March 31st.

Numbers 14 / Proverbs 10 / Luke 23

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The wise in heart accept commands, but a chattering fool comes to ruin.
Wise men store up knowledge, but the mouth of a fool invites ruin.

Our instruction is alive, and is reinforced within every part of the preserved words that are being illuminated as per their real meaning, not as has been skewed by the animals for a natural interpretation of what it means concerning their existences primarily and how their gods fit in to those. Our ability to understand the truth comes with our being able to discern spiritually rather than naturally. The words of Proverbs are not generalized tidbits to help the humans live better lives—they don't actually do the humans any good except maybe to consolidate the leaders' power by proving how their gods want the sheep to be "responsible," meaning predictable and controllable, "Be one of the good people who goes to heaven by obeying us and giving us the currencies we crave for our animal instinct that drives us—honor, respect and money—like a responsible sheep should."

The proverbs of the son of David are categorically for the sons to understand and know. They refer to the secret teaching of the spirit to the son who has been given ears to hear his voice. The wisdom and understanding Solomon keeps mentioning is spiritual discernment—that which can lead us away from the animal's stranglehold of fear appeasement and craving fulfillment, and move us toward our Father instead. It is actually what enables us to be moved out of the camp of the human and into the camp of the son. When we choose the wrong way, he will instruct us with suffering and discipline, which trains us up to be His good sons who are hearing the voice of the Teacher and are becoming freed from the animal nature.

He who heeds discipline shows the way to life, but whoever ignores correction leads others astray.

During the days of Jesus' life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Although he was the Son, he learned obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him and was designated by God to be high priest in the order of Melchizedek.

The animal in us will always want to turn away from suffering in the flesh, the correction even the Son was subject to because that's what it always gravitates to; it's totally hell-bent on self-preservation and every move it makes is toward not becoming dislodged from its host. God made His own Son to suffer and conform, so we can expect we will be subjected to the same process he went through, because we aren't above our master and he was not a god who is infinitely different than we are. It is not all good and fine for him because he was the god who was the savior of all mankind, but we're just humans whose process must be different.

We do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin.

The Father knows what He's doing and what it will take to actually accomplish this in one who has been so thoroughly trained by the animal to oppose anything that threatens its survival. Not the mamby-pamby patty cake of mercy and goodness no matter what we decide we're going to do, but the crushing of His hand so that riffraff in us is quashed. There is nothing good that hangs around and easily allows itself to be conformed to another way than that which it has decided it will go.

For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Suffering in the flesh in order to become obedient sons isn't any kind of arbitrary suffering, or that which we bring on ourselves because of our defense walls we hide behind. The process is filled with purposeful situations engineered by the Word we hear, by which we learn to understand what is hard to accept because it goes against what we naturally want to embrace—that which feels good to our animal nature, what appeases the fear and satisfies the instinctual cravings. It's for the purpose of having the evil rooted out from our midst that is seamlessly embedded within us. We gradually become separated from it and unlearn things and feelings, beliefs and ways, that are so engrained in our nature that we could never move away from them on our own.

Why is it you are over-stepping the LORD's word, when it will not succeed? Do not go up, for the LORD is not in your midst, lest you be routed before your enemies.

There is nothing powerful enough within us to accomplish it. If we tried to do it on our own we would end up being like those who try to force something that cannot work, like pretending to love which is a mockery of the Son and his authenticity, and what he did in the first century which was actually real before that which was genuine left the earth desolate of the good thing it enjoyed, but only for a little while.

And you shall root out the evil from your midst.

The humans try to do it all the time, trying to do what can never be done. They fool a lot of people that way, because people want to believe the lie rather than the truth—why God gives them over to it. They assume the role of teacher and leader to fulfill their own ambitions, however hidden they are down in their self-preserving animal heart. If they were genuine they would be compelling, but they are like game show hosts trying to pull one over on the really ignorant ones who want to believe, as assume these charlatans are the real deal, even though the opposite is obvious. Yet they just keep coming by the droves. They put on the act like a flimflammer, pretending to be what they aren't, and to not be what they are. The people are so afraid and ignorant that they believe them—they trust that these bullshit artists can actually deliver them into the land promised to the sons.

That's another lesson from the Numbers reading: there was no other way except for that which Moses laid out for them. But they rather went with the men who scratched their itching ears, who told them lies about how great things were back in Egypt, as if they were. And they were willing to listen and believe that which hadn't been instituted by God. They chose the wrong and rejected the right. Just like the Israelites rejected Moses, the people and the rulers also rejected the greater Moses, because he didn't look right to their natural eyes, what they had already decided they wanted to believe in their hearts because it was against what was in them. They preferred to be ruled by the animal nature rather than the greater Moses.

Choosing to listen to the word and do what it says isn't the easy way. Think of the rich young ruler, how he honestly asked the Lord what he had to do to be right with God. Jesus' answer wasn't theoretical, it was simple and pointed. He was ironically worse of than the poor lame beggars, a reality that was not easy to accept. Nothing about the actual reality of God is easy for us to accept, because the animal is exactly opposed to it and we will hate it more than we love it. Being chosen by God doesn't mean that everything's nice and easy for what we love, or that the love and attachment to the things we learned to love will just be gone with a wave of the magic wand. Choosing is choosing, and that leads to life; denying is denying, no matter what lies, rationalizations or justifications we will want to believe.

The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, "He saved others; let him save himself if he is the Christ of God, the Chosen One."

There was a written notice above him, which read: THIS IS THE KING OF THE JEWS.


How long will this people despise, and how long will the not trust Me, with all the signs that I have done in their midst?

The living God does not need to cater to the whims of those who choose to distrust Him. There are consequences for those who purposely decide to join in with the riffraff and stir up dissension and fear because they themselves are overtaken by the fear they do not want to face. So they try to pull the others into their fear so they don't have to be alone in it by themselves. That is how the animal works, and if it can't gather consensus for itself then it goes into defensive mode and lashes out to kill and maim just like any wild animal does.

I the LORD have spoken: will I not do this to all this evil community that joins forces against me?

There is no real power in anything that the animal does because no matter how hard it fights and claws and thinks it's winning a victory for itself, it always loses. It always just dies, and then comes to nothing. It doesn't matter what it has gained for itself, built up around itself, or what victories it thinks it has won; they aren't victories at all because everything it thinks it has nailed down for itself just goes away like a puff of smoke as soon as its time is over. The only thing that lasts is what the Father has promised for His sons, if they choose to go ahead like Caleb and Joshua, supporting Moses and Aaron to believe and trust Him whom they believed could deliver them against all foreseeable odds. They couldn't control God, for the sake of appeasing the great fear that welled up within them and of the riffraff that made it flare up.

But My servant Caleb, inasmuch as there was another spirit with him, and he followed after Me, I shall bring him to the land to which he comes and his seed will take hold of it.

It would be good to consider what it was that the people did which God considered evil enough that He wanted to destroy them again and start over, as in the days of Noah. Joining forces with the riffraff against Him and distrusting Him who offered them the good thing was the conspiracy that Adam was guilty of. God told them what was what, but they didn't believe Him. They rather believed the snake who lied to them; it convinced them they could get something for themselves and they believed it, instead of being willing to wait for the Father to give them what He knew they needed. The consequence was real, and the human was bonded with the animal, the very one he conspired with, and the animal nature was put on him. The death God warned them about became a component of their existence.

And why is the LORD bringing us to this land to fall by the sword? Would it not be better for us to go back to Egypt?

We can only play on the mercy of God for so long before He gets fed up with our games and distrust. The fear is real, but the necessity to make a choice is real, and the miracle of the knowledge of the life is present or there wouldn't be a choice at all. When the people saw the 10 scouts who had created the viral fear bomb die of the scourge from God, then they saw and repented, but it was too late. They had already chosen to bind themselves with the fear and distrust God. Now, from the regret of having made the wrong choice and obeying the fear of not getting what was better, they want to overcompensate and again willfully go against the word that had been spoken.

For have you not turned back from the LORD and the LORD will not be with you?

The people didn't believe God to the extent that they became so irrational they thought they'd just wander back to Egypt and become slaves again—"Sorry then, our bad, no harm done." The lies and disbelief of the animals were like a spreading virus, the yeast that worked through the whole batch of dough that God wanted to form, but instead became infected by the evil of the snake because they chose to allow it in to their midst. Two of the 12 who went out continued to believe God, to remember the mighty works He had done for them, to believe that He would live by the covenant He made with them, as though they had another spirit within them than the rest. They believed He was powerful enough to drive out the inhabitants of the land, but the people conspired with the ten who spread the lies and unbelief throughout the camp against God and those who trusted Him, because it's easier to follow the instinct of the animal that's plentifully there.

...and they (the ones who will actually enter the land) will bear your whoring until your corpses come to an end in the wilderness.

We know that the copy of the accounts of God dealing with the Israelites exists as teaching for us, to show us how the secret life works. That fear virus will spread through the camp of the true Israelites just as easily if we choose to bind ourselves to it and distrust God, fighting those who are trying to move toward His purpose, causing discord and jealousy and everything else that's so destructive, because we aren't willing to face the fear and deny it. The clarity comes in discerning the truth via the life that's in us to teach us about trusting the unseen and denying the fear that's always in our face. It's not for the sake of puffing ourselves up with more knowledge or padding the ego component of the animal nature that tells us we are somehow better for knowing more of what's true than someone else. The deceiver will keep working the lies in us without stopping, so that even when we think we're okay we're actually being manipulated and lied to. Discerning the truth is for being pulled out of the old way of lies and disbelief, of only believing in what we can see with our eyes, that which seems apparent to all the humans. It is not to spread more lies by some knowledge we only assume we have in our dreamy minds which know nothing if that knowledge doesn't lead us to be pleasing to the Father.

The riffraff which spread the yeast throughout the camp is that in us which doesn't believe God. It is the thing that God hates, the thing that must be purged out of us if we are to become consecrated and clean enough to be brought near to our Father for His purpose and pleasure. It is how the good Son is teaching us now to be good sons for the Father. He's teaching us to recognize the right versus the wrong. Then he will instruct us how to choose it, against the will of the animal in us so it can be starved inside us and slowly quashed by its degeneration. It is far from being gone after we have been born of God; that is only the beginning. It takes years of just remaining in him, listening to the voice of the living word, and learning to obey it to be changed. And it happens in secret, almost unnoticeable to even ourselves, and totally hidden to others. Our only witness will be the others to whom it is happening.


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