is a mythical figure, first made up by humans in the second, third and fourth centuries, a mythical god whose identity has been fine tuned throughout the ensuing centuries by other groups of humans. But the mythical core of this made up god remains the same as it did in 400 a.d., the product of minds influenced and given over to stories about the mythical Greek and Roman gods, concurrent with the birth of the great whore of babylon, the bed from which she issued forth.

Since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done.

The sons learn that the Son of God is the hard pill, and at first it's hard because following him contradicts and tears down everything we learned to love and hold on to so tightly in our natural lives (when we were ruled by the liar). But if we've been made a son then we're not natural any more; he is secretly alive and requires the same courage from those who are to be sons of God. The Father doesn't want a bunch of sons who are cowards and conformists, but courageous rebels who do not settle for the lie they are being handed. When we know our Father, we realize that no human is capable of caring for us because they can only truly care for and love themselves. That mouth babble isn't good enough for the sons, because we want to know our Father, not some made up lie about some made up god. We don't want any man on earth to wear the name of our father, because they are animals and can never care for us like our Father. They're too in love with their own survival in all the forms that takes to be able to love us even a small amount.

Those who are to remain sons of Adam he is not concerned about. They can continue to eat the easy jesus who allows them to continue to be fully human and think they can claim the position as sons at the same time. It's not bad—it's good. He will never require that they are not bound to the snake any longer, separated away from themselves unto God to be acceptable to Him, not themselves. The real Jesus made it abundantly clear that it is hard to follow God, yet the snake says it's easy—all you gotta do is do what everyone else is doing. "Don't be a 'sinner' (one of the bad people), but instead be like us and everything will be fine."

"Here am I, and the children God has given me."

The good news for the present age is that the Father may be starting to gather up more sons, to be pulled out of the world (Egypt) for the third time. The good news if that happens is that they can be freed from the animal nature that holds the world's inhabitants so tightly they could never be let go unless it is the particular will of the Father to pull that one into a different reality by a series of endless miracles done in their natural existence, so they can believe something other than what seems, which leads to setting them free from its power. It's impossible to even get a grasp on its hold over the humans until one can see how it controls them. That is one work of the spirit, to show the son the utter helplessness of his circumstance regarding the animal nature and its hold over him. It shows him how meaningless human life is with its circular, redundant patterns of death and that man actually goes nowhere except in circles.

In the past God spoke to our forefathers through the prophets at many times and in various ways, but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son.

The prophets spoke by the power of the spirit of God on them for a little while as per His temporary purpose for and message to His people, and they also spoke about His permanent purpose and will—to have a family of sons who love Him and live with Him forever. They pointed to the great prophet, the coming One who would institute the great thing (new covenant) that Israel lived for, but had no idea what it would look like. Then he came and went without most even recognizing him. Ironically, he was killed by the ones who said they were waiting for him to come and free them from their oppressor. They thought, as all the animals think, that the oppressor is a physical, natural enemy. They had no idea, just as none of the religious people have any idea, that the enemy is the animal nature that formed who and what they are as mature animals. The same is true today of those who claim to know the way to God, but that way is just their own will and desire to get and have something from God, like they get things in their natural lives.

Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might destroy him who holds the power of death—that is, the devil—and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death.

The leaders who assumed the glory of God's chosen people were ironically used by God to kill the great prophet they were waiting for, because he didn't satisfy their animal will—what they wanted for themselves. He wanted to do the will of God which was opposed to their will as animals driven to survive by getting what they thought they needed—not what he was offering. Once the great prophet came and by his work as the great prophet, he did institute what everyone was looking for, but it was a secret, hidden thing, known only to the few who were chosen to know by becoming sons. The new great thing brought a new great way that God communicated to His people, secretly and hidden as the great prophet assumed the form of a spirit which could live in another human's body to teach it the truth about the lie about his circumstance (as an animal), take him out of the cycles of death and put him on the straight path the leads to his true Father, before whom he never knew.

Now there's no need for any more human prophets, because God has made the One, and he is able to be the only living word that is needed for the purpose and will of God to be accomplished on the earth—to gather up the sons. The mind of all men is in prison to the lie and can only see it, which is why they cannot validate what we know. The great prophet is alive within us to keep telling us the truth about our nature and about our true and only Father. His job is to keep telling us the truth so that we believe it and can make our way to Him, out of the circular holding patterns and onto the straight path to the Father. This is the "gospel" of the present age, the good news for the sons who have been chosen to know.

This salvation, which was first announced by the Lord, was confirmed to us by those who heard him. God also testified to it by signs, wonders and various miracles, and gifts of the spirit distributed according to his will.

At first it's dim and confusing (eyes barely open), because we're still so filled with the animal vision, ideals, needs and lies about what is real and what isn't. As the life of God grows within us it becomes a tiny bit clearer each day we move along the straight path, and we move along and grow by listening to the voice and obeying. It's a process of growth just like anything grows, and it just takes a long time. That is where faith is built, and important, because it won't be validated in or by the natural. We can't demand signs or conjure up anything we might want that would cater to that type of validation. We are given just what we need to grow, not to satiate our nature but to continue along the straight path. We don't make him into what is easy for us—he tells us what he requires.

We can be bound to the snake in many subtle ways, loving the world. We trust the world in many ways, because that is all we know how to do, and we naturally have faith in what the world offers us, what we can see with our natural faculties. So we naturally want this thing to be validated in the natural so we can hold on to it and control it with those tangible senses that are in us. Another work of the great prophet is to teach us to trust our Father in ways that are real and not just conceptual (the only thing the religious people can produce because they are trying to reach out and grab something that's not theirs to have), yet hidden so that only we are aware what is happening (so that we learn to have faith in what is real, yet far removed from anything we're comfortable with, as per Abraham).

Surely it is not angels he helps, but Abraham's descendants.

We know that Abraham's descendents were not natural Jews, but the sons who looked like Abraham, who heard the voice of God and heeded it, who did the naturally hard thing in spite of how wrong it looked and felt to him. He believed God with his actions, and that was what God loved. He proved to God that he loved Him not just with words and theory about how much we love Him, even though we can't because He hasn't chosen us. We can say we have faith all day long, but unless we are willing to do the hard thing for God's sake, then we are not worthy to be His children. Just like Abraham would not have been worthy if he would have held on to Isaac, the much easier thing to his natural emotions and sensibilities.

He could have thought of all kinds of reasons to not do what God asked him to do. "God would never want me to kill my child, especially after he told me that the world would be blessed through him." That is something Abraham could have easily told himself. How close is that to the statement we have personally heard: "God would never ask a person to leave their family"? So it's okay for Abraham to do it, but not for us, because we think Abraham is on some kind of different plane than we are, that he is some kind of godly superhero. We know that Abraham was a son of God for being willing to kill his own child. He heard God speak to him and he listened to Him and he did what God asked him to do, despite how it looked. Abraham had the life of God, the voice that spoke only to him and no one else. He had to trust God, and those around him had to trust him, and they did so God loved them too.

We love because he first loved us.

Faith is the response of the son to the supernatural action that is first initiated by God in the son. It isn't some generic wish that we produce, thinking that if we merely believe there is a god then we will be saved. That's the product of the lies made up by the humans in the years after Paul's body died. It's how God keeps His salvation hidden from the unclean animals whom He doesn't want to redeem. He knows who are His and He reveals Himself to them and gathers them up for His pleasure and purpose, that He can have love and enjoy His sons who love Him, who are around Him all the time and forever.

All the miracles that Jesus did were done by the Father, for the 12 that God had given him, to convince them that he was from God and that they could trust him, even though he looked wrong on the outside and asked them to do the hardest things for his sake, as God asked Abraham. The spirit is not for our enjoyment or entertainment—to temporarily "fill us up" and make us feel good. It is for the purpose of corroborating what the Father is telling us, putting us on the straight path that leads to Him, and validating for us that the things He is telling us are real, even though they're so different than what we expected or are willing to accept at first. It is subtle yet profound on a level that the animal cannot reach, the spiritual place in us where only God can go. God is hidden, and He keeps His sons hidden, though they look on the outside like any other animal. The spirit tells us what is right, even though it looks wrong and bad.

He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him.

I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.


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