April 19th.

Deuteronomy 2 / Proverbs 29 / John 12

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Even after Jesus had done all these miraculous signs in their presence, they still would not believe in him. This was to fulfill the word of Isaiah the prophet: "Lord, who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?"

For this reason they could not believe, because, as Isaiah says elsewhere:

"He has blinded their eyes and deadened their hearts, so they can neither see with their eyes, nor understand with their hearts, nor turn—and I would heal them."

Isaiah said this because he saw Jesus' glory and spoke about him.

The humans who claim to know the way to God will admit that at one time God hardened some hearts but only because it says so, because that doesn't jive with their conception that God must be fair and democratic, the God of progressive americans who strive to rid the world of all unfairness and make it just like them. They will agree that the hearts of those who assumed to know His way and thought they controlled and administered His law (Jewish leaders) should have been hardened, because they are the antagonists in the mythological story that their fathers made up, and which they adhere to. They have taken the place of those Jewish leaders who thought they could decide who properly observed it and who didn't, therefore who was right with God and who wasn't—just because they had the power of consensus and law on their side to be able to. Today they assume that the hardening of the hearts of men happens, but only when the man has rejected their made up gods, which is a rejection of their agreement of consensus and amounts to when a man has decided that what they have really isn't the way to God and these leaders are full of shit, lying about what they claim to have and know. The modern day leaders are just acting like any animal always does, using whatever power it can realize to preserve what it can get and retain for itself. What they claim is to be doing "god's work," but really it amounts to nothing more than getting as many of the other animals as they possibly can to agree with them, which is the kudos they're living for, thinking that they are going to be warmly greeted by the gods for cramming as many animals as possible into their indifferent heaven.

God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.

The only living God who remains just that—alive and able to do whatever He wants to, which is mostly to hide from the humans so they don't and can't find Him or figure out even where He is. The humans create their gods into whatever they want them to be—more like versions of themselves with the same proclivity toward being please with...you guess it, the "good people" who adhere to the correct story of the gods—those who do give the agreement of consensus to each other so they'll all be convinced by it that they're all going to be crammed into that indifferent heaven. What they're really after is the big prize for willingly giving that agreement, something that any animal that spent its life trying to survive would find appealing—being able to survive forever.

One of you will say to me: "Then why does God still blame us? For who resists his will?" But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, `Why did you make me like this?' " Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?

The christian gods are based on a democratic meritocracy, which is ruled by a democratic, american looking god—but not really because it's totally biased toward themselves and their own gods. The prevailing modern notion of the culture is about fairness and equality and the antichrists—like television shows or any form of entertainment—just reflect whatever modern beliefs would be most acceptable to others, because what they're really after is that agreement which reinforces their claim that their gods are better than any other gods. It ends up being a theoretical mind play without actual ramifications, just a concept based on what they think the preserved words must say according to their bias. That fits what they've made into rules to live by, so it can be used for their own gain by control and fear manipulation— "If you aren't like us, you're not going to heaven, and it says that right here in our bible so it's true because we're experts in what the bible says." Because they have some agreement of consensus on their side, many people swallow the hook and give it to them too. In the end it  evaporates away as an "It was true because the Bible says it happened," kind of thing, and the only thing that gets left is whether a person is good or bad, based on the concept in question, tailored by the employing band of leaders who claim that together with the others who agree with them, they are the bride of their made up christ god, just as centuries ago it was done by the great mother whore, the mother of all prostitutes, and the christians are those daughters who are the prostitutes who adhere to the many gods mythology created by their mother the whore of babylon.

As you have heard that the antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come. This is how we know it is the last hour. They went out from us, but they did not belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us.

The antichrist was the metaphorical one who took the truth which was spiritual—what was intended only for the chosen sons—and turned it into something that was natural, just another part of the temporary creation, yet another religion for public consumption in the humans' ongoing war of "our gods are better than your gods." The antichrists were the particular humans who went out from the brotherhood of Ephesus in John's time. They were those who didn't stay with their brothers (their neighbor) but left them to become the animal that is one with the natural creation because that's what they loved more than God's way—not separated from it as the brothers were, who did love the way of the Father and hated the way of the human animal.

The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

After a couple hundred years or so the antichrist was fully in charge, consolidating her control by taking the truth into captivity as the new babylon, the great whore who called herself the bride of the new, made up christ.

What troubles you now, that you have all gone up on the roofs,
O town full of commotion, O city of tumult and revelry?
Therefore I said, "Turn away from me; let me weep bitterly.
Do not try to console me over the destruction of my people."

So when you see standing in the holy place `the abomination that causes desolation,' spoken of through the prophet Daniel—let the reader understand—then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. Let no one on the roof of his house go down to take anything out of the house.

The linking of the two ideas of being on the roof of their house links the nation of babylon which destroyed the nation of Israel (both as metaphorical versions of the more true things) with the coming mystery babylon of John's revelation and the true Israel. As natural Babylon would take natural Israel into captivity, so would the coming mystery whore of babylon take the true Israel—as she existed for a short time in the first century—into captivity. She like her natural counterpart has made the land (the world of humans) desolate of the truth that sprouted in the first century and has been a stump in the ground ever since. The darkness of the whore's lies about the mythical good gods (jesus, spirit & father gods) versus the mythical bad gods (satan and his evil army of fallen angels that were turned into demons), though pulled straight from the pages of Roman and Greek mythology, has beguiled the humans for some 1800 years or so, give or take. As the many modern versions of the whore have sprouted up over the centuries with all of their "progressive" ideas, they nevertheless all hold fast to the whore's original lie about the many gods fighting each other as if they were in some kind of mythological time warp.

At that time if anyone says to you, `Look, here is the Christ!' or, `There he is!' do not believe it. For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect—if that were possible. See, I have told you ahead of time.

So if anyone tells you, `There he is, out in the desert,' do not go out; or, `Here he is, in the inner rooms,' do not believe it. For as lightning that comes from the east is visible even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man.

Wherever there is a carcass, there the vultures will gather.

That last line about the vultures gathering around the carcasses is the crux because it qualifies what he's saying as something that the humans can't comprehend. He says that there exists the temporality of this world of natural beings ruled by the human animals, but there also exists the world they cannot comprehend yet, because they are human animals. What Jesus is telling them is that none of what he's saying is literal in the natural sense, but spiritual so will only be able to be comprehended by those who are being enlightened by the Father so they do understand. The humans have to rely on the natural to explain everything because they're bound to it via their nature while the spiritual remains inaccessible to them—some other realm they don't know about and find repelling because it doesn't fit into the reality they're able to manipulate and control. Because they presume that they can get to God or explain Him in the natural, they have to identify an enemy in the natural (the irony is that it's their own selves who are keeping them from finding the Father). What they always come up with is an enemy which simply doesn't hold to the same mouth/brain beliefs as they do (those who don't give them the agreement they crave because they know they're full of shit), motivated by the biggest enemy, this evil god the devil who is flying around causing people to be different than themselves (the "good" ones). Yet all humans, religious or not, believe that they're the good ones; it's coded into their nature and way of thinking because it helps them to survive better, what all animals need. This "our gods are better than your gods" idea is nothing new.

That's the easy way, the human way of establishing identity—do you believe this, or that? In this way the Christadelphians actually believe in the same devil as all the other religious humans because they actually believe that they themselves can separate the sheep from the goats, the wheat from the weeds, the seed from the chaff. They think they can do God's work for Him, and will have already established who is good versus bad by the man's mouth/brain beliefs, or what they did on earth in front of men—whether the man conformed to and became a member of their club or not. It doesn't seem to cause much concern for them that it is their own offspring they are mostly working to "save," whom they by their efforts (working for their gods) are populating their kingdom with their own DNA carriers, which is merely the animal impulse inside them to save their own because by the DNA bond it is actually them they're saving and populating their "kingdom" with. It's just the same old story being replayed over and over by the same kinds of beings (animals with their natures of instinct), just with different characters.

There is a judge for the one who rejects me and does not accept my words; that very word which I spoke will condemn him at the last day. For I did not speak of my own accord, but the Father who sent me commanded me what to say and how to say it.

The process of hardening hearts happens on a spiritual level. Isaiah prophesied on a spiritual level because the voice of God in him was spirit and told him spiritual truths. Just as the closing up of hearts is purely a spiritual reality, so is the opening of hearts. The only way the humans can understand anything is by the natural, what the mouth says and the body does. Does it come to church every Sunday and agree with the established facts about the gods? That's good, that one is a sheep. Does it act like someone who's not part of our institution and doesn't agree with us? They're bad, and must be our enemy, a goat.

The reason this is important to us isn't to establish them as bad, but to recognize that it's something we'll been susceptible to too because it's the animal way, and until we're farther along in the way of the Father, the natural way will continue to cloud our understanding of what's real and how we should act. For a long while it will be all we know, just because that's what we are. The ability to see the wrong in the animals should only be used so that we can become aware that it will try to beguile us too, because that's the stock we came from. The difference between us and them is that they cannot come away from their position of needing to hang on to the fact that they're right because that's all they have. The teacher isn't using their shortcomings to train them up in the better way, by putting that humiliation of being wrong and bad on us so that we can see it and assume it for our own selves. Taking on the humiliation and owning it by becoming it is what leads us away from the pomposity of smallness that the animals must cling to in their craving to always feel that they're the ones who are right and therefore anyone who doesn't give them the agreement they crave is wrong and bad—the enemy.

One of the hardest things is to separate the real from the unreal, because the irony of the real God makes everything topsy-turvy and flippy-floppy. What seems to be right is actually wrong, no means yes and yes means no Alice, etc. This goes hand in hand with the Isaiah verse that Jesus quoted about hardening the hearts of those who assumed they knew, and giving the actual ability to know what's real to those who were the least and the last whom the presumptuous humans would expect would be able to possess the truth about the real God (they have no agreement of consensus from the humans, but only get that secretly, from the hidden Father). That also holds true to what is naturally in us too, because even if we know we've been chosen, there is no magic wand that is waved over us and then poof we're all changed and good. Although that is what we'll be apt to want to believe because we always want the easy way of least resistance, the least amount of suffering because suffering to the animal means that the possibility of not being able to continue to survive is in jeopardy, and that's what the animal is programmed to care about. So we're always susceptible to feeling that we've arrived because that's what we want to believe—it fits better with the agreement we want to achieve in our minds about being the good one. First we have to "see" the real, the invisible, but this doesn't happen with natural eyes. The many things we think we see and feel inside us will be turned outwardly by us in an attempt to explain what we know by holding it up against our natural perceptions of the way things are and work, and must be. It will take a long time to understand that the natural doesn't explain the spiritual, nor can it be explained by it because God's way isn't man's way.

Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe.

That's where a lot of confusion comes in, especially in the beginning because we hold so tightly to what we know, perceive, and believe as true and dear (because it's ours; we own it, we possess it so it's naturally better than anything else) we try to jive that with the spiritual reality of what we're starting to understand. But it doesn't work because our former identity was created by our natural animal observations and assimilations—growing up in man's system and learning the ways of the humans so we could survive. Even if it's different than the mainstream (and it will be because it's ours, and each of us are so incredibly special  and good to our own selves, in our own minds so inherently advanced), it is still the way of the human because that's all we were able to use to learn about the world, as its arm was revealed to us, so it's the only way we knew to grow up and find our way.

To whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?

The way of God wasn't available to us until a certain appointed time, when it was time for the arm of the LORD, or the secret knowledge of His life, to be revealed to us, in us. But then we have to go backwards, toward being more like ignorant children, becoming beings without the knowledge of the mature animal about how the world works, without the props that we've learned to employ all our life to survive, dealing with life as we knew it. Luckily, we are allowed to go back slowly without being stripped of everything all at once, which would be too much to bear because we're egotistical maniacs on the one hand, yet fragile little insignificant creatures on the other, at the same time. What we inherently think about our selves is really not what's true about us. For us to actually enter the land, or enter into a true relationship with God, those things we used to rely on will have to go, and the Lord strips them away from us slowly. The work of the spirit in keeping us at a certain point while we still have the animal in us while it teaches us to drop those ways off is very delicate and balanced.

When the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. 'Friend,' he asked, 'how did you get in here without wedding clothes?' The man was speechless. Then the king told the attendants, 'Tie him hand and foot, and throw him outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'

The way of the human, along with all its tools and manipulation schemes—for the purpose of physical and emotional survival—will have to start becoming unavailable to us in our pursuit of learning the way to our new Father by us becoming aware of how they tend to rule and guide us like a dearly beloved teacher. Then they will have to become abandoned by us, as the teacher allows us to do that in the way that is particularly suited just to us. That's why Jeremiah's unseen covenant—of the time when the commands of the Father would live in the son's heart—is so important and amazing, because the Father can have a personal covenant with each of His own sons so that it makes sense to each one, not generically but personally. The teaching may overlap, but the idea is that each son is personally taught according to who and what they are, and how they know to learn what the teacher is telling them, toward the same end that they come away from the animal nature that rules them and become good sons for the Father's sake.

For many are invited, but few are chosen.

That it is particular and not generic is what the religious animals cannot get, because it's not up to them as they presume about how God must work. In other words, the humans don't just decide they're going to find God and then go find Him, as the religious leaders claim one can. All they will find is the pile of shit that is christianity, with all its lies and misinformation made up by other humans so many years ago, trying to do the same thing their modern counterparts are trying to do—find an agreement of consensus with as many of the animals as possible so they can control them for their own personal gain.

If you haven't been given wedding clothes instead of the animal skins the humans are cursed with you cannot get in to the wedding banquet. You may try and try but will have to learn that you can't mesh the two, and they are distinctly different. The way to the Father is only difficult because it's hidden and so different than any path we ever knew (which tends to keep it hidden because it's so unfamiliar), and because we can't take what we know with us. We can't rely on the animal props and the world that we learned to rely on so efficiently. That usually brings about lots of little freak-out modes because of the fear of the unknown, with which we're so unfamiliar. However, when we start to choose to stay and remain close to the Father by separating ourselves from the animal as we recognize its tendencies, it gets easier for us because we have everything we need for the life that is truly life. It is there where we will find our satisfaction and fulfillment, our safety and security.

For the LORD your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has known your goings in this great wilderness these forty years. The LORD your God is with you. You have lacked nothing.

There are many scriptural reinforcements to this spiritual reality, like the Israelites having to rely on their invisible, new Father to kill their enemies before them, the fortified cities and "giants" which were already inhabiting the land they were about to enter. That wouldn't have been very easy, and their recollection of past miracles that the living God did for their fathers wasn't as palpable a thing as the unknown reality of whether God would actually do what He promised.

The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.

It's hard to believe, which is why it's called work, not just something you think in your mind—"I believe in Jesus." "Do you accept Jesus as your personal savior? Well then, you're good. Now be like us and you'll be fine—we're all goin' to heaven!" is not much different than "Do you believe these facts instead of those facts? Learn them, then get baptized and come to church every Sunday and break bread with us and you'll be in the kingdom." There's nothing real about either of these scenarios, but if the natural is the only explanation you have, then this is the kind of stuff you come up with. Scared animals trying to assuage their fears by surrounding themselves with other animals who believe the same lies they do so they're easier to continue to believe is the religious animal's MO. It's like a sedative, like a morphine dripper deal. However, the words that the true Son of God spoke were miraculously written down and then preserved, and they have to be purposely denied in order to maintain the rules of their institution while they continue right along being animals like the rest of those who don't "believe" the same facts they do, so their own rules and the words they claim to live by will have to judge them.

Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint; but blessed is he who keeps the law.

The law was much more than "Don't do this or that." Paul thought he practiced the law because the "experts" assured him he did. But when the arm of the LORD was revealed in him, he realized that it was merely a school master which led him to the understanding of Jesus being the fulfillment and nullifier of it, because it was only a copy of the better thing. The Son made the old way obsolete so that no one could become right before God (righteous) by observing and practicing it. The law in David and Solomon's day was life to the Israelite sons who were chosen to have God revealed by it to them. The law was spiritual to them, and it gave them a spiritual understanding much like we are being given, which allowed the sons in the OT era to conceive of God and understand Him by it, through it.

Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long.
Your commands make me wiser than my enemies, for they are ever with me.
I have more insight than all my teachers, for I meditate on your statutes.
I have more understanding than the elders, for I obey your precepts.
I have kept my feet from every evil path so that I might obey your word.

It isn't just a form of sentimentality David reaches for in his poetic declarations of love for God's law, His commands, His decrees, His justice. There is something there beyond merely the natural explanation of things. The sons of God, like David, were able to recognize and understand God through what was preserved for them, jut as we are able to see and comprehend how God is by all of the scriptures. But it wasn't just the words; there is another force at work.

I have not departed from your laws, for you yourself have taught me.
How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!
I gain understanding from your precepts; therefore I hate every wrong path.

There is much more going on with David than merely reading and comprehending in his natural brain and thinking process. We should be able to see a supernatural kind of enlightening in him, beyond mere sentiment or human conventions. "For you yourself have taught me" implies that it wasn't the words of the law that taught David who God was, but God Himself, apart from the law but within it. The way of God was hidden within the words, which reinforced to David what He told him in that other respect, the supernatural way he knew His way. David being chosen by God to be king of Israel, while He rejected the choice of the mere humans (Saul) is the thing that point for us to the reality of all the sons of God, and away from the human reality of natural perception about who is good and bad, acceptable and unacceptable. The most glorious expression of that reality is in the glory of the life of Jesus, unknown on the outside. His value was only known in the invisible, spirit world of God and the angels.

Then I looked and heard the voice of many angels, numbering thousands upon thousands, and ten thousand times ten thousand. They encircled the throne and the living creatures and the elders. In a loud voice they sang:

"Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!"

We shouldn't just feel good that we know something they don't, because that's the strategy they employ, it's the only thing available to the animal. We merely understand that the way of the animal is one thing and the way of God is another, and we should at least try to separate them in our mind so that we can see the things we are doing and how they are motivated not by God, but by the animal in us. That's the way we start coming away from it. Those are the old ways and methods that we're still trying to apply to our efforts to understand the new way, which doesn't work. That's why we often feel helpless, because we can't use the only power we know to get where we want to be. Those things have to be slowly drained out of us, so that we are becoming a sacrifice in that the life essence, the blood of the old man, is being slowly drained out of our neck, by the slightest little cut.

...offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.

After a while we'll look forward to them falling away from us because that is the way that we are able to be brought near to the Father; instead of being so afraid like it's the worst thing we can ever imagine, which we will undoubtedly feel a lot of the time not knowing the way, not having our props or tools that we're comfortable with to help us. Even getting to that point is a long, slow road of the new learning and suffering by having to trust what we cannot see, what seems wrong, and what isn't reinforced by anyone or anything in the world. What we have is secret and hidden to those who are in the world. The humans can not, will not validate us; they can and will only lead us away from the Father.


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