March 19th.

Leviticus 27 / Psalms 140-142 / Luke 10

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Let the righteous one strike me—it is a kindness; let him rebuke me—it is oil on my head. My head will not refuse it.

Yet it was the LORD's will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the LORD makes his life a guilt offering, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.

If we can't find an agreement like we used to be able to find it's okay, because the way of God is not like the way of man, so we shouldn't try to make everything align with the way we want things to go and we can't figure out how things are going to be because our brains are like peanuts and we really know nothing. We may be being obedient to what we know within our self, and expect to feel the goodness and closeness of the Father. The reward of closeness is what the son lives for, but it may not happen all the time at our beckoning—for our good, for the purpose of learning not to expect from God as we would from the humans. We have worked the suffering of the Son into our theoretical framework, but we don't ever expect it for us, because what's in us is geared toward always avoiding suffering and what better way than to keep it theoretical.

Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one cares for my life.
I cry to you, O LORD; I say, "You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living."

The way the animals gratify the craving to feel correct and find that agreement within themselves that they love and need to be able to feel is by surrounding themselves with other animals who feel, act and say what they believe, which gives that necessary agreement the animals crave. People feel good about going to church because even though they know it isn't the same truth that existed in the first century that the leaders claim it is, they try to make it that because they feel like there's no other option. They can see the discrepancy between what Jesus said—that his followers have to give up their life to follow him—and the leaders, who say you can have your life and also have some guarantee from God about an eternal state of surviving if you just adhere to the lies they're babbling. But then when they observe how everyone is agreeing with the lie, they can't imagine how they could all be wrong so they just join in and like all the others around them, pretend that they have what the leaders claim.

You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' But I tell you, do not resist evil. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.

First fear, then either hiding or retaliation is the way of the animal, the way every one of them responds in a threatening situation. David wrote that he was happy to be struck by the man of God, undoubtedly referring to Nathan striking David with the words from God about his offense. David is happy because he knows that without the truth he is in a prison of his own deception about what and who he thinks he is, in which he tried for a little while to exist and hide from God (like Adam hid from God), until the word came to Nathan, and then to David. That was the word that told him about the lie in his heart.

The LORD sent Nathan to David. When he came to him, he said, "There were two men in a certain town, one rich and the other poor. The rich man had a very large number of sheep and cattle, but the poor man had nothing except one little ewe lamb he had bought. He raised it, and it grew up with him and his children. It shared his food, drank from his cup and even slept in his arms. It was like a daughter to him.

"Now a traveler came to the rich man, but the rich man refrained from taking one of his own sheep or cattle to prepare a meal for the traveler who had come to him. Instead, he took the ewe lamb that belonged to the poor man and prepared it for the one who had come to him."

David burned with anger against the man and said to Nathan, "As surely as the LORD lives, the man who did this deserves to die! He must pay for that lamb four times over, because he did such a thing and had no pity."

Then Nathan said to David, "You are the man! This is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: `I anointed you king over Israel, and I delivered you from the hand of Saul. I gave your master's house to you, and your master's wives into your arms. I gave you the house of Israel and Judah. And if all this had been too little, I would have given you even more. Why did you despise the word of the LORD by doing what is evil in his eyes? You struck down Uriah the Hittite with the sword and took his wife to be your own. You killed him with the sword of the Ammonites. Now, therefore, the sword will never depart from your house, because you despised me and took the wife of Uriah the Hittite to be your own.' "

The first truly great offense against God was that David tried to hide, to lie and pretend that he could keep something from Him, which caused the chain of deception then finally what he did to Uriah, David's faithful servant. Their relationship pointed to what God loved about David—that he was honest and faithful in his heart toward God his Father. He believed God saw even into his deepest parts, and he didn't try to hide from Him, but allowed it to be cut wide open and exposed. It's not an accident that the first thing that happened to the human, when he chose death, was that he was afraid of God and hid from Him. What father wants their child to be afraid of him? Yet that's what the nature of the animal is as its very definition concerning God—the nature of fear which causes the hiding behind the metaphorical tree, which could be anything we build around our selves, things that the humans encourage in and celebrate about each other.

What Jesus is saying to those he was responsible for (the 12 men chosen by the Father for him to teach and reveal the truth to), is impossible for mere humans to do because it requires a different nature than what they possess. It was equally as impossible for them to just say that that's what they wanted to do, and then go do it. That's what the crowds did, who gathered around him and listened, as if to say, "Oh yeah, we like what you're doing and what you're give us more food, then make us great and we'll definitely follow you." We see how faithful they were to Jesus when they turned away from him when his words were too hard for them to accept. Those words couldn't find that place of agreement with them so they abandoned him, which says that they were not following him for his sake but theirs, just as long as they had any hope of that. Once he started telling them that they had to eat his flesh and drink his blood they turned away, which was his plan to weed them out and away from him because they weren't honest in their desire to follow him, they just wanted something for themselves.

In order to teach the 12 disciples about the new way, the way that God actually was, and what He was about to do, he had to personally take them away from the culture of man. For three years he fed them, clothed them, gave them sanctuary, and taught them the way of God, which eventually replaced what was in them when the power of that life became available to them (when Jesus became One with the Father).

At that time Jesus, full of joy through the holy spirit, said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children. Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure.

All things have been committed to me by my Father. No one knows who the Son is except the Father, and no one knows who the Father is except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him."

Then he turned to his disciples and said privately, "Blessed are the eyes that see what you see. For I tell you that many prophets and kings wanted to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it."

It was equally impossible, though, to please God unless they did what was impossible for them to do because of the prison of their animal nature, as per the words of Jesus. So what kind of quagmire is this, that God expects something that is impossible to give? He explains the predicament, the way out, to Nicodemus in John 3. He also provided the way out for the disciples, but not until later. However, the process wasn't by any power they had, and they couldn't just go out and get born from above. God chooses those He gives life to, because those become His sons. They love and depend in Him for the life that they know they don't possess without Him. They cry out for their Father, who doesn't give them the agreement they want or expect, because of the evil that's still in them.

I cry aloud to the LORD; I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.
I pour out my complaint before him; before him I tell my trouble.
When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk men have hidden a snare for me.
Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge; no one cares for my life.
I cry to you, O LORD; I say, "You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living."
Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me.
Set me free from my prison, that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me because of your goodness to me.

They had to learn to have a heart like David, which pointed to the heart of Jesus, who was the model for what the hearts of all God's sons must become. That heart came not by them finding that human kind of agreement that they craved—that which was approved by what was inside them—but by being crushed and mutilated by the Father so that they sought another kind of agreement, that which lasts because it is the agreement with the Father's purpose instead of the feeble yet persistent one that was naturally in them, from the animal.

They had to learn that they didn't possess anything good within themselves, even if it was only part of their thoughts, something living in the back of their heart. God responds to a heart that knows it is nothing, which doesn't believe it has everything it needs, or can get to God on its own, or else doesn't need Him. Because that is never something that will be found in a human natively, what is in them must be quashed in real terms, or else the animal will just continue to live there.

That is the heart of the animal, which lives its life in the field or the forest—or the world—for itself, never desiring nor comprehending God's life or way, or its predicament. It does what it can to survive, to build things up around itself to insulate it from what it fears most—death. The heart of the son of God will start out like an animal's, but that's what the life of Jesus, in spirit form, is for—and why he must live in us if we are to be free from the old heart and nature. That's the heart of Mary, who sat at Jesus' feet and listened to his words because that's what she wanted, what she loved.

Martha had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said.

But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made (the way of the animal). She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me! (Command her to be responsible in man's affairs)"

"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

Only one thing is needed, not to be busy and concerned with the world's concerns, but recognizing and then being attentive to the true word, which Mary recognized as the only real food that can satisfy, but Martha could not because she was busy making food. The good news for the present age, because of the life, work, decision, sacrifice and love of Jesus for the Father, is that a son can be born of God instead of the animal. If that happens the life of God, the spirit, the voice of Jesus, the living word, the message of the kingdom gets born into us as a seed. Then the seed sprouts and grows into a tiny plant, and the plant into a tree, and the tree keeps steadily growing so that its roots are able to hold it up.

When we're young the truth in us is dim, and we need miracles to keep us going. It's how the Lord keeps us moving toward him and the life he has planted in us. Otherwise the flesh is so strong, and it makes us too dull to respond to him. It's heavy and overpowering, bulky and clingy, and too much a part of us to just shake off and comprehend the word that has been planted in us. That is why there are so many miracles in the beginning. The thought of the miracles going away might be scary, but fear is from the animal, and is only there because we're ignorant of who the Lord is and the work he's doing in us, and the nature of the life that's growing there. It's also because we don't trust him; the animal can't trust anything it can't see or comprehend with its natural faculties.

The reason the miracles change is because we don't need them as much, because the life is stronger, more able to stand on its own within us. Even in that they don't actually go away, but they change into something more enduring, less tenuous, less dependent on being propped up. Like a pole driven in the ground next to a young, vulnerable tree is needed for a while. As the tree grows it eventually doesn't need the the pole anymore because of its strong roots. That is an enduring miracle—it is a surety, an awareness that the life is there, living in us, and growing. As God's nature grows in us it becomes stronger and the animal nature becomes weaker.

That's never to say, though, that we become independent or strong on our own, or by some power we think we possess we're able to take over. We don't reach a point where we don't need to rely on the power of the Lord to continue to sustain the truth he put in us. That is the meaning of what he told the disciples in John 15 about remaining in him, abiding in him. If we think we can do or be anything on our own, that is the way the animal thinks, not the son. The son depends on the good shepherd, as per what makes God happy, because God loves order not chaos. The Son always brings order. Chaos is the animal way, with everyone of them going whatever way they feel like going. In God's house, His order rules and there isn't any fear of renegade power seekers, what the snake convinced Adam to do.

In the world of the animal there isn't any order because it's every one for themselves: "Screw the other guy (unless he's carrying my DNA); I need that and I'm gonna get it." In God's world everyone looks out for their brother, because they have the interest of the Father first and foremost. The reason that can be so is because the animal nature has been taken out of them so they aren't controlled by it anymore. Once we are born of God, then the rest of our earthly existence becomes a looking forward to that world, and a moving closer to it as we're increasingly more able to emulate it, as the life in us grows stronger and stronger.

The Lord is the spirit; and where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom (unlike for the Israelites, who couldn't even look at Moses' face after he had been with God because they were so unclean and unable to be brought close to even His afterglow in the face of Moses).

We, who with uncovered faces are all beholding the glory of the Lord as in a mirror, are being transformed to the same image (of Jesus, the good Son) from glory to glory (increasingly, as we grow up into his life), even as from the Lord the spirit (it comes from the life that's living in us, Jesus in spirit form—the living word who speaks to our heart and teaches us how to be good sons for our Father's benefit).

Paul speaks a lot and gives clues about what was happening inside him, as the life of the Lord was growing there. Paul never wrote generically, but rather to a specific group of people about whom he understood were being transformed, as he was. His intention is to encourage those who have committed their life to the Lord, as he did, how to continue in the new way of God so they could understand what was happening to them. He was able to do this because he was farther along in the life. He was merely explaining how the life was growing, what was happening, and exhorting the brothers to continue in the way that had been started in them. Paul wrote to the audience of those he knew had been chosen by the Lord to be sons of God, and no one else.

Paul is never writing as some powerful church father, laying down the rules for how to live, a phenomenon later developed and attributed to him as part of the lie and myth which took the truth captive into the new Babylon. Paul was a small man who looked weak & frail , plus he was blind. In his day, someone who was blind was not considered very powerful, nor was he honored as some great and honorable man—an identity the liars made him into. The power he had came from inside him, because it lived in him. He didn't do miracles; the life of Jesus living in his body did them, the same as Jesus didn't do the miracles he performed. They were done by God, who lived in his body, as Jesus lived in Paul's.


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