March 29th.

Numbers 11 / Proverbs 7 / Luke 21

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And the riffraff that was in the midst felt a craving, and the Israelites, too, again wept and said, "Who will feed us meat? We remember the fish we used to eat in Egypt for free, the cucumbers and the melons and the leeks and the onions and the garlic. And now our throats are dry. There is nothing save the manna before our eyes."

These are important chapters for the sons of God, because they are the copy of the transformation and a warning about what we'll be tempted to do and how we'll be tempted to react once the journey starts. As humans we were "free" (compelled) to make our own way, to enjoy whatever was at our disposal to run after, to satisfy all our cravings in whatever way we could get away with—most of it approved of by the humans around us (even provided by them) and some under the radar because they are what the "bad people" do. Whatever the humans loved and ran after—legitimate or not—was fair game for us to fill our lives with too, and the purpose of our life was determined by securing those things for our selves. The humans find many things that are important about their lives; worth fighting for and hanging on to—sacred if you will, like their family and their career, their things and identities they maintain amongst the humans. These are the things that they would hardly walk away from because they do hold that level of sacredness for them. Running after what's instinctive to them is what makes them human, rather than a bear, goose or turtle which are also driven by instinct, but to do and be another kind of animal.

"Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go."

Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."

The purpose of the son of God is solitary and purely given over to learning another instinct, different than that which was naturally born into him. The dreams and aspirations of the humans aren't things he begins to live for, because he knows that the things that the humans love and run after all their lives to secure for themselves cannot satisfy him. That nothing is sacred except doing what the Father desires is the foundation of the new nature that must be born into him, then must grow and build up slowly in him like anything in the natural world, which entirely becomes so many teaching metaphors for him.

The sentiment of Jesus as he interacted with the humans who were following him and wanting to follow him was that it was more than hard, actually more like it was impossible to follow him because they were being misguided by what their animal instincts told them about him—that he could and would serve them by being their Messiah for whom they as a people had been waiting. However, he told them a different story about the Messiah, because they weren't actually waiting for him, but their version of what they wanted Messiah to be, who they would be willing to follow. But as soon as large crowds started following him, he told them that he wouldn't conform to the identity they created for him, but that if any of them were drawn to follow him by seeing him authenticity and being willing to identify with him, they would have to conform to what they did not want to be, as per the animal instinct that ruled them and defined to them what is acceptable and not.

If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple.

This statement in itself was abominable to the Jews who hoped for Messiah because their law was founded on respect and love for father and mother, even that those who didn't should be cut off from their people, literally killed. Yet the Son seems to be telling them that they must break the law to be able to follow him, to deny all those things they consider so sacred and important. All that which they could never leave except by death would all of a sudden be dispensable for them who must adopt a totally new framework for what they considered sacred. To follow him, they would have to be like him so that there could be only one thing that was important enough to hope for and live their lives for—to do the Father's will. Everything else they lived for, even the community that was based around the family, must become not valuable to them so that the one thing—finding their true Father—could become valuable at the expense of all the others, which truly are dispensable in light of their temporality and meaninglessness.

Another disciple said to him, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father." But Jesus told him, "Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead."

It isn't like he doesn't just say the truth outright. The words have been preserved, which the liars claim are infallible yet they ignore them when they're not convenient (when they don't serve their agenda). There is no weaving your devotion to God into your present life like it's some kind of hobby, so you can have both. There is only the faith of the called son who hears the voice that allows him to be "over the top" in his devotion to the Father and His purpose, which is not man made or even known amongst the humans because the language is different than they speak. The real Jesus tells them plainly that their lives and identities can and must all be left behind to go where he's going, which is to the land that is being promised to him, that which the metaphor of the earth promised to Abraham was only a copy of and only pointed at—the true relationship between the only living God and His chosen and called sons, which is His purpose from the beginning.

The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.


A full month of days will you eat meat till it comes out of your noses and becomes a loathsome thing to you, inasmuch as you have cast aside the LORD Who is in your midst and you have wept before Him, saying, "Why is it we have come out of Egypt?"

The experience of the Israelites is interesting, because knowing what they should have done, we think well why did they always do what made God angry—didn't God know that they'd constantly turn away from Him and back in toward themselves? Did God fail in His attempt to make Israel into an obedient wife? It's about the instincts that wanted to and did rule them instead of them being conformed to what God was and wanted to be doing with them. To conform this rag-tag bunch of slaves into a holy and obedient people who wanted to do His will is such the important message and teaching for the sons, who are exactly those Israelites. They play an important role in being that metaphor of how the sons are taken for the Father's purpose, especially in how they must conform to another code of instinct than what was already in them. Replacing the old with the new is a very simple way to put it, but it isn't at all simple because it comes from Him whose simplicity is far above the humans' most ingenious complexity.

No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment, for the patch will pull away from the garment, making the tear worse. Neither do men pour new wine into old wineskins. If they do, the skins will burst, the wine will run out and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved.

God's way is so far above our way and ability to comprehend anything that is real, especially His purpose in the world of the humans. We see and therefore conclude one thing when another is actually true. These accounts are copies about the secret life of God, what He desires His sons to know about, what is hidden from the rest of the humans who all think one thing is happening when in fact another reality is the actual truth. The true reality of God's world is hidden so that what seems like actual life is just an illusion, and the "life that is truly life," is something much different, and only revealed to those chosen for that (like Jesus and those specific disciples chosen for him to be his brothers, the true sons of God).

When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, he said of him, "Here is a true Israelite, in whom there is nothing false."

The sons are pulled out of the world that only seems real, because it's tangible to the dying senses of the humans. They are shown another reality, that of God, which cannot be comprehended in the world by the animals existing in it, because it's so incomprehensibly unnatural. However, the sons don't fight the world to overcome it as super heroes ("men of god" amongst the humans who praise them) for the humans' sake; they fight it within themselves to allow God to purge the animal instinct (the real satan to the sons) and its influence out of them so they can understand His reality. Both of them can't co-exist; one has to be in the process of being abandoned for the other, which is overtaking. The choice for the son is whether he is able to abandon that which is so alluring and appealing, all that he knows in order to go the hard way, what is repelling to him in his natural state because it seems like something made up, like something out of a child's imagination, not for "grown ups."

I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

The true sons of God will become like little children making up unbelievable stories, scorned by those who think they know better. They are the ones who keep their life and think they can have God's guarantee too, like the rich young ruler who thought he could keep his wealth and be right with God too, or the man who wanted to stay with his parents as any respectable Israelite would have, and then after everything was tidy and it was a responsible thing to leave, then he could follow. The sons of God have to become ridiculed and scorned by the "responsible" humans, thrown out of their institutions and judged as unworthy, because that is the way of the only true God, who is against the humans, not for them. The gods who are for the humans are the ones they make up, like little carved images they can hold on to, who serve the humans who make them.

"Why is it we have come out of Egypt?"

The OT stories are merely a copy of what God intended, beginning with the firstborn Son Jesus and holding true for all His sons. Being pulled out of the world (Egypt) is what happens to us. Like the Israelites, we grew up in Egypt and learned its ways (the way of man); how to survive, how to please ourselves, how to get what we need to satisfy our cravings, to appease our fears, to feel like our life is worth something—valid in whatever way we're able to make that validity stick.

The account of God, Israel and Egypt is for our sake. What is important is His intention for her, that while she was growing up in Egypt He was actually preparing a place and a home for her to live in. When He was ready, then He pulled her out and introduced Himself to her, and intended to take her to that place He had been preparing, which was now ready. The land He had prepared for her is the copy of the relationship that He wants to have with each of the sons He desires to pull out of the world and make His own, and give them His name. That is to move us away from the world of the humans, with all of our animal cravings, fears and anxieties, away from the state of consciousness which produces the constant feeling of an undercurrent of the need to survive (where all the fear comes from) and hide.

That is what slavery in Egypt represents for the son, a slavery to the nature that we were born with and learned to serve, which keeps us a slave to it without any choice but to serve it. The humans don't even see it as a thing they can or need to be detached from, although there are increasing attempts to identify it as something negative within psychotherapy and modern mysticism because of so much tendency toward distressing behaviorisms. Even on a mundane level there is dissatisfaction with the way things are, but no ability to actually identify what is missing or wrong, just a lot of band-aid treatments and theories.

As God desired to deliver the Israelites into the land, He also promised them that He would drive out the inhabitants of it so they could live there in peace and safety, without the constant fear of being taken over by another hostile force of people, those who didn't belong to Him. However, there were requirements He stipulated to them because He knew what was in them, how they would be influenced and contaminated by them if they allowed any of them to exist within their borders. We should know that the reason for the copy is to tell, warn us about the same thing, that He desires us to come away from the world and its influences on us, because an exposure to it will contaminate us, just as it contaminated the Israelites.

And the riffraff that was in the midst felt a craving, and the Israelites, too, again wept and said, "Who will feed us meat?"

The stories are for our good, to show us what happened to them as a warning to show us what to do if we want to grow up into Him as a healthy son instead of one that's lame or retarded because of the evil we couldn't turn away from, even if it seems harmless to just act and be like all the others. God's sons are not like the others; they are special, and have to be special or they cannot be brought near to Him so that He can enjoy them. If they can't be brought near Him because they're polluted with the evil that is naturally in all the humans and the evil isn't being rooted out from their midst, then they can't be enjoyable as sons to their Father, and they're no good to Him.

If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned.

We can't be changed unless we are separated from the world and all of its seemingly benign influences on us. We can't hear the voice of the living word if the world is speaking to us and keeping that evil alive within us, which drowns out the voice of the Teacher. The animals learn how to be from each other, and the nature breeds itself in each of them and feeds on itself to remain alive.

The NT writings are also for our good, because they show us the thoughts and understanding of a few of those who had been pulled out of the world and had been given the new nature, most obviously Paul. It also shows us, as in the case of the Corinthians, some who had been born of God but who kept wanting to go back to the world and the things they knew, and the trouble Paul had with them about it.

As you have heard that the antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come. This is how we know it is the last hour.

The voice of God isn't in the world in its manifestations, especially in church, where everyone there assumes God is, yet in reality it's just filled with a bunch of humans, all breeding the animal nature within each other, keeping it alive with all the ways they are fully humans, anti-sons. Not the faces of a hideous demons, but regular humans who were in the process of changing the truth into a lie, which they successfully accomplished in the few centuries directly following when this was written.

They went out from us, but they did not belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us.

The process of learning how to be a son by hearing the voice of the Lord is just that, and not learned from other humans. The humans will just incubate the evil in us by even our exposure to them. That is why the process of being set apart is not just from the "bad people" (those who aren't "in the truth," or who haven't accepted the made up jesus as their savior), but from those who are evil, the mere men who are not sons, who carry around the seed of death—the animal nature—in their bodies, which is highly contagious and disastrous for the son of God whose purpose is to become clean for their Father's sake, so He can come near them and enjoy them as sons.

One of our first reactions and desires to the life in us will be to instinctively attempt to tell other people; because it will seem so true and make so much sense on a so completely clear channel for us, and we will immediately assume it must be the same for others. What we don't realize is that we were chosen to receive it into us, and they most likely weren't because the sons don't receive their validation from the humans, from whom before they always received it. It's not random like the religious communities say; it is as the word says, not accidental at all. God chooses those who He wants to be His sons, according to His will, not ours.

All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.

No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up at the last day. It is written in the Prophets: 'They will all be taught by God.' Everyone who listens to the Father and learns from him comes to me.

The reason we don't choose who will be sons is because we would obviously base our decision on our evil persuasions, prejudices, and our own human sentimentalities—things that are useless to God because they were formed in us by the world and the way of man, His enemy. Anyway, we cannot convince anyone to believe in something not available to them; it has to be there first and it's not just automatically there because we want it to be, or because it's in us. What we should be doing is concentrating on keeping ourselves clean by becoming separated from what makes us unclean. Not just the humans themselves, but the nature they can't help but promote and reinforce in us if we are joined to them. It's not the humans themselves but the nature that is in them, but we can't separate them from it because it is what gives them life and the ability to function. That is what the voice of the Teacher will confirm in us if we have been chosen.

Even the smallest amount of Canaanite influence on the Israelites was a bad thing according to God, and according to the way things went for them. Even the smallest amount of yeast will work all through the batch of dough. All that is in the world and the humans is the animal nature, the way of man versus the way of God, the thing that will contaminate us—not do us any good. If it's not totally eradicated in us then it will always be a threat. Our Father wants us to be and feel safe, and be able to comprehend His great love for us, and we can't have both things, we have to choose one or the other.

Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever? What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: "I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people."

"Therefore come out from them and be separate, says the Lord.
Touch no unclean thing, and I will receive you."

"I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty."

These guys were serious because they knew that what was happening was real, and they knew that the preserved words were for their instruction, to teach them by the metaphors it contained about the secret life they had been thrust into. It wasn't just a powerless religious institution that they could weave into their lives while they continued to live like every other human. That's what it became a couple hundred years later in the hands of the abominators, who took the hidden truth and turned it into something palatable, for human consumption, as it is now—a lie which could be morphed into hundreds of different versions.

The call is always the same for all of God's sons; it is get yourself ready and respond, or say it's too hard a teaching to hear, and turn away from it. It is build me an ark so I can save you and your family, or go to the land I will give to you, or follow me and you will be saved. It isn't ever to do what we want to do and then feel acceptable because we partly followed, it is all or nothing, every time, and it's easier for me to say than it is to do because I have to abandon what I've always counted on to appease my fears and walk out into a place I don't know, where I have to trust another to sustain me, who is hidden. I can't conjure him up whenever I feel afraid, but have to just wait, trust and believe. He will save me in a way I didn't even think of, which I couldn't have orchestrated. Again, easier said than done because I never did live like that before; I was always in control of what I was able to get to appease the fears and satisfy the cravings in me.

We will learn that God is happy when we do trust Him in the capacity we are able to, and we are rewarded by being able to more easily hear the living word speaking to us, which is the only way we can actually be changed. That is beginning to be our solitary purpose, to hear the call and respond, becoming more pure all the time as the things of the old way fall off us. It's the only way we can even begin to understand His love for us, to know what we are to Him. We can talk all day long about it theoretically, but that isn't it. If we don't actually separate ourselves from the things that used to prop us up it will just remain theoretical, like the religious teachers who babble their lies all day long but have nothing beyond an act, and the consensus that the approving humans give them who say they're right. It's very confusing and difficult to understand in and of ourselves, by what we naturally possess, and it won't make sense because all we know is the wrong way.

We will eventually learn that the best place for us is to be separated from the way of the humans (the nature that rules them), and not in trying to recruit them. Anyway, trying to recruit others is the way of the animal, because it's merely an attempt to get someone else to believe the way we believe, which saliently validates our life and purpose. It feeds the egotistical cravings of our nature to be validated. The humans have to constantly, in their attempt to emotionally survive, believe that their life has some valid purpose. It's also another way to avoid having to trust God, because if we can see someone else believing what we believe, then it's easier on the animal level, where we only want to believe in what we can see with our eyes and hear with our ears.

That's the way of all the animals, and what will tempt us as it tempted the Lord. If God wants more sons, He will make them Himself; if He wants us to help Him rear them, we'll have to be much stronger than we are, or the evil in them will just bowl us over. The only to get stronger is to be separated from the old influences so we can hear the voice that whispers, and we can learn and be changed.

"There is nothing save the manna before our eyes."

The manna that comes down from heaven is the the only bread that God wants us to feast on. Unlike the world, which has many different variations of things that seem appealing, but can never satisfy us. God made us that way, so that we could only be satisfied by the manna He has to offer us, and nothing else. No frills or variations to satiate our itching soul, but the bread that comes down from heaven, which can keep us close to our Father, and safe.

The son learns that that's all he needs to remain in him, to be safe, to be known by the Father and to know the safety of the Father's love for him. Everything else, all the things the world has to offer, is for the animals. They can help it feel a little less vulnerable, and little more insulated from the fact that they are heading for the grave with no guarantee of being redeemed from it. The guarantee that the son has is alive, because it is the living manna, the life of the Christ in spirit form.

Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked.

For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.

So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.

No matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God. Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.


And the people became complainers of evil in the ears of the LORD, and the LORD heard and His wrath flared and the LORD's fire burned against them and consumed along the edge of the camp.


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