May 12th.

Deuteronomy 29 / Isaiah 1 / Acts 27

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You have seen all that the LORD did before your eyes in the land of Egypt to Pharaoh and to all his servants and to all his land, the great trials that your own eyes have seen, those great signs and portents. But the LORD has not given you a heart to know and eyes to see and ears to hear until this day.

There is a time in the beginning of the life of the son of God, represented by the great miraculous things God did in Egypt and in the desert, which is different than the time this episode represents—going into the land, passing into the covenant, sealing the oath acknowledged by both parties as per what it actually stipulates. In the beginning there is a time of proving that one has been called and is being chosen, filled with miraculous signs and wonders that establish under no uncertain terms the revealing of the secret Father to those particularly chosen to receive that revelation. They persist for a good long while because otherwise the subject would be too filled with his own humanness to perceive anything about it other than what he wanted to hear, that could satisfy and fulfill his own existence.

You are stationed here today all of you before the LORD your God, for you to pass into the Covenant of the LORD your God and into His oath that the LORD your God is to seal with you today, in order to raise you up for Him today as a people, and He will be for you a God, as He spoke to you and as He swore to your father, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob.

Were all of the information about the life given to him at once, he would be utterly overwhelmed by the conditions which would conflict so heavily with his own built up expectations about himself and his life that he wouldn't be able to conform to the teacher's voice, uttering the terms of the personal covenant that the living God is wishing to cut with that one. Denial about what that one is hearing would stifle the sheer joy of knowing he had been chosen. However, by the Father's mercy that one is allowed to exult in the realization of that one-sided joyfulness because of the continuous stream of miraculous proving that the Father is alive and the son has been chosen, without too much of the terms of the eventual covenant in place yet. In a real way, the son isn't even born when he knows he is being called, although he will have the chance to choose to follow where the voice is taking him, to say yes to the voice he has probably been waiting to hear much of his life.

Hear now, you house of David! Is it not enough to try the patience of men? Will you try the patience of my God also? Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel. He will eat curds and honey when he knows enough to reject the wrong and choose the right. But before the boy knows enough to reject the wrong and choose the right, the land of the two kings you dread will be laid waste. The LORD will bring on you and on your people and on the house of your father a time unlike any since Ephraim broke away from Judah--he will bring the king of Assyria.

Passing into the covenant of the LORD your God and into His oath that the LORD your God is to seal with you today is a different stage of the relationship than the beginning which is filled with all the miraculous proving that God is willing to give to the son to show him how real He is, yet at the same time how radically different He also is than anything that one has ever seen in the humans around him who have been claiming to know God. The real God remains hidden from the humans and they don't know what He's like—everything they say and claim about Him is made up out of their own limited expectations of what they allow Him to be, so that they can easily control what He is and what He is allowed to do in their lives. When the living God is revealing Himself to one He is choosing, it is not a wishy-washy deal like the humans have, which is really nothing except their made up stories and claims about Him, which can't be proven either way so they just continue to crop up and propagate among them and suck in whoever is willing to believe whatever version of the lie is being propounded.

For many will come in my name, claiming, `I am the Christ, ' and will deceive many.

Not everyone who says to me, `Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, `Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, `I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

This living Father and Son provide a special vision and knowledge that comes from God to those who have been chosen to get it, what is not available to anyone who wants to get it. Like they want a better job and a new house, they also want to live forever because that falls right in line with all of the things the animals strive to secure for themselves by the power of their own hand to get it. The sons' supernatural vision and knowledge is different than what the humans possess, which remains natural and there's no way to equate the two. Everything Jesus was and said came from the wisdom and understanding of his relation to the Father, as he was taught by the life planted in him from birth, which enlightened the secret messages that were contained within the OT writings as he grew up and became conscious of his identity, along with the secret covenant he was to pass into, instead of passing over into animal puberty and then maturity, which would have meant that he was just like all the other common animals that participate in that ritual, which when they do makes them dead to God. The Father gave him the eyes to see and the ears to hear and the mind to understand the spiritual reality, which is God's reality and has nothing to do with that which the humans create for themselves.

Things hidden are for the LORD our God and things revealed for us and for our children forever to do all the words of this teaching.

The process of the secret life of the Father finding then indwelling them so as to be able to transform them by its hidden power is the same for all of the sons. God's prophets and men from the OT had the life in them, speaking to them about their heritage in His secret family. John had it, and Jesus who became the firstborn among many brothers because of it finding a level of perfection in him that had not been in any of the other brothers and sons.

I tell you the truth: It is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you.

If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever—the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.

He passed it along to those few who had been chosen for him. He brought the new covenant and he was to explain the terms of that covenant to these men. The new covenant is totally different than anything they anticipated or could have expected, because it didn't ever happen until Jesus came. Only the promise of it existed as there were tastes of it in God's dealings with certain men from the OT era and it was revealed to and written about by the OT era sons like Jeremiah; but it was not yet established until until it found its perfection and fulfillment in Jesus who brought it to his own brothers. It couldn't be conceived of beforehand by the humans because it was so different, and so not about them, than they could have ever expected.

But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear. For I tell you the truth, many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.

It was something different than anyone had ever known. If God's holy prophets and righteous men (OT era sons) longed to see but couldn't see it, and to hear but couldn't hear it, how much more were the frauds unable to see and hear, who presumptuously claimed to know God but couldn't because they were just animals who were either born into the human system of false righteousness, or were able to work their way up its internal ladder of human success within it. This is what Jesus said about those leaders who not only claimed what they weren't entitled to, but presumed to be able to control the way to God via their own evil ways they had set up to benefit themselves:

The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. Whoever has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. This is why I speak to them in parables:

Though seeing, they do not see; though hearing, they do not hear or understand.

In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah: "You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.

For this people's heart has become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn, and I would heal them."

The humans continue to be good at setting up systems for themselves that they can control, and whereby they control other humans who either choose to or are forced to participate in those systems and institutions. In the case of Israel, the system was set up by the God of Israel, but the humans slowly took it over as they kept defining it with their Rabbinical definitions and additions disguised as something good. However, the word that God gave to Moses needed no embellishing or explaining. The Israelites were chosen by Him to be His own people, to be devoted to Him and not like all the rest of the humans who were living on the earth. They were to love the LORD their God with all their heart (honest in the secret places within their minds), strength and energy (they practiced their devotion to Him with as much or more of their vitality as they lived the rest of their lives' daily activities). They were to consider their brothers (the other chosen people of God, those whom they knew were also chosen because they were Israelites) as highly as they considered themselves, so that they took care of each other and looked out for each other's benefit and welfare, as though they were in the same family. In this respect, the bigger family of the people of God's own choosing were as important as the members of their own blood and bones family.

Both of these cut against what was naturally in those humans, and why they were stressed so heavily by their God. It was naturally and instinctually in them to hide and be afraid, so they naturally were drawn not toward taking care of another human because he was chosen by God—His possession—but to take advantage of him if that opportunity afforded itself to him. It was also not in the humans to be devoted to God more than anything else, but to be lured away from Him by their lusts and cravings and the need to constantly satisfy these things like wild animals, or the humans who hadn't been chosen by God to be His own people, who worshipped anything and everything they could make up to be their gods who served them and their cravings and lusts.

And you saw their abominations and their foulnesses, wood and stone, silver and gold, that were with them.

Over time the nation of Israel became so disfigured as per how God envisioned her to be and remain, that they looked like all the rest of the humans living on the earth, who went after any and every idol that served them and their fears, who satisfied their lusts and cravings without any knowledge of the God who brought them out of Egypt for His own purposes. They exploited their brothers for their own selfish gain and didn't defend the cause of the oppressed. Their hearts strayed far away from His intention of what and how they should be.

Learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed.
Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow.

See how the faithful city has become a harlot!
She once was full of justice; righteousness used to dwell in her—but now murderers!

Your silver has become dross, your choice wine is diluted with water.

Your rulers are rebels, companions of thieves; they all love bribes and chase after gifts.
They do not defend the cause of the fatherless;
the widow's case does not come before them.

The humans do that because that's what's in them to do and become left to their own self-preserving influences. They are ruled by a nature that seems benign because it just tells them what needs to be done to survive because of those impulses of fear, hiding and cravings. Left to their own, they're only able to love and serve themselves, which prohibits them from loving and serving anything bigger than themselves like God or His true family because they're driven to love and serve themselves. That's what continually happened in Israel, over and over in their dealings with their God.

The ox knows his master, the donkey his owner's manger,
but Israel does not know, my people do not understand.


Unless the LORD Almighty had left us some survivors,
we would have become like Sodom, we would have been like Gomorrah.

The Son of God was the remnant, since the existence of any remnant (true sons of God) depended upon his choice to be obedient to the Father or to not be (as Israel continually was). The living word, that special vision which formed Messiah's (the savior of true Israel) consciousness, was supernatural and spiritual, hidden and secret. The humans didn't see it; they just saw a man who didn't look at all like they expected Messiah to look like. God is the spirit and He lived in Jesus to teach him the way of life and truth—hidden from everyone else. Jesus was raised by his unseen Father, learning the real way of God from all of the Old Testament writings, enlightened by the spirit of truth, who was the Teacher. He also learned by observing the humans and the contrast between him and them, as per the counseling of the spirit. Now Teacher, who was made One with the FAther, does His work by transforming us away from what we were once totally disposed to, and giving us the same mind that he had, by the same spirit who did the work of God in him. This is not the christian "holy spirit" god, which like the jesus god and the devil god, is yet another worthless idol which was merely made up by the humans, according to how it could serve them (being able to contain and control their gods); so it doesn't have any power because it doesn't exist—any more than any of the mythical gods of the greeks, romans, sumerians or mesopotamians exist.

You diligently study the Scriptures because you think that by them you possess eternal life. These are the Scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life.

The preserved words get reduced to just a matter of study for academic advancement for those who haven't been chosen to receive the eyes to see the secret, hidden mystery contained within the words, that comes only from God. It is merely a book whereby they develop the static rules they think God wants them to adhere to. And because they assume to be leaders, they think they need to defend those rules and make the others obey them too. Because it's a static relationship, they can only become stunted and legalistic, and think that the actual printed words have a purpose apart the living word who speaks to God's sons in the secret places of our heart.

Then he opened their minds so they could understand the Scriptures.

That is the only thing which begins to matter to the sons as they understand what's valuable and what isn't. In the very simplest terms, whatever's valuable to the humans is the opposite of what becomes valuable to the sons as they hear the voice of the the teacher speaking to them the secret words they long to hear, what they must keep hearing in order to stay close to the Father. It is the same process that happened in Jesus when he had an earthly body—hearing the voice of his Father speaking to him, and heeding the voice so as to be able to remain close to the Father.

Should a man have a wayward and rebellious son, who does not heed his Father's voice and his mother's voice, and they punish him and he does not heed them, his father and mother shall seize him and bring him out to the elders of his town and to the gate of his place, and they shall say to the elders of his town, "This son of ours is wayward and rebellious, he does not heed our voice, is a glutton and a drunk." All the people of his town shall stone him to death, and you shall root out the evil from your midst, that all Israel may hear and be afraid.

For those who can't hear his voice, the words become just what the law, prophets and poetic writings were to the men who assumed they controlled the way to God in Jesus' day—a book of rules used for the purposes of controlling other men. They think that because of their earthly power, they can operate a kind of toll road to God, and they collect their tolls in various ways to satisfy their own evil cravings. Money to live, acceptance, power and admiration to gratify their egotistical cravings, a better place in their made up heaven or kingdom—anything but what is actually required in order to find one's way to God—the heart of a son, which has been formed by that living word and which is pushing out the animal nature that must be gone in order for them to become clean enough to come near the Father. Their nature won't let them crave or even want the heart of a son, because they hate that idea in its actual form. They love their own idea, which is that they can be an unclean, disgusting animal and also a son of God at the same time, which is an impossibility in the spiritual reality of the way things are. Even though they can't even know it, they are ruled by the serpent, the craftiest of all the animals who hates God and doesn't want the heart of a son to be formed in its host. Not that it is a being with a will and personality of its own, although it is so pervasive it is often written about in that metaphorical way. It is a force and power that exists because it was created to serve God's purpose.

Stop bringing meaningless offerings! Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—I cannot bear your evil assemblies.

When you spread out your hands in prayer, I will hide my eyes from you;
even if you offer many prayers, I will not listen.

The conflict between Jesus the true Son and the leaders of Israel the presumptive, fraudulent sons is a precedent that has been recorded and preserved for the true sons to read and observe as they grow into their new heart (transformed away from the animal condition). Even though Jesus heard the same external words that the Pharisees heard, he had an understanding that they did not possess, because they were given over to the lie of the snake (as all the humans are), while he had the spirit of the Father living inside him (as all true sons must have in order to be sons). This teaching cuts directly against the christian teaching that anyone and everyone is invited, that God cares little about who is in His own family, because they envision Him as some kind of robot or machine that is not like the humans whatsoever. That is the relationship between the sons and the humans—we have the spirit of truth and they have the spirit of lies, of the animal (the snake). It's that simple, either you do or you don't, and there's no way to get over to it, to get a little bit of it, or to have any idea what is in the son's heart if you don't have it. That's why it's pointless to try to persuade another who doesn't, it just won't work. They are given over to what they want to accept and believe—what the humans tell them—and are afraid (constrained) to even listen because they fear that would be soliciting their made up devil outside of them. The irony (that the actual devil is them) is tremendous. I's a hard one to get because the difference is unobservable with the faculties we naturally possess as animals that are driven by those faculties.

As was the truth for Jesus with the OT, the Bible is also preserved for us, to be used to teach us by the living word (not text on a page which has no life) that has power to change us into beings who know their Father. That is everything to the son, as compared to the humans, who run after everything but that. It's why it was so devastating for Jesus when the Father had to leave him on the cross by himself, presumably for the first time in his short life. For us animals who instinctively hate God, the normal thing is not knowing the Father. Our reality is when the Father left him, even for that short period of time. For Jesus, who always lived in that relationship, it was the most terrible thing because it wasn't something he had known before. He lived and breathed his whole life in the intense, dependent knowledge of his Father's presence in him, and that relationship was all he knew. On the cross he became as we are, away from the Father's presence because the animal is so strong in us. Jesus had to become the animal, and when he did, the Father had to leave him because God is holy and the animal is unclean, unconsecrated—so He couldn't be in Jesus as He always was before.

From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

The things of God are hidden to the world filled with humans who are driven by the things they can see, hear, touch, taste, contain, understand, and control with and by their natural animal faculties. Although the world can see the creation they drum up spectacular ways that it came to be, because that's what they want to believe. It is also hidden to the groups who claim to know God, but who are given over to the same blindness and deafness and numbness of mind that everyone else is because they are natural and can't know what the spirit is and does. It is completely hidden and secret.

Without the spirit of truth, who first gives us birth and then raises us with the food that is able to make us see and hear and understand, we are merely unregenerate animals like everyone else. Like every common animal that ever lived we are subject to the same secret worship of self, money and sex—everything that this culture teaches us we should worship because it does indeed gratify our animal nature. The sons of God, though, know that the only thing that can satisfy them is the love that comes from the Father, which becomes like hidden treasure for them. The humans can only know and love human treasure, that which truly satisfies us as animals.

Without the spirit, everything we think we know about God and man comes from the mind of the culture of the unclean animal. The spirit guides us into truth about who our Father is, and he uses all the writings of the New and Old Testaments to do so. The spirit makes us children in the world of men as Jesus urged we must become. It erases the ignorance of the culture of man and the teaching of our old father Adam, and replaces it with the truth about our new Father. We have to start over with a new knowledge and understanding of the reality of God, which no man can teach. We learn a new way of being, acting and thinking; and therefore do become like little children.

Bread you did not eat, and wine and strong drink you did not drink, so that you might know that I am the LORD your God.

For all we know about the reality of this process happening in us, that it is sure and certain even though we can't explain it by any natural resources available to us, we haven't even begun to experience the fullness of the relationship that our Father intends to have with us. That is because the animal is still so strong in us, and the Father can't be in the presence of the animal. Jesus is the intercessor and teacher, so that we can know how to be less of what keeps us from knowing that love, the only thing that will ever fulfill us. Until then, we'll keep trying unsuccessfully to fulfill ourselves by the ways we used to do it. That's what we learned as we became fully dead. Unlearning those ways so that we can learn the ways of God, and gain the heart of a son, is super painful and takes a long time. That's the direction we have to keep moving in, though, so we can get it.

There's nothing easy or automatic about it—that's the way of the human who learns he can just buy whatever it is he needs to satisfy him (like the blessings of his made up gods). It's totally relative to each of them according to their means they adjust to. What temporarily satisfies the rich man is different than what satisfies the poor man. It's hard to go from one condition to the other no matter which way that is, because it's unnatural. The animals spend a long time adjusting to their condition and learning to satisfy themselves according to it. When it suddenly changes, all of the bearings are skewed. That is why it will also take *a lot* longer to gain the son's heart than we would like. Unlearning the most fundamental things and relearning new ones is a very traumatic and difficult process.

The life of God in the son is about the whole man, including what he is because of his circumstances—all the feelings, emotions, preferences, fears, cravings and ways to hide that he learned to adopt into himself in order to best survive in the world before the Father came to reveal Himself to him. It is not relegated to some highly abstract religious ideas they think they can master, like the religious people think is the way to please their gods. God has to deal with all of the fears, anxieties and defense mechanisms that we built up all our life as humans who learned how to survive. That's why it's not all just automatically "fixed" all of a sudden, as we would like it all to be.

Compared with what we like to imagine the spiritual reality to be for the first century brothers, it's not being transported in some instantaneous identity changing machine. It's more like slowly plodding up the mountain, step after step after step, learning to become content with what our natural animal detests. Occasionally we get to look around and see how far we've come. We may at some point be able to dimly see that the family of humans (where we came from) is at the bottom, and the family of God is at the top. Even though the spiritual reality of the son is not the same as the animal we used to be, nevertheless we have an animal identity completely intact when we start the journey up the mountain. That identity is like a 300 pound pack on our back, filled with all of the stuff we think we need to hang on to—all of the things we think we love and want to hold on to and never let go of. It is what keeps us from our Father's love, and what remains in all of the others who can't go up. We get closer to our Father with each step upwards—that's where the kingdom is, and what Moses' mountain metaphors point to. But in reality, it isn't anywhere outside; everything about the kingdom of God happens within us.

The kingdom of God does not come with your careful observation, nor will people say, `Here it is,' or `There it is,' because the kingdom of God is within you.

Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again.' The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the spirit."

At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?"

He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.


And God said, "I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God on this mountain."

You will bring them in and plant them on the mountain of your inheritance— the place, O LORD, you made for your dwelling, the sanctuary, O Lord, your hands established.

Then Moses went up to God, and the LORD called to him from the mountain and said, "This is what you are to say to the house of Jacob and what you are to tell the people of Israel: 'You yourselves have seen what I did to Egypt, and how I carried you on eagles' wings and brought you to myself. Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession. Although the whole earth is mine, you will be for me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation.' These are the words you are to speak to the Israelites."

And the LORD said to Moses, "Go to the people and consecrate them today and tomorrow. Have them wash their clothes and be ready by the third day, because on that day the LORD will come down on Mount Sinai in the sight of all the people. Put limits for the people around the mountain and tell them, 'Be careful that you do not go up the mountain or touch the foot of it. Whoever touches the mountain shall surely be put to death. He shall surely be stoned or shot with arrows; not a hand is to be laid on him. Whether man or animal, he shall not be permitted to live.' Only when the ram's horn sounds a long blast may they go up to the mountain."


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