February 18th.

Exodus 29 / Psalms 85-86 / Mark 14

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"You will all fall away," Jesus told them, "for it is written: " `I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep will be scattered.' But after I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee."

Peter declared, "Even if all fall away, I will not."

"I tell you the truth," Jesus answered, "today--yes, tonight--before the rooster crows twice you yourself will disown me three times."

But Peter insisted emphatically, "Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you." And all the others said the same.

We can't count on our sentimental emotional episodes of intended faithfulness to the Son and the Father to be true because they are based on natural circumstances that change, and therefore so does our resolve to be and remain faithful to all sort of good intention that we may have at one time generated. Everything in and about this natural existence disappoints; even when we feel so strong in our commitment to the cause of the Father, like we could never be pulled away from that strength of commitment, it can be phantom because it comes from a place that is susceptible to change, the same way that Peter was unaware at this time of open declaration about his commitment to the Son and his cause—because he didn't quite understand what it was yet—to what would come over him in just a little while. At the time he hadn't the notion that he could completely betray that declaration of his as mere sentiment propelled by intention through ignorance of the fear that would soon engulf him. When the fear mode came over him that he also couldn't control, he totally backed away from his previous declaration. Just as strongly as he declared how devoted he was to Jesus, he similarly as strong swore that he never even knew Jesus, which was another sentiment of complete and total abandonment of him, because of the emotion that was created by the fear that came over him that he couldn't control.

He began to call down curses on himself, and he swore to them, "I don't know this man you're talking about."

The point of saying not to do it or that we should be aware of its possibility is only the beginning of understanding what its purpose is for the sons to be able to read, where a deeper comprehension should be taking them. That is to understand that everything that happens within this human experience is prompted by an observation, mixed with whatever already established prejudice we are carrying inside our minds, which leads to a feeling that guides us one way or another, because we're animals driven by instinct. Sensing that something is some way happens on a level that is below our thinking and deciding about how we're going to feel, or what we're going to do about it.

Are you the Christ, the Son of the Blessed One?

That level of sensing that something might be happening is a hunch of instinct that drives us to feel and react within our selves to handle whatever that situation is posing to us, that we need to react to or how we're used to feeling and acting when we're in a certain observable situation that we can sense. It's all very pavlovian, and that's how we should be reading this episode because that's what's important about it. To see how Peter was given over to his notion of being so attached and devoted to Jesus because of what he sensed and expected would or might happen, based on what he felt about Jesus' authenticity, is to begin to see what the Father wants His sons to know about themselves.

Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.

The point isn't whether Peter was right or wrong to declare such and such one time or to act this or that way another, but to see that he was driven by the instinct that instantly welled up within him because he sensed something that told him what to feel and how to react; in each of the two instances the opposite way from the other. This mediocre phenomenon that everyone seems to be able to admit and even make jokes about is the very thing that Jesus the Son of the loving God calls satan, the devil, the serpent who is the craftiest of all the animals. That animal instinct which seems so benign and unimportant is the deceiver and adversary of the sons, because as animals that is what naturally drives each one to tell them what to feel and how to act by sensing what the situation is, tempered by so many other factors of experience that work with the inherent fear to dredge up whatever propensity they normally feel or indulge in based on what they are sensing at the time, in the moment.

In the Jesus/Peter example above, Peter was being led away by his emotional craving to be something, to establish himself as a certain way that seemed like the desirable thing to be (committed, devoted at all cost), and he got the others to join in with him in this strategy of sort of rousing the rabble in them to talk about what they were going to do. But who knew what was what, and why did he know it? Jesus told them the truth about what would happen because the Father—the voice of the living word inside Jesus—told him plainly, although secretly, about what would happen. He disclosed that to the men and they responded that he didn't know what he was talking about, all based on that erroneous emotional craving they were trying to satisfy—to be something or somebody within themselves or by some power they thought they could harness and control.

At his point in time Jesus had not yet risen from the dead and ascended to the Father to become One with Him, so as to be able to come back to these very same men and live inside them as the Father presently lived in him, to make them into beings as he was, who was certain of the truth because of the spirit that lived in him, who knew they would fall away. He knew things they couldn't know, because the spirit of truth (the unseen life force of the invisible Father) lived in him, and it (He and the Son as the new Father/Son Being created after the Son wen to the Father to become One with Him) did not live in the men yet. All they had was the frail and unstable emotional sentimentality driven by the animal nature that lived in them, which doesn't know anything except what gets projected up into it when mixed with the fear that lives in its heart, based on what it observes with its animal instinctual senses.

The next thing he did tell them, just after he said they would fall away, was that it was okay, because the reason they were going to fall away from him was because of their imperfect senses that didn't know what was happening according to the Father, but only what they observed with what they had at the time—that their master and leader had just been quickly and unjustly judged and executed, and now was dead along with all that momentum that was in them because of their emotions, what they erroneously projected because of those limitations of what they had within them. Clean perhaps, because of the word that Jesus spoke to them, about the Father's intention to claim them out of the world and adopt as His very own sons; but definitely not aware as Jesus was aware.

Jesus followed up what he told them by saying something that didn't seems so important, but was the most important thing—that he was going to be raised from the dead, and then he'd go ahead of them into Galilee. He was telling them that they couldn't control or even understand what was going to happen, but he was also letting them know that it was okay because even though they couldn't hang on to and control their desire to be faithful to him, nevertheless the Father was going to raise him up from the dead as the ultimate vindication and validation that He truly did live in Jesus, and then he would "come back" to live inside them. Jesus was the only one who was right, when everyone else was wrong, and he had to believe that the Father was going to prove that by vindicating him—raising him up.

"My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death," he said to them. "Stay here and keep watch." Going a little farther, he fell to the ground and prayed that if possible the hour might pass from him. "Abba, Father," he said, "everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will."

Here is something valuable regarding our belief and faith about what's happening inside of us, which is not validated by any of the humans. This is about the true faith of Abraham, believing what he couldn't see or prove, but which manifested itself as the voice of God, hidden and not seen, not provable, yet which he believed and followed what the voice told him, even though the cost if it was more than we could ever bear or do. That Jesus was the only one who believed that the Father would raise him up was significant, because he had doubts about whether that was true or not.

After I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee.

He told them that they were all going to fall away and be filled with utter grief because of fear and what seemed to be (he was dead), an they would believe that more than they were able to believe he would be raised from the dead, even though he kept promising them that he would. They however didn't want to chance that, because they didn't believe Jesus; only what their natural faculties told them, which certainly wasn't that it was okay that he died because of course the Father was going to raise him up. They were not in control, but completely at the mercy of what they trusted, and all the regret and fear that came with what appeared to be true on the outside, according to their natural faculties and everywhere and way the animal wanted to twist them by its deceptive manipulating.

Here's where we should understand and come to grips with the fact that that's all we have too. We are not as Jesus was, because the animal is strong in us and able to dupe us without our even being aware of what's going on—which is just how it is. We will search for some kind of agreement within ourselves, like Peter craved and then tried to fulfill by his emotional declaration. We will want to find a way to control our devotion to the cause of the Father, but what we have within ourselves will only be a temporary thing which doesn't last, and just as soon as something within or without us changes, so does our fragile sentiment about the agreement we had just been feeling a little while earlier, what we thought we keep us, what we thought, hoped we could control and hang on to.

The point isn't that we give up because there is nothing that can ever be true that comes from within us. It's also that we see how unenduring and fragile what we have to offer and find that agreement with actually is, therefore to not trust it because it's going to change and then all the resolve we took so much comfort and refuge in will just vanish and we'll find ourselves blown over to this or that area in our mind of not being able to believe. Then we'll think all is lost, and wonder what the point is, until we can find some more agreement by that same temporary process within us to satisfy that craving for safety, security—that everything's still okay between us and the Father.

What we have to realize and learn is that all that stuff is central to the animal consciousness—the deceiver and adversary—and there is nothing we can manufacture within ourselves that will allow us to hold on, to control our situation, to have it and keep it and have power over it so it won't go away from us. That will parade as some kind of duty we have to be vigilant about as protectors of some kind of truth we think we possess and need to protect, which is what all animals do with everything they think they possess and feel they need to control to protect for themselves, so they can keep it and own it because it's theirs. It's just satisfying that need/craving within us and believing the lie that we have something within us to be able to secure it for ourselves, which is how the animal must do everything—hunt, secure, attain and keep by whatever power it has within it to do that.

Everything the animal does within us to manipulate us to believe its lies is wrong because it's based on the old way. The only thing we have going for us is the intention of the Father to remember us, to raise us up and be in His family. That is what makes us clean, that He has come and made His intentions known to us. We didn't make this up, nor do we every day manufacture by some sickness reserved for crazy people what we think we hear and know to be true, because we're the only ones who it seems this process is happening to. We cannot find agreement with what seems to be happening in us, with how we observe the world and its inhabitants works, what they have, do and know.

All we can know is what we've heard, that the truth that lived inside the sons in the first century is evident by the testimony of the writers of the letters that were preserved. Because of what we observe about those who claim to know the way to God, we also have to believe that Daniel said the same truth would only endure for a little while, then it was going to go away—and that it did, because it's just not here. That it would go away is reinforced by Jesus' words and by Paul and others in the letters they wrote. We can only know that the predicted desolation has been in effect since the whore cemented her hold and finally fulfilled Daniel's prophesy (around 400 or so a.d.), and that's what we see in the humans, whether or not they claim to want anything to do with the God of the Bible. Just a darkness and a desolation of what was once in place, what we can assume was in place by reading the testimony of those who were under it, but now doesn't exist because it is God's intention that it is that way. Sure people have been trying to attain to what the first century sons had, but it's ludicrous to think that it must be somewhere amongst the humans even though it's obvious toward the otherwise.


And I shall meet there with the Israelites and it shall be consecrated through my glory. And I shall consecrate the tent of meeting and the altar, and Aaron and his sons I shall consecrate to be priests to me.

The chapter is a picture of God's purpose and desire, the copy in the natural of the spiritual reality. The taking for Himself a chosen group of men who would be special from all the rest and the process of cleansing that made them holy enough to be fit for that purpose and identity. The bathing, purging, the bringing near and laying on of hands, splattering and consumption of the flesh which had been made holy, set apart for that special purpose—not for the common but His special group. All of it is a picture of the spiritual process that happens to the sons who become set apart for God, all His own, pulled out of the common and made holy.

First they're bathed and made clean on the outside. Then they're brought forward, the Hebrew word used both for "to bring near" and also "to sacrifice." So the priests are brought forward to become consecrated and set aside from all the rest for God's purpose, to carry out the ministering to Him, what He desired from them. In a very real way they were sacrificed like the animals, because their being chosen by God meant they would not have a life like all the common Israelites. They would not receive an inheritance of land like the others, among other ways they were set apart from them. God chose them to be different, a special consecrated group within the larger group which was also chosen out of the world to be special and holy, within the world of common animals.

And this shall you do on the altar: two yearling lambs each day, perpetually. The one lamb you shall do in the morning and the other lamb you shall do at twilight.

It all points to Jesus the Lamb, God's final sacrifice, the perfect meal that would satisfy God. He was only calmed, never satisfied, by the temporary yet perpetual burning of the flesh of animals, one in the morning and one at twilight. The Lord's blood satisfied the need for the perpetually flowing blood of animals and the perpetually burning fragrance that God loved to smell—a soothing savor to Him. He commanded it as part of the covenant because it reminded Him of the Son who would be coming to fulfill everything that was now being set up, the Son who was in God's mind since the beginning of the world, who was coming but had not yet arrived.

The Father anticipated the Son, and had to wait for him to come, until the time was set. Then he came and he was perfect, as the Father wanted him to be perfect obedient to Him and perfectly disobedient to the serpent, so he could become both symbols—Lamb and serpent—to fulfill the necessary requirements to give the Father what He wanted from the beginning, His family of sons. The key here is that the Father had to wait for the Son to come, and He put all these symbols in the world to remember ahead to when the Son would come. Then the Son came, and after he was raised up he went to the Father to become One with Him, to be close to his Father and never have to leave, nor would the Father ever have to have His Son leave Him. That satisfied the Father, who had that craving to have His Son with, near, as close as he could be to Him; and went Jesus went to be with Him, that was satisfied and He was/is/has remained happy.

This could in itself be at least an adequate answer to the dumbfounding question of why the desolation and darkness all this time, since a little while after the Son did go to the Father i.e., His direct dealing with the humans wasn't as important since the Son was with Him to be able to enjoy. This is a good argument in favor of God not being a robot, a machine-like creature who has everything planned out and is affected by nothing. Rather, He can be seen as what the humans were fashioned after—a being who has feelings, changes His mind and responds to situations. Certain things make Him unhappy (the unfaithfulness of His people) and unsatisfied (having to wait for His Son to be able to come to Him), while other things make Him happy and satisfied. This is also a good reason to believe that Jesus was not a god who was already with the Father, who was sent down to become a human, die for our sins, then go back to the Father, which reduces everything that the words say into meaningless conceptual blather, and the God of those words into the robot machine. That religion should be made fun of and belittled, because it's all based on lies that were made up my humans in the second and third centuries.

And they for whom atonement is made shall eat them, to install them, to consecrate them, and no stranger (no common Israelite) shall eat them, for they are holy.

The animal that was given to God was made holy, not common like all the others, so it had to be visually perfect. Then they laid their hands on the animal, by which God made it holy, acceptable enough to be offered to Him. This is the process that in effect purifies the animal's heart, if you will, so that it is made holy throughout. As much as it cannot be done by the animal being sacrificed, it also cannot be done to man, who is by this process offered up to God just as the animals are. What they did with the meat, though, is the perfect copy of how God would make a man holy throughout.

...and it shall be consecrated through my glory.

The blood was splattered all over their outsides to make them clean, to purify them in that sense. But the eating of the meat symbolized that they were taking what was made holy by God into their bodies, so that they could be pure even inside, in their hearts. No common Israelite could eat it because it was for that purpose, and only Aaron's sons were chosen for that purpose. This is a copy of the spiritual reality, and points to the Lord establishing the new ritual of the taking into the body of those who were chosen to be sons not just the flesh of the Lamb of God, but also his blood. Even that only pointed to how important to God the son's heart is—not what can be seen on the outside, whether he was circumcised or not, but where no one can see but God. It symbolizes his being purified throughout, in the hidden places that are seen only by God. And this can only happen by the miracle of God's power, because of His intention that it be so, and only by His effort.

First he said, "Sacrifices and offerings, burnt offerings and sin offerings you did not desire, nor were you pleased with them" (although the law required them to be made). Then he said, "Here I am, I have come to do your will."

He sets aside the first to establish the second. And by that will, we have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.

The earthly life of Jesus is the example for the sons of their real life—not natural, but spiritual—and they all go through it. The earthly life is where we show our devotion to what and who we love. Not the things that are temporary and passing away, but like Jesus we learn to put this existence (what appears to be life, what the animals consider life) aside, so that we can grab hold of the life that is truly life. In effect we don't grab hold of it at all, but it is given to us who please God by our faith, and showing it by our setting aside this life so that we can gain the other. That is faith, that we believe enough to actually do it, what God loves.

What isn't faith is merely saying it with our mouths, while at the same time grabbing life for our own purposes and ends in our heart, and how we actually live our lives. What isn't faith is running after everything that the humans run after, and then with our mouths saying how much we love God and how much faith we have, what God hates.

My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth.

Only God can give us the ability to do what Jesus did, to believe enough to act on what has been put in us. Very much the seed of life, the silent voice that was in Moses—which he miraculously heard and which allowed him to respond—must be in us too if we are to respond. We can only respond to something that's actually there, or else it will be inauthentic. Like all the self-appointed religious leaders who read the words, decide it's something they should be doing, and then try to respond to something that's not there; it's phony and forced, obviously manufactured from within themselves according to some ability they might have cultivated (like public speaking, or being a charlatan).

Authenticity is a gift that comes from God, not an ability of our own which might indicate that we did something to deserve having it. His decision to give it is based on something hidden, that He has decided according to His criteria which is good and right and above what we can know. The genuineness of the words spoken by the Lord didn't come from his own ability, but the power of the spirit of God that lived inside him. Same thing for Paul, who stated emphatically that his power came from nowhere except the life that lived inside him too.

When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.

The joke of christianity is the whore's lie, which takes everything away from the Lord. They say he had that authority because he was a god before he was born, so of course he would have authority. That means also that God didn't actually choose Jesus to live in and that he didn't need to be made holy to allow for that process to occur. It also has created the terrible lie, pervasive amongst the christians, that the spirit is in all of them, that it isn't concerned with whether the vessel has been consecrated and made holy or not—but that God will just live in any common animal, since it lives in all of them. Ridiculous heresy it is, which takes away everything from Jesus as per his sanctified holiness, and makes their god a whore who will live anywhere and in anything. It also means that they don't mean anything to their god, that he has no preference at all who is one and who isn't.

The problem with the christadelphians is that they follow the whore's lead with her rituals yet never understanding that they only point to the spiritual reality. There may be an intention to love God, to be devoted to His cause, and to love their brothers, but in actuality they cannot do any of that if it hasn't been given to them to be able to do it or be it. That ability is something they have tried to take by their own power, and it doesn't work. The point is that the gift hasn't been given, so they aren't able to be true to God, which explains a lot about ecclesial impotence. Even if they try, they cannot help themselves from doing what animals are slaves to do, which will win out over their intentions. They may desire or intend to, but in fact they cannot actually love God or their brother, because that ability has to be given—it is not taken. So they're just the same as any religious institution, except they have a few more facts right. Everything else remains the same, so many rituals practiced over and over which cannot save or redeem, because they are powerless to transform. Everyone there, despite their intentions, is an animal just like all the other humans.

After the Lord ascended to the Father, there was an outpouring of the spirit into the humans, which made some able to properly set aside their existences for his sake; they were able to love him even more than their own lives, like a proper and faithful bride. It allowed them to have the faith which pleased the Father, who was pleased with the faith of the Son. After the long darkness of the whore's reign over the humans, perhaps the reverse will happen. Instead of slowly dying out as it did in the second and third centuries, perhaps the truth will slowly be reintroduced back into a small population of the humans, coming to a head when he has a proper bride waiting to greet him, one who loves him and eagerly anticipates his appearing. Perhaps Joel's prophesy will take two parts, one in the beginning and one at the end. I do think that when the Lord does come back to get his bride, the Father will desire her to be a faithful one, a group of humans who are being transformed into sons of God and a bride for His Christ.

All of the details about the transformation of God's chosen group of priests comes to a head at the end, with His ultimate reason and purpose for the humans—God dwelling amongst His faithful people, who have been brought close to Him and made clean and holy. It's about if we have been consecrated or not, in our hearts, which is the truth and identity of who we actually are before God. This isn't an altar call, because only those who are drawn to be able to recognize what is true will be able to. It isn't by believing lies though, or sitting around assuming we already have it, but knocking on the door for the gift. Not a gift that can give us something for ourselves—that is animal thinking—but a gift that can make us something different than what we are. It is what can take a snake and turn it into someone who is useful to God, someone who is actually able to receive His love, and then love Him back. In reality the Lord gives gifts to men so that they can become pleasing to the Father, so the gifts are ultimately for His benefit, which is how it should be.

And I shall abide in the midst of the Israelites and I shall be God to them. And they shall know that I am the LORD their God who brought them out from the land of Egypt for me to abide in their midst.

I am the LORD their God.


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