March 30th.

Numbers 12-13 / Proverbs 8-9 / Luke 22

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I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.
With me are riches and honor, enduring wealth and prosperity.

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

There was a strong connection between Jesus and Solomon, who was wrongly assumed to be the one that Jesus actually was. Jesus saw many things in the proverbs as both personally for him as the true Son of David, what helped him know about the life that was inhabiting his body, which was the true wisdom and understanding that Solomon wrote about when he was possessed by the supernatural wisdom from God that he had asked for instead of being great.

Whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the LORD.
But whoever fails to find me harms himself; all who hate me love death.

The voice of the Father that can inhabit the body of His own son is the wisdom and the understanding that is given a life and personality in the writings, because it is a part of God Himself, extended out into the body of one He chooses to inhabit. It is the only way for a son to become transformed from a lifeless animal into that which can come near to God, to be close to Him as a son must be to know his Father.

When your days are over and you rest with your fathers, I will raise up your offspring to succeed you, who will come from your own body, and I will establish his kingdom. He is the one who will build a house for my Name, and I will establish the throne of his kingdom forever. I will be his father, and he will be my son.

Solomon was only a natural son of David; the real Son of David, the one about whom Nathan spoke to him in the prophesy of 2 Sam 7 was the one who would truly be led by that wisdom and understanding which was in Solomon for a while but had to leave because it was only a copy and metaphor of the better thing which would inhabit the true Son of David, the life of the Father who would inhabit the real Son perfectly, and His voice which would teach him how to be a good Son for the Father's sake—choosing the right—and not an animal driven by instinct—rejecting the wrong.

Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel. He will eat curds and honey when he knows enough to reject the wrong and choose the right.

This means that he will be a human and will have to learn to choose the right, and would not automatically just know the right (because of the erroneous assumption that he already existed as a god before he was born to the virgin). He would learn early, even when he was able to eat solid food, because the life of the Father would be in him since he was conceived, keeping him from being contaminated by the animal, teaching him how to live by not being driven by instinct like all the others.

Even David assumed Solomon was the one Nathan spoke about, and being endowed with the supernatural kind of wisdom from God that Solomon possessed for a while played into that assumption, which was the preview of the One who actually would possess it perfectly. Solomon chose the animal way; he was a picture of the anti-christ because he chose to satisfy his appetite for the various human animal cravings that welled up within himself—a very human thing to do. He followed the instinct that drove him and used his position to continue to indulge headlong instead of being led by the wisdom he had earlier when he wrote about it. He was made the copy of the better thing, the loyal and faithful Son who would choose the Father when none of the humans could; then the antithesis of that to make clear that he was not the one. Even the highly regarded David whom God loved couldn't say no to being led by the animal instincts to satisfy his animal cravings; to lie and betray the trust of his faithful brother then murder him and take his most loved possession and assume he could hide all his scheming from God.

The children were shouting in the temple area, "Hosanna to the Son of David."

The culmination of what all the copies and metaphors of the preserved words lived in him. He was the great one, the prophet that Moses predicted and the anointed one that Nathan predicted. He was the one whom Noah, Abraham and all of God's prophets represented, although only in an inferior way because they were human who were under the curse and bound to the earth by the nature of the animal instinct that lived in them and made them unclean, unable to be near their Father because of it. The spirit who led him was the one who Caleb and Joshua had embraced when they chose to believe the God who had led them thus far and not allow that other spirit of fear spread through them like it spread through the camp like a virus.

And Caleb silenced the people around Moses and said, "We will surely go up and take hold of it, for we will surely prevail over it." But the men who had gone up with him said, "We cannot go up against the people for they are stronger than we." And they put forth an ill report to the Israelites of the land that they had scouted, saying, "The land through which we passed to scout is a land that consumes those who dwell in it.."

The spies who went into the land and brought back ill report are like the unbelief inside us at the prospect of going into the land ourselves, which is becoming a son who isn't led by the fear of instinct. Like the Israelites, we have been shown things regarding the validity of the life that now lives in us, which cannot be validated in any of the ways we learned to validate our earthly existence (by the humans around us whom we could persuade to believe us). The spirit has proven over and over that we have been chosen to become set apart and move away from—to not be ruled and led anymore—by the old nature of the instinct that inhabits the animals. That is the way of satisfying our cravings and appeasing our fear, the way of the humans that always wants to rule us, the spirit of the ruler of this world; the devil, satan, the deceiver, our adversary which rules the humans, who think that the devil is some fallen angel flying around trying to coax the good people into being bad people. The evil is already there set firmly in place, and there is no turning away from it because it is what we are.

The things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man 'unclean.'

They're already there inside every on of the humans and they don't just leave because we think we're good or deserve to be clean. The process of becoming clean is the process that worked first in the firstborn Son. He was first born to the Father, then he grew up and learned how to choose the right and reject the wrong. It isn't difficult to see in ourselves the obvious residue of our disbelief, fear and stubbornness about being willing to be as God wanted the Israelites to be, how Caleb and Joshua were. That is, to not believe in the things we can see with our earthly faculties (that which seems impossible like conquering giants) more than that which we cannot see with our natural eyes because God is that unseen force of power and He has been proving it to us with invisible, unnatural teaching and occurrences that make us see He is our Father and we're being called to come out of the place where we were slaves. We cannot take, hold on to or control the life that has appeared to us, but we have to trust Him whom we expressly cannot do that with, which is a totally unnatural process that we aren't used to so it's a gigantically hard thing to do.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

We are faced with the same dilemma that Joshua, Caleb, Moses Aaron and Miriam were faced with—to be overtaken by the cravings and the fear that will abound because of the way things appear in the natural and we think we can have some control over the way things go, or to choose to believe the promise of the One we cannot control, to trust in another totally foreign process that we're not familiar with (why we want to control it so we can own it). Even though we know so much, and we've experienced miracles for so long, we easily default back to the nothingness of our unbelieving state in a second, overwhelmed by the fear or the desire to satisfy our instinctual cravings like an animal. It shows how strong the old nature still is within us, how susceptible we are to believing its lies, how alluring it is when it offers us the old fruit, that which we know on one level is bad and can only lead to death, yet on the other level we can't help but choose because it's alluring and we do have the ability to reach out and grab it by the power of our own arm. All our theoretical knowledge about entering into the land and believing that God will drive out our enemies by His power goes away and we can only see the lie and we have to choose. Maybe we'll be getting ready to enter the land for a long time. This is a time when we are learning to recognize the right from the wrong and to choose the right and reject the wrong.

The wrong (the way of the animal driven by instinct) on the other hand is always in it for the one thing to happen that it thinks will be the thing that satisfies it. "If I only had that, then things would be great—I would be fulfilled." That's what it lives for—not that it's a being which has a will and strategy of its own but a condition set up by God—to convince the animals to do all their lives. If we do get the thing we think at one time will satisfy us it never does, and another thing replaces it in our mind and heart as the thing that will satisfy us. We should notice ourselves being enticed to participate in the indulging the same sort of way, because it's efficient and consistent in how it was set up by God to be and work. Our quest to be able to deny it comes from a desire to become a son to the Father who is calling us away from that nature, to enter the land of becoming perfect, to being free from this nagging old animal always tugging on us to only believe in the things we can see with our eyes, to not believe what is unseen and uncontrollable. The ongoing temptation is to choose the promises that are not real, but those we can get now to be able to have and own for ourselves, and take and control of so they obey us and our desire to live our life as we want to, like everyone else does.

The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Although clad in warrior imagery, the life of the son who hears the voice of the Father and lives by the spirit isn't really like that to our humanity. It is unappealing, which is opposite of how it's portrayed in the churches like it's just another human deal that can be conveyed by the pinhead leaders and participated in by anyone with half a whim to go searching for the gods because he's bored with his life and wants to survive forever. God is pleased when the sons have faith even in the face of the flesh's unbelief, but it isn't a glamorous or attractive kind of deal at all. We are always convinced on some level that we can "arrive," that we can reach that place where we are no longer susceptible to its influence over us. We will try to make things happen by doing this or that external thing, convincing ourselves we can move closer to that "thing" we set up, prompted by the animal, that will get us to that other level, that will satisfy and fulfill us. If we ever did "arrive" in this life, then we wouldn't need faith anymore, yet that's what the animal allows us to believe is true. Faith is the hard way, it's what the animal hates, but it's what God loves, and the only way to please Him.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

To seek Him means that we seek Him even when everything else tells us that He is not there, and there is no point in seeking Him. To do the hard thing, and go the hard way—against what our animal nature tells us is the best way even though that doesn't give us what the animal can and does give us, but in reality it's just a lie to keep the unclean humans away from God. It's easy to say it and keep theoretical, it's hard to deny what we love, to betray our own selves as it's pulling on us to do its will. The example is Jesus, even though we believe the lie that he was so close to God that he wasn't susceptible to the lies of the devil (because he was a god).

He never actually "arrived" until he said "It is finished," until he betrayed his own earthly body to the point that it was actually destroyed—the ultimate fear of the animal, what it fights hardest to avoid. Even in the garden, right up to the point of doing the Father's will, he was severely tempted to not believe it was the way he had to go, that he indeed was the Lamb of God who would save the family of God's sons, past present and future; the very purpose of this creation.

Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.

It shows that the tendency toward a precarious vulnerability to believe the animal will be here while we're in these bodies. It was there for the Lord, who is our master. We have to continue to have faith even when it's the hardest, which means choosing what we know is the right and rejecting what we know is the wrong, trusting the unseen reality that is our of our control to own.


Then Satan entered Judas, called Iscariot, one of the Twelve. And Judas went to the chief priests and the officers of the temple guard and discussed with them how he might betray Jesus.

As soon as the adversary entered Judas (the metaphor of him choosing the animal way instead of being loyal and faithful to the One who could save him), the first thing he did was conspire with the enemy—those who most typified the animal in control of its environment. It is the same scenario that happened with Adam who trusted the helper who was conspiring with the snake to betray the Father. We also see that same type of situation later in the chapter with Peter being sifted like wheat, again by satan. Peter had all kind of intentions about remaining loyal to his master, but when faced with that temptation to save his own life at the expense of the one he had just claimed he would never leave, he caved in to it.

Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death.

All three instances reflect "satan" as being the instinct that lives in us to get for ourselves because of greed and ultimately fear. Judas betrayed Jesus not just for money, but what the money represented—ironically something that could give him security and save his natural life. What happened after is a direct nullification of that, just as what happened to Solomon is a nullification of his assumed identity. Jesus, who apparently couldn't save his earthly life or advance his cause, was in reality the One who could save Judas' life that was truly life. He didn't recognize that, even though he had been shown, instructed, loved and cared for by the Lord, who proved to him over and over that he was authentic and genuinely from God. Judas would only believe the animal's lies, what he could see with his eyes. He wouldn't respond to the love the Lord offered to him. Compare what Judas ultimately did with Peter.

Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.

What does "when you have turned back" mean? Peter saw what was truly in him, instead of what he thought, because again, he believed the snake's lies, that there was something noble and great in him. When he realized what was truly in him, he "Went outside and wept bitterly." He repented from what overwhelmed him, from the lie that he was good enough to be as he thought he was regarding his loyalty to Jesus. The way of God is not the way of man, internal or external to us.

The greatest among you should be like the youngest, and the one who rules like the one who serves. For who is greater, the one who is at the table or the one who serves? Is it not the one who is at the table? But I am among you as one who serves.

You are those who have stood by me in my trials. And I confer on you a kingdom, just as my Father conferred one on me, so that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom and sit on thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel.


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